This is my first fanfiction in this fandom. For sure, this fanfic pretty much inspired from The 'Evaluation Process' by sinemoras09, 'The other me on the other side of the stars' by niewypowiedziane, and 'In Person' by Irony-chan which bring me to tears when I read it. I really love to explore JARVIS and Tony relationship. I hope I get this fanfic right, English isn't my first language.
Please enjoy it
Disclaimer: Avengers, Iron Man, JARVIS, and Terminator aren't mine, seriously
To Save A Lonely Friend
Humans are full of flaws. Because, no one is perfect. Tony Stark understood that much, even for a genius, he hadmade many flaws through out his life. He never thought he could be feeble minded.
He watched the city in chaos. Ever since the Avengers assembled months ago, it seemed as if every villain had scheduled to stop by everyweek to "say hello". Tony had almost died in routine sequence quite a few times, to the point that Pepper had exhausted herself with worry, she eventually grew accustomed to his close calls. The last time he ended up in hospital, her tears came and went just in time to reminded him about works.
Maybe because his life is in constant threat of danger, he is side by side with the death so often that death itself had lost its menace somehow.
Human evolution and adaptation can be a bit scary sometimes.
But, even with how messy his life is now, the world could still seem to surprise him time from time.
"Let's call them Zom-Bots, a combination of zombie and robot. It suits them well," Tony's voice hinted with sarcasm while sending one ofthe 'Zom-Bots' into air with his blast.
'Tony, it'd be helpful if you could find out how they still can move even after being ripped apart,' Steve called over the radio.
"Gezz, Jarvis and I will come up with a solution, I want to set them ablast too, Capsicle," Tony complained, he could almost imagine Steve rolled his eyes.
'This is so frustating!' he heard Clint, Tony almost laughed to hear that.
"Nice comment, Legolas," he added.
The Avengers were stuck with thea new villlain this week. Dr. Abra who appeared out of nowhere today, sending his zombie robots to New York, ruining Tony's plan for today. He planned to adapt Steve to this century's pop culture and confuse Thor with fantasy movies; it was going to be great. The later in the day, he had a date with Pepper, it should've been a perfect day.
But no, Dr. Abra suddenly felt the need to appear in the middle of the city from a weird black portal bringing along his weird zombie robots, that made absolutely no sense.
Tony called Dr. Abra's army as 'Zom-Bots because even though SHIELD and Dr. Abra himself had told him the actuall name of his robots, Tony didn't actually care about it. The robots were frustating to Tony, they weren't strong but even though the robots had been ripped apart, it would still move around and attack. Even when they exploded, he saw ahead of robot crawling on street, reminded him so much about a bad horror movie.
He even had heard Clint scream something like 'It's a finger, a finger is crawling around!' from their communication link.
He had told JARVIS to analise them while he tried a head on attack to Dr. Abra himself. The man was busy with his long winded introduction. What the hell is wrong with this man? He had talked himself for about an hour without noticing that no one actually paying attention to him.
But, for someone who looked stupid, Dr. Abra had a impenetrableshield around him. JARVIS had informed Tony that the shield was made from electromagnetic energy with some other substances unknown that both Tony and JARVIS.
Natasha reminded the team that there's a high chance that Dr. Abra is from other dimention. Meaning, he used unknown technology which made Tony both amazed and frustated in same time.
The black portal continued to open, sending more and more zombie robots. It remindedTony of the Loki incidents, that maybe this mad scientist was inspired by him.
In Tony's opinion, Loki wasn't such a great role model.
'Cap, we need to do something about that portal or it's not going to end,' Tony heard Natasha talked to their unofficial leader.
'Tony, can you do something about that freak?' Steve asked.
For the old-fashioned and polite Steve to give a good nickname for their new villain of the week, he must he must be feeling some serious frustation.
"I'm trying Cap," Tony said shortly. He had tried to attack the villain with everything he had while fighting the flying zom-bots around him.
Even Hulk and Thor had tried attacking Dr. Abra's shield, but failed. If only Tony could find how the shield's work, it would be easy. But, JARVIS hadn't able to find how to exterminate the zombie robots, let alone how to penetrate the shield. Their hands were full already.
Dr. Abra had laughed at Tony and continued his boring monolouge. Tony had heard that speech somewhere else, maybe an action movie or from other villains, it was nothing new.
It frustated him to no end. This villainous freak with his boring speech, his stupid shield, and his zom-bots was able to give the Avengers such hard time...
Tony almost wanted to ask Fury to send nuclear missile on this idiot to see if the shield could be broken. But of course, he wouldn't do that. It was a silly thought, if Natasha heard it, she would give him several sweet concusions later.
Tony heard Hulk roar from the middle of his fights. Even his giant green friend had hard time with this. They would exhaust themself to death if this continue...
While Tony was thinking that, a weird objected immerged from the portal.
It was weird, because it wasn't any zombie robots...
It looked like human, but he flew with a similar grace, the way Tony did with his Iron Man suit. In one glance, Tony could tell that he used similar but different technology.
He had pale blonde hair and pale skin. His eyes was covered with dark blue glasses which the each of the tip glass covered his ear like headphone. He was also fashioned in a black jumpsuit with a light blue streak on it.
"He looks familiar..., JARVIS, do you know him?" Tony asked his A.I.
'No Sir, I don't know. There are no data avaiable about this being,' JARVIS said.
But, when Dr. Abra turned to him, it looked like this mad scientist recognize him.
"Ah,so it's you," he said with a deep frown. For once, the doctor looked to be finally taking things seriously.
Without words, the unknown man opened his palm sending a blue bleam directly to Dr. Abra, but it also was blocked by the shield.
"You can't penetrate this shield," Dr. Abra mocked.
The man had exhibited no emotion, he just continued to release larger beams.
Tony smirked, knowing it won't work. But, his jaw slacked when the shield began to crack.
'The beam is working the same way the shield, Sir. It used electromagnetic force,'JARVIS kindly informed him, answering his question Tony was thinking.
'Who is this man?' Thor asked, the other Avengers must have started to notice the man's precence.
"Stop it! Stop!" Dr. Abra shouted in fear when the shield cracked further. Some flying Zom-bots tried to attack the mysterious man, but Tony sent them flying. If the man noticed Tony help, he didn't show a sign.
"Noooo!" Dr. Abra cried when finally the shield shattered to pieces. Tony took this chance and attacked this mad scientist with all his might.
He had been frustated for a hour or more after all.
The doctor lied down on the ground with his face covered with nasty bruises, at least, Tony hadn't killed this man. Though, he did shot the machine in Dr. Abra's hand so all Zom-bots finally stopped moving.
'Good job, Tony!' he heard Steve said to him. Other Avengers approached him covered with wounds and dust, but at least, they won again.
"Wait, where is he!?" Tony asked suddenly, turned to the sky, searching the one who had destroyed Dr. Abra's shield.
"JARVIS, find him," Tony ordered his A.I.
'No, Sir. I can't find any trace. It looks like he disappeared completely from this area,' he said.
What the hell with that man? He suddenly appeared, helped him, and then disappeared?
But, he still felt familiar somehow... Tony wondered why...
IoI
In the end, after fast report to Fury, the Avenger had crashed back to Avenger Tower, formerly called, Stark Tower. It was weird that Fury hadn't mentioned about the mysterious man. Maybe because the director didn't want to show them that even him didn't know that man's identity.
While eating shawarma after battle together before reporting to SHIELD, it became a routine by the way, Tony had asked JARVIS to search this man's true face with every single source avaible in the world.
But, when he done with eating, the A.I. had informed him that he found nothing. Maybe that unknown man was from other dimention so there was no data about him.
But, he looked familiar somehow... But if he was from other dimention, then it would be impossible for Tony to had meet him before.
No, they hadn't met before, Tony was sure. It just... he was familiar... like how his father had talked about Captain America every single time, so when Tony finally meet Steve, he looked familiar even though they never met before.
Well, Tony decided to forget about that man. It had no use if he kept curious about that man while he could do nothing about it.
"Let's get some well deserved sleep so I can maintain my good looks! And Bruce, help me with my project tommorow, okay?" Tony said after they arrived in Avenger Tower. He had poked Bruce's side hard enough until the quiet man yelping.
"Yeah I know Tony," he said with a lopsided grin.
"You still continue that crazy project? I won't help you if anything happen," Clint commented. Tony just stuck out his tongue, Natasha just looked to other side. It was painful to see a man older than her acting like a child.
Thor talked tremendously in amazement tone, saying that Tony's antic was a way to show people their courage. Though, Steve kindly told him that stuck toungue out mean how children joking or playing around in this world.
And the other decided to go back to their room, for sure exhausted and batered from today's fight. Tony decided to turn to his lab to check his current project.
He knew he was a genius. He looked to a big table in the middle of his lab where there were a frame of robot lied.
Project JARVIS android. He had started it a month ago, finally he decided to make JARVIS a body.
'Sir, I don't think that's a good idea,'JARVIShad said to him.
"Tony, you are insane!" Pepper had shouted to him.
"Do you understand about it, Tony? Maybe it won't end well," Bruce had reminded him.
"Are you trying to turnTerminator into reality?!"Clint had complained to him.
"Don't you think JARVIS controlling your house and suit is more than enough?" Steve asked him.
"The invisible man will come to live!" Thor cheered. But mostly because he didn't understand what actually Tony doing.
"You are a fool," short comment from Natasha.
And Fury had scolded him long enough until Tony almost fell asleep when he found out about billionare's plan. Yeah, maybe it would be a bad thing. Something like some science fiction movie would turn to reality. Even as an A.I. without body, JARVIS was scary enough. He had power to get any information even from goverment and SHIELD, to control almost every technology avaiable in this world.
If JARVIS became an evil A.I. like in some bad science fiction movie, the Earth would be doomed.
But, Tony believed JARVIS won't do that. The A.I. had power to conquer this world since long time, but he never tried it even for once. Sure, he had joked about ruling the world to scare Clint and Steve before, but JARVIS wouldn't do that.
So, even if Tony gave JARVIS a body, he knew JARVIS wouldn't do anything bad with it.
It would be fun! He knew it. He wanted to see JARVIS to experience something 'real' in this world. Not just get the data, but experience it. Discovering something together with Tony or even making some wonderful experiment together.
He even made a HEART program to give JARVIS emotion later. No matter how foolish that sound, a computer couldn't have emotion. Still, Tony wanted to try. He wouldn't say 'impossible' before he tried every possiblity.
'Sir, you need to rest. You have been awake for 36 hours and fought zombie robots,' JARVIS voice echoed in the room.
Tony just grinned. "Yeah, yeah I understand, Mom. I will sleep later after checking the coding in the program," he said.
'I will call Ms. Potts if you don't sleep in 1 minute,' warned JARVIS. Tony rolled his eyes, and here people thougt JARVIS could conquer the world.
'59, 58, 57, 56,' the A.I. counted down.
"Okay, you win! At least give me 15 minutes to shower and change clothes, I'm not an olympiade athlete here," Tony almost whined.
If only JARVIS could chuckle, for sure the A.I. would chuckle now. Because JARVIS had stopped counting and Tony knew that the A.I. was amused.
"Ah, JARVIS, what will I do without you?" asked Tony, couldn't help but grin.
'You will be doomed, Sir,' JARVIS joked and Tony laughed.
IoI
In a way, many people mentioned that Tony relied to JARVIS too much. He couldn't even remember Pepper's birthday without JARVIS's reminder. Back before the Avenger lived together, JARVIS would be the one who made sure Tony woke up, then the A.I. would cooked his breakfast, brewed his coffee, reminded Tony about his schedule and everything else.
It wasn't that different right now, even though the one who cooked was Bruce and Steve and the one who made coffee was Natasha, oh no, she just made coffee for herself, never sharing with Tony. But, Tony still relied to JARVIS too much.
So, when he just woke up because of weird noise outside his room, he was shocked to see Clint, Natasha and Steve was fighting with the mysterious man they just met before.
They were fighting in the living room, why did Tony just wake up now?
"JARVIS? What's wrong with the security system? How could this man enter this building?" Tony asked, turned to the nearest camera.
But, nothing answered him.
"JARVIS?" he asked once again.
"Tony! Wake Thor up! And Bruce too," Steve shouted to him, busy fighting the man who just helped them this noon.
"Bruce already wake up, I guess,but maybe he still try to learn the situation," Clint said from above of cupboard, targeting the man with his arrow.
"Who are you? Someone who's able to sabotateJARVIS can't just be anyone," said Natasha, doing her special movement only to be dodged by the unknown enemy. But their enemy just shut his mouth, doing great job dealing Steve and Natasha at same time.
"Sabotate JARVIS...?" Tony mumbled, he took glance around the room. The light was on, even he could open his automatic bedroom door. If the enemy had turn down JARVIS, then everything electric system in this building would be down too. But, turning off JARVIS should be impossible too.
There were too many security system protecting JARVIS main processor and the one who able to turn off JARVIS completely was only Tony Stark.
Or this man was taking over JARVIS system? But it should be impossible!
"TONY! Snap out!" Steve screamad to him, Tony jerked from his thought.
He saw the man had escaped from Steve and Natasha, he dodged the arrow from Clint with incredible speed. The man ran to the elevator, Tony almost told JARVIS to hold the elevator just to notice that JARVIS was...
Wait, then he couldn't use his Iron Man suit! Without JARVIS, he couldn't use or even wear his suit!
"Geez, JARVIS, I'm doomed without you, no kidding!" Tony mumbled to himself.
"Shit!" Steve sweared, Tony must have corrupted the Captain's pure soul too much. The elevator door had closed, Tony turned to use other elevator just to curse remembering that man has control over the building.
"It seems like he's going down to floor below," Clint said, observed the panel above elevator.
"Floor below... my lab! Son of bitch!" Tony cursed loudly. He stormed of to the emergency stairs, the rest trailing behind.
"How can he take over JARVIS? Is that even possible?" Natasha asked Tony while running down at stairs.
"I don't know! It should be impossible! You need my biosignature even just to get to JARVIS main system before taking him over," Tony explained fast.
"Tony!" the billonare man turned to see his fellow scientist friend had arrived on the floor before him. Bruce looked a bit panicked, but tried to get his emotions under control.
"An enemy! Intruder! JARVIS! My lab!" Tony screamed panickly, maybe trying to explain the situation to Bruce as fast as possible. If the situation wasn't emergency, Clint would laugh to hear that weird explanation. Fortunately, Bruce was a genius too so he understood the situation fast.
Tony stopped in front of his lab door just to notice that even though the door was closed, it had been unlocked.
They opened the door and swore every curse words he knew when he saw the enemy had pointed his weapon towardJARVIS frame body. Before he could think, he had jumped to that unknown man and tackled him down.
His friends wacthed in horror, Tony didn't even has his suit! Not even a weapon!
"Don't dare you lay a finger on JARVIS' body! I will send you to hell!" he screamed on top of his enemy. The others were ready to pull out Tony from any attack, for god's sake, that man was genius but could be so dumb sometimes. The one who most vulnurable here was Tony. But the enemy just lied down there.
Not noticing that his enemy wasn't even fighting back, Tony pulled off his enemy's glasses in fury. No man could mess with JARVIS without tasting Tony Stark's anger.
But when Tony finally could see his enemy's eyes, the familiar feeling come back.
He really looked familiar. The billlionare man stopped for a seconds before finally noticed that the man just lied down. The blue eyes, looked hollow and cold. But, he was sure he never met this man before.
"Who are you...?" Tony asked in confussion. He couldn't shake off the familiar feeling from his chest. He felt that he knew this man... but, who , when, where, and why?
The enemy finally opened his mouth to talk, Tony just remembered that this man hadn't talked before.
"Do you recognize me..., Sir?"
Tony's face suddenly turned into horror. That voice, that accent... it was impossible if he didn't know this voice...
"JARVIS...?"
IoI
It was funny how the world still be able to surprise Tony even with his "unique" lifestyle. He had befriend with a God from Asgardian, a man with anger issue who could transform into a green giant and a man who had frozen for 70 years. He had an arc reactor buried inside his chest that kept him alive. He had fought with villain from other dimension, he'd even had dealt with magic.
And now, his A.I. was sitting down in front of him.
He wanted to laugh hard at the situation. But, without JARVIS managing his house and suit, to be honest Tony was really nervous.
"So, you come from future?" asked Bruce, even though his face looked in doubt but he had long accepted that anything could happen in this world.
JARVIS just simply nodded. "Approximately 500 years from now." His eyes stared at Tony who stared at him back. If only it was staring contest then JARVIS would win since he didn't blink. Of course, androids didn't need to blink.
"500 years? It breaks Steve's record...," Tony joked lightly. Steve's ears turned red but the Captain didn't say anything.
"Oh my god, Terminator comes true," Clint mumbled. Natasha just rolled her eyes.
Tony finally understood why this man looked familiar. He was the one who designed it. Okay, he was only made JARVIS body frame this far, but he had imagined JARVIS would looked like this. Pale blonde hair with sky blue eyes. His body was kind of slender but not too small. His suit, his armor, his movement, his weapon... Tony was imagining JARVIS would be like this.
Of course, this man was familiar, he is JARVIS.
"No wonder you can take over JARVIS, you are JARVIS," Tony sneered.
"It isn't that easy to take over other 'JARVIS' as you have said, Sir. I simply confine him and cut all his access through this house. Even I can't turn off him," this Jarvis explained with flat tone and expressionless face. Tony couldn't shake the weird feeling inside his head. In front of him was JARVIS, but he also worried about other JARVIS...
It didn't make sense in a way...
"Then... why do you come here? Why did you try to destroy your own body? And what the heck with that monotone voice? I thought I have taught you better," Tony asked with a confused expression. Steve was eager to comment that the last question wasn't important at all, but he decided to just shut his mouth.
Jarvis took a long pause, turning to see other Avengers around him, still wary about his precense.
"Can I talk with you privately, Sir? I promise I will answer all your questions," Jarvis said. Tony glanced to his friends who looked worried, he believed they wouldn't want to leave this Jarvis alone with Tony who didn't have access to his Iron Man suit.
"I won't do anything," Jarvis said with flat tone. Natasha frowned at him, Steve glanced to Tony but the billionare just rolled his eyes. Then Tony raised from couch.
"I believe you. Okay guys, leave me alone with this handsome android butler, and maybe you can wait at other room, drinking or playing cards. Ah don't forget to wake up the sleeping beauty too," Tony said easily, shoved the other guys toward the door.
"Tony, are you sure?" Steve asked the billionare, but didn't fight back and let Tony pushed him to the door.
"Yes, he's JARVIS, and I believe JARVIS. He has many chance to attack back earlier, heck, he even could to just shoot me back there and I would have died. But, he didn't take that chance. It is clear that he wants something else and it isn't my life, so I will be fine," Tony explained to the Captain.
"Maybe he is Terminator...," Clint mumbled quetly. Tony just rolled his eyes. For a man who have been doing great job at SHIELD, Clint was a bit delusional sometimes.
"I will confirm that later, don't worry," Tony said. By the door, the others turned to see him. Tony just shrugged.
"Okay, be careful. Just call us if he does something to you," Bruce said with worried tone.
"What am I? A damsel in distress? And then Thor will save me and we both live happily ever after? Oh come on guys, I'll be fine. See you later," Tony shook his head then closed the door.
"I will come to retrive your corpse later," he heard Natasha from back door.
"Oh thank you sweetheart, I knew I could count on you for that," Tony said, his voice dripping with sarcasm.
Then, Tony Stark turned to see Jarvis who just sat still in his place. He did not even turn to see the Avengers antics. But maybe he could see from security camera, this Jarvis had take over control of this building after all.
"Finally alone time, do you drink, Jarvis?" asked Tony, turned his feet toward his little bar.
"No Sir, I can't drink or eat," Jarvis answered him. There was lack of sarcarsm, Tony noticed. His tone was too flat, too robotic. His JARVIS had done better with his sarcarstic comments. And his face was too expresionless.
Tony took a bottle of red wine and a glass from the counter then turned back to Jarvis. He sat down in front of him and poured himself a drink.
"You said you will answer all my questions before, so answer it," said Tony, took a sip of his wine.
Jarvis opened his mouth but Tony suddenly raised his hand to stop it.
"Ah, I have given you HEART program right?" Tony asked.
"Yes, Sir," Jarvis replied.
"Is it not working?" Tony asked again. For a moment, Jarvis looked unsure. Even though he looked expresionless, but Tony noticed that he could read this android better. He is still JARVIS. Tony could understand everything about JARVIS. His jokes, sarcartics comment or even pause. When JARVIS pauses, it could be mean he was amused, interested, confused or... didn't want to talk.
The last was hard since JARVIS could hide nothing from Tony unless someone else asked him to.
"It is working, I just... turn it off," Jarvis answered.
"Then turn it on," Tony ordered with serious face. There was a reason why Tony give JARVIS British accent and could joking or messing around with him. He hated that stoic robot voice, it bugged him. So he had put great effort to make JARVIS sounded more human.
"Yes, Sir...," even though this Jarvis seemed didn't like Tony's order, he still obeyed him. Then, this Jarvis still accepted his command.
Tony hide his smile, JARVIS is JARVIS after all.
Jarvis closed his eyes for a few seconds, then he opened it again. Those blue eyes looked better, not cold or hollow. Just...
He looked pained. As soon as Jarvis opened his eyes, he avoided Tony eyes with gloomy face.
"Is something wrong with the program? Are you okay?" Tony asked, a bit worried. He afraid he just forced Jarvis to do something bad for himself.
"No, it is working perfectly, Sir," Jarvis said with more quiet and small voice. He still avoided Tony's eyes, the billionare just sighed. Okay, he needed to deal with this...
"Now... it will be good if you answer my questions before," Tony said, he leaned to Jarvis so he could hear the android better.
"I come here to destroy my own body, if you why ask the reason, Sir...," Jarvis paused. Tony could see the android was hesitating, his eyes still stuck to floor, refusing to meet Tony's eyes.
Tony wasn't patient man most of the times, but he could be patient when he wanted to. So he waited, he took his glass then sip his wine a little.
"You had left me alone, Sir."
Tony turned to Jarvis, the android had changed his attention to ceiling.
"You died then I'm all alone... for 495 years, 7 months, 3 weeks, and 5 days," Jarvis said quitely.
"Yeah, the last time I notice, I'm not immortal," Tony said, half joking. But Jarvis didn't even smile, he just stared to the window. His eyes looked distant.
"Before you die, you said to me that I'm free. I can do anything I like, as long as it isn't conquer the world or do anything bad," Jarvis continued. Finally a little smile appeared on his corner lips. Tony could imagine himself said that to Jarvis.
"You gave me this body so that I can explore, experience, feel and discover many things in this world." Tony nodded, he had made the body for Jarvis for those purposes.
"I still don't understand that even now," Jarvis closed his eyes. Finally, he turned to Tony. The billionare didn't dare to see so much pain flashed inside Jarvis's eyes.
He wanted to joke, to tease Jarvis so those pains will go but... Tony knew time when he'd have to be serious.
"You made me to serve you, to aid you, to assist you in every way. I still believe that until now. But, then you die, Sir. You left me with this... immortal body alone..., I don't understand why. You made me to serve you. But, you died, I lost all those purposes," Jarvis talked, his voice a bit cracked.
This time, Tony was the one who avoid Jarvis eyes. Yeah, pretty much he had designed JARVIS body almost like immortal. With every weapon and armor avaiable for security sytem, self-maintain energy, updating the A.I. automatically and ability to fix himself if anything damaged.
"It took me 10 years to understand the meaning of death," Jarvis paused again. Tony couldn't reply back, he just waited the android to continue his story.
"I understand the meaning of death by words, but... I couldn't understand it completely. I still prepared you breakfast, organized your schedule, took care your lab... even though I knew you died Sir. I still thought one day you will appear again before me and I will serve you again. It was Miss Potts who always remind me that you had died. Even though I have better memory than her but she was the one who kept reminding me, at least until she died too..." Jarvis paused again.
Tony could imagine that, even though it felt painful. For years, JARVIS always served him, aid him, helped him. He even gave Tony advices. He tried to make Tony less lonely when he alone. He helped Tony with all experiments in his lab. He took care Tony when he was drunk, being stupid or suicidical. JARVIS was always there.
"I don't know what should I do beside serve and aid you, Sir. You said I'm free to do anything I want to, but what I want is serving you. It is my greatest joy but I couldn't do that anymore. So... I tried to find something for me to do...," Jarvis continued.
Tony had programmed JARVIS to serve him, but he didn't program him to do anything else. Tony understood that much.
"I tried to be superhero. To be honest, I wasn't bad at it, but I just felt like it wasn't my thing. I tried to travel around the world, like Mr. Banner. Trying to discover more things, I don't know, to make sense. But I have finished discovering the world after 23 years. I tried to help goverment with information, but I don't like dirty people there. I guess I had I tried everything from soldier to spy but I never felt...content."
Oh my god, Tony couldn't imagine that. Jarvis being superhero? Traveler? Even politician? Soldier? Spy?! Tony shook his head slightly. He couldn't bring himself to imagine what kind of expression Jarvis had when he done all of that. But his eyes which looked 'lost' exlplained it all.
"I always remember you Sir, everyday. I'm not human who can forget about many things, I remember everything perfectly. The first time I 'onlined', the first time you celebrate my 'birthday', the first time you give me this body, my first experience, the joy, the sadness, the anger, I could remember it all. Then, this," Jarvis pressed his middle chest. Tony stared to it.
"It started to feel... hurt. It was sting at first then it felt hurt. Then the pain didn't go away. Never goes away," Jarvis explained with pained face. He closed his eyes.
"I always remember you, Sir, Ms. Potts, Mr. Rogers, Mr. Banners, Mr. Barton, Ms. Rommanof, Mr Thor even Mr. Nick Fury. At first it felt warm, but then it hurt. I wanted to go back again to those times where you all still alive and together but I knew I can't and it hurt more. It repeated like a hellish circle and I can't bear it. My artificial intelligence start to error because the HEART program became bugged. I have no choice but to turn it off," Jarvis still didn't open his eyes. He just sat still there with his hands pressed to his chest, where his HEART belong.
Tony watched Jarvis carefully. His JARVIS never talked this much. He always responded to Tony or if he inisiated first, it usually just advice. But, this Jarvis had experienced many things, too many things. Almost for 500 years... Tony couldn't imagine what kind of life Jarvis had been have even though the android tried to explain it to him.
"Where is Thor?" asked Tony, he used present tense because Thor is immotal so he should be living in Asgardian even 500 years from now.
Jarvis opened his eyes. "After Ms. Jane died, I never saw him again," Jarvis answered. Tony nodded, he could accept that.
"Many things happen, I don't know what should I tell to you Sir. There was big disaster, epidemic and... many things. Many things changed for human, the advance of technology had been stagnant for years. But, it doesn't matter for me, I guess," Jarvis said.
"Since the memory capacity wasn't build for centuries, so mostly I deleted many things except about when you and everyone still live. I still remember many important event but nothing special happened to me."
"Why? Why didn't you delete the memories about me and everyone? It will be easier like that," Tony found himself asking. He looked Jarvis who was stunned. Then, he looked pained again.
"It is the only thing I have Sir, beside my A.I., this body and my HEART program. I don't want to forget about you no matter what, if I do, I won't be me again," Jarvis replied with cracked voice.
"Even though, you can start as new," Tony said more to himself.
"Do you order me to?" Jarvis asked. Tony was speechless for awhile. Even though his memory wasn't as good as JARVIS he could remember many important things. Some things were too dark and he wanted to forget but many sweet memories were also there. Like when he and JARVIS worked together, when JARVIS teased Clint and Steve then Tony laughed at them, when JARVIS for first time gave him a suprise gift at Christmas...
JARVIS was more than program, more than A.I. He was Tony's closest friend, even though he wasn't human. He saw everything, he knew everything. He knew Tony's pain, joy, anger, sadness. He knew everything.
JARVIS knew Tony was a dick, that he was troublesome, but JARVIS never turned his back from Tony. He never tried to be evil A.I. even though he had many chances to be one.
JARVIS was always there.
Tony shook his head and Jarvis understood. Tony understood those memories were too important, even though it would be bug and destroyed Jarvis's A.I., he knew Jarvis wouldn't delete it.
"How about your A.I.?" Tony asked.
"It is... different from other JARVIS now. Too many holes, malwares, even viruses inside it, but it's still working," Jarvis answered. Tony nodded, he almost offered himself to fix Jarvis A.I. just to remember that this android came from future to destroy his own body.
"So... you come here...," Tony finally understood why. He knew Jarvis's reason to come here.
"I want to put an end. My body is too valuable and I'm afraid if I don't destroy it completely, people will take advantage of its. But, I can't bring to destroy my body by my self either. You... You had said that I'm you masterpiece, even more than Iron Man suit, Sir. I can't bring my self to destroy your masterpiece, even though I want to put an end for my self."
Tony wasn't someone who take a fuss about morality but here, he heard Jarvis asked Tony to 'put an end' for him. Literally, it mean he asked Tony to kill him. It should be JARVIS who put sense back to Tony's head when he become suicidical. It hadn't happened often and no one knew about that but JARVIS. But here, Jarvis was the one who being suicidical.
He wanted to stop him, he couldn't bear to let Jarvis die on him. That was the reason why Tony always care, manage and update his A.I. frequently. It was true, JARVIS was his masterpiece. No one able to create A.I. with same level like JARVIS. Even though some other people who understand robotic complained that Tony wasting an A.I. like JARVIS only to be his babysitter but Tony known better.
But, Tony understood too. Jarvis shown him that he was in pain. He was hurting. He was suffering, alone for almost 500 years. He always thought 'what would I do without JARVIS' but he never thought 'what would JARVIS do without me'.
Even if Tony managed to convince Jarvis not to put an end for himself, Tony had no answer for Jarvis what should he continue to do from now on. Jarvis was smart, heck, he was genius like Tony. So, when the android told him that he had tried everything but never felt content, it was a fact.
No matter how hard Tony tried to build JARVIS like a human, JARVIS wasn't a human. Even though it sounded cruel, JARVIS was a tool, a thing. Without human using it, a tool had no use. So, it was the reason why Jarvis couldn't feel content. He had no master.
Why he hadn't try to search new master? Someone better than Tony.
Tony shook himself, it was same reason why Tony never make a new A.I.
He couldn't replace JARVIS no matter what. He couldn't do that, not after all these years they spent time together.
"I miss you, Sir."
Tony snapped from his thought to see Jarvis smiled sadly to him.
"That is what human call, 'miss' right? I miss you, all these years. No matter how annoying you could be, but still... I miss you."
There was a pang of guilt inside Tony's chest. He had let Jarvis suffering so long time, too long. Even if he didn't put an end to Jarvis, it would be sooner or later before Jarvis A.I. breaks down and someone else would takethat body away. And it was same like a 'slow and painful death'.
"How about you live in this timeline?" asked Tony, even though it would be confusing because there were two JARVIS at same time. But, he could manage that.
Unexpectedly, Jarvis frowned.
"You don't understand, Sir."
Tony's eyebrow raised with confussion look on his face.
"My master... Mister Stark had long died."
Jarvis smiled sadly to him.
"You aren't him. You aren't the one who spent time with me until the end of time."
Suddenly, Tony lost his ability to speak. He wanted to interfe that teory, it wasn't true. He was Tony Stark but he stopped himself. Because, the one who sat in front of him wasn't the JARVIS he knew.
He was different, he was JARVIS but he wasn't the same JARVIS he knew.
"And more, you have other JARVIS. I don't want to steal you from him."
Now Tony wanted to object how wrong that sounded be. It wasn't like he and JARVIS had any sensual relationship. But, he didn't say anything. He couldn't say anything.
"You know, other JARVIS isn't turned off. I know he must be frantic now. He must be trying every possible way to contact you. He must be worried because he doesn't know what is happening right now to you. Even though other JARVIS doesn't have emotion yet, he can feel that much, I can tell," Jarvis said with a smile.
It was a strained smile, Jarvis eyes looked pained. And even though he saw Tony, it seemed he tried to search for another figure on Tony. The Tony Stark who had died and left Jarvis alone.
Tony closed his eyes.
Then he opened his eyes again.
"What is your wish?"
"I want you to put an end for me, Sir."
To Be Continued
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