His smiling face made guilt rush through me, I just couldn't cope anymore. There were so many questions in my head and I felt that no one could provide a good enough answer for them, not even my family.

What if we had fought, what if he had died, why did Aro want me, why? What if?

He looked at me his smile fading fast, everyone knew something was wrong but didn't quite know what to do, even Jasper. Things had been so hard for me because of my stupid 'special abilities', I just wished that I could get rid of it, I didn't want to be able to see the future anymore, it was tearing me apart.

I must have showed my emotions because now the whole family was staring at me, looking over at Edward, I knew that he would know exactly what was going on in my head and I was glad that he wouldn't blurt it out to everyone else that he would give me a chance to explain myself.. when I was ready.

I stood excusing myself and disappeared into the forest.

Slowing down, I could feel someone shadowing me, turning I saw it was Carlisle. Damn. Why did he of all people have to come.

"Yes" I asked, presenting a polite face to him.

"Honey what's wrong?"

"Nothing, I don't know what your asking Carlisle, im fine"

He shook his head, darn it, how come parents could always tell when you were lying.

"Your not Alice, we are all worried about you, you've been different since the meeting with the volturi, you know you've been different. We uh we were all wondering if it had to do with Aro?"

"Aro?" I put confusion into my voice but I knew what he was implying.

"Yes Aro, did his attempted claim on you, affect you more than we realize?"

"No"

Carlisle looked momentarily relieved, until the worry etched itself once more into his expression.

"Then what…uh what's wrong"

I could tell he was trying to get an answer out of me without pushing it too much.

"Nothing I promise" I smiled sweetly trying to get him off my back, how was I meant to tell him that he had .. died.. It's not something that someone exactly wants to hear is it.

"Well then im sorry, Alice. I have tried to be nice and let you talk in your own time, but you really leave me no choice. I am going to get to the bottom of this and I am not going to continue to watch you and the others suffer so badly"

I nodded. Carlisle had a point, my mood really was affecting the others and I couldn't cope with that guilt on top of everything else.

"Fine, but I warn you that you probably don't want to know"

"That may be true, but if it is going to make you feel better than I can 'suffer' through whatever you may have to say"

That's when I knew that I couldn't hide any longer from him, he was my dad and has much has I desperately wanted to keep past events to myself, it just would not be fair on him.

So I told him. I told him of my encounter with Aro, how he had wanted to take me for my 'gift' and how the battle had erupted from there. How he, Carlisle had died trying to protect me from the volturi, and the pain it had caused Esme, how she had screamed inhumanly for her mate and the flames that not consumed his torn body. Then I told him how so many had died from a result of the escalation that had occurred from his death. Lastly I told him how it had not ended until Aro's head lay separated from his shoulders.

Carlisle's face was unreadable has I finally looked up, we sat for what seemed to be eternity until he spoke two simple words.

"I'm sorry"

With those words all the guilt I had felt since the end of the battle fell away, I had shared the pain of my gift with the one I had truly wanted to talk too and he understood. He understood and he was sorry.