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Summary: It's been years since the Cullens left. There's been tragedy in Bella's life. Bella will find love where she least expects it.

BPOV

The start of my senior year at Washington University; I'm excited as ever. I'm looking forward to being done with school. I'm an English major and have goals of being an author. I have already started some fiction and non-fiction. I can never decide which story to work. As I drive my beautiful bike, MV Agusta F4 CC in all black and I can't help smile as I think of my bike. It's the only possession I have that's worth a whole lot of money. I feel like batman on it. I always sing the little tune in my head as I drive, as well as the Mission Impossible theme. Yes, I may be a little on the nerdy side, but that's okay. Finally I arrive at school and pull in next to deep red Volvo and I can't help but think of him.

It's been years since he shattered my soul. I lost my purpose to live. I was nothing more than a shell walking this earth for almost six months after he left.

Jacob helped but eventually he gave up. He didn't realize how much he was helping me because I could never verbalize how much he meant to me. I tried; I went to Jacob and told him I was his and I'd like him to be mine. We made the sweetest love I could have ever imagined. He treated me as a goddess and worshipped ever inch of my body. I wasn't whole, I could still feel pieces of myself missing, but I was okay.

Jacob and I had been together for two months when I received the worst news to date. We were suppose to go cliff diving. We were at his house getting ready when his phone rang. My father had a heart attack and was being rushed to the hospital. By the time Jacob and I got there he was pronounced dead. When Edward left me I thought that was the worst pain imaginable, but boy, was I wrong! Losing my father compared to nothing. I probably would have gone all comatose again, but I had my Jacob to keep me from drowning.

As they were lowering my father's body into the ground I was crying uncontrollably. Jacob was there holding me up. I couldn't stop thinking about everything he would miss from my life. All things we had experienced together. As my tears subsided I noticed that people were leaving to go to my house for brunch. Jacob asked if I wanted to go and I never responded. Jacob stood out there with me all night. I probably wouldn't have been able to if it weren't for Jacob. His warmth went through to my very soul reminding me I wasn't alone. Cemetery employees came out and started filling the hole and I started crying all over again. After they were done filling the hole I asked Jacob to take me home. Jacob was there all night holding me, whispering sweet things into my ear.

My mother never came and it seems I was finally agreeing with Forks that my mother was a bit flakey; sad, but true. My mother barely called and eventually her emails stop and I was just too heartbroken to care. Jacob always reminded me that I had all the family I needed in the pack and that always made me feel better. Everyone there was great!

After things settled down Jake and I realized that I was practically living at his house so Billy and Jake asked me to move in. I felt wanted and loved and agree without hesitation. My father left all the money I would ever need. College would be paid for; hell I could have even bought a house for all of us to live in. But I liked Jakes house and didn't want to change a thing.

I really didn't want to go to graduation, but it seems as if the whole rez insisted that I go. The cheering section I had was absurd. Jake, the pack and imprintees, Billy and Sue Clearwater were all in attendance for the occasion. They threw me a small party at our house afterwards. My life felt like it was back on track. I was finally over Edward, although I still loved him and could feel the hole he created, but that's first love, right? He will always hold a place in my heart; just because someone stops loving you doesn't mean you stop loving them. I missed my father even more, but I felt good knowing he was in a better place and at peace. I thought of my mother occasionally, but again I made peace with not having her in my life. I was planning on attending school at Peninsula College in Port Angeles. I was getting my A.A. and then Jacob would join me and we'd go a little further and attend together. Sounds like a picture perfect life, right?

During the summer my world was shattered again. The rez was having one of their bon fires and invited everyone and anyone they knew. Jake and I were having a lot of fun and all it took was one glance from me to change both of our lives. He never looked at me the same; it was always with pity or a heartbreaking look. He never once looked at me with all the love and worship I never deserved. Of course it was extremely awkward since we were living in the same house. Jake tried avoiding me at all costs and I think that broke my heart more than him imprinting. Of course I was heartbroken, but I understood, this was something that couldn't be helped. But ignoring me and insisting that I leave is what really rubbed me the wrong way.

I was mad at everyone and everything. It was strange to compare the differences of abandonment between the loss of Edward and Jacob. Edward I felt my world was over and I couldn't function and with Jake I was mad as hell and wanted everyone else to be miserable. The only one that saw my softer side was Billy and even sometimes I would yell at him. He was the only one that helped me. He helped me make arrangements with a different school and find a place to live. I was grateful to him and still talk to him.

I eventually made my way to the University of Washington and bought a house. I, of course, thought of going somewhere sunny, but I don't think I was in the right mind frame for the sun yet. It seemed as if I couldn't find peace anywhere. The cold reminded me of Edward and the sun reminded me of Jacob.

During sophomore year I got a call from Phil. My mother passed away in a car accident with two of her friends. I cried, but I was surprised when I didn't feel my world fall apart. I have never been able to determine if it was due to our lack of contact over the years or because I have already experienced so loss that I was numb to it. Once again I was left with more money from my mother's will.

During my last three years here I have not made any good friends. I have some acquaintes, but that's mostly only work related. I work at Borders by the school. I work occasionally. The most I've worked is three days a week and I also work holidays for the other employees, that way they can spend time with their families. I don't really have to work but it's nice to keep myself busy plus I really love the employee discount. The only girl I really talk much with is Becca. She just has a personality that drags you in. We occasionally go out for a drink after work or we'll meet up randomly. She's a cool chick to hang with; she doesn't need to constantly talk. Thankfully, I don't have to work this week, which happens sometimes. But here I was on my beautifully awesome bike pulling next to a Volvo and heading to classes.

My classes were great. I have a kick-ass schedule. I only have classes on Tuesdays and Thursdays, but I do have to attend all day, but I like it that way. I'm reading "The Art of War" by Sun Tzu for one of my classes while drinking my coffee enjoying the last days of summer on campus. As I'm taking a drink of my coffee I hear a gasp and look up and stare at the sexiest thing I have ever seen.

AN: FIRST FAN-FIC SO PLEASE BE GENTLE…I'M SENSITIVE! :P I'M NOT SURE IF I'LL BE ANY GOOD AT THIS SO LEAVE A REVIEW AND LET ME KNOW IF I SHOULD CONTINUE THE STORY. ANY SUGGESTIONS OR IDEAS ON WHERE YOU GUYS WANT THIS STORY TO GO LET ME KNOW! THANKS!