What I Should Have Done

by cows0816

I should have held you closer. I should have kissed you sooner. Before you became what you are now.

Yuuki… I should have done that sooner. I should have done that before you became a vampire… Though, I suppose that's what you've been all along.

I should have kissed you that night when you were so close… I nearly did. But even then, you loved him, but I had a chance… I like to think that I did, at least.

When you were crying because of fear after going to headquarters, I should have held you tighter. I should have held you closer. I shouldn't have let go of you… No… I'm still holding on. My heart is still desperately clinging to my memories…to that kiss.

I'm sure that you know now how I've always felt about you. You were always there for me. You always did whatever you could for me.

But now you are my enemy, and in pointing Bloody Rose at you… My heart truly broke.

A younger me would still want to be by your side, but I'm not young anymore. I'm not innocent anymore, not since that night… not since I became a beast.

I wish you would have killed me. I told you that I would have been okay if you did, but I was able to feel you next to me one last time. I was able to kiss you goodbye. I was able to give my heart what it craved one last time before one of us are killed. You said that you're going to keep running to force me to live, but when you left with him, it killed me. And now all I can do is continue as I am: a beast, a hunter.