I don't own anything, S. Meyer does.
One day I heard this song on radio, and thought about writing a story. What if Bella heard this song? I think it fits to original storyline of New Moon.
This day was like any other day. Yeah right. Today was some of Charlies friend birthday and he was dragging me with him. He thinks it will help if I try to be something I am not. I will not be happy. Ever. But to him it didn't mattered. All he said was:
"You coming with me Bella, and that's final."
So here I am, siting his cruiser, while we were driving (somehow) toward la push. Cars radio was playing some local radio station, but it didn't mattered. All music was remembering him.
"could you even try to look like you are interested in the party? For me Bella?" charlie asked me, don't turning his eyes from the road.
"Sure dad, I will try." I replayed, looking out in forest, which was blurring from speed, when radio cached my attention. Or meaby song playing at the moment, I tried to listen even if it hurt.
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it stop from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting thought I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out.
Like me, broken and left by everyone I so much cared, but still waiting.
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you.
I already fallen apart, and had my heart broken, so I know that in pain aren't no healing. It hurts to say his name, but I know it's meaning.
The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life
It's to remember that day then he left, but I knew that I was int wort him. He always said, that he cant read my mind, but always was good at reading my face. It's hurts so much, because everywhere I look I see him, and I don't know how to live my life in this pain.
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), there is healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on
(I'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on)
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you throw my way
And I'm hanging on to the words you say
You said that I will be OK
The broken light on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, haven't forgotten my way home
You said I am human and will forget. How wrong you were? Will you ever knew? Why have you left?
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With broken heart that's still beating
In the pain (in the pain), there is healing
In your name (in your name) I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on
(I'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on)
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on
(I'm still holdin' on), i'm holdin' on (i'm still holdin' on),
I'm barely holding' on to you
yes, that one you got right, I will always be holding on him. Doesn't matter that he left, I will always love him.
"Bella...Bella, we already here. Bella?" Charlie was waiving his hand before my face.
"Huh...what you were asking dad?" shit, I spaced out.
"nothing, just saying that we are here." he said with sad smile." And Bella, just try" he said silently opening his doors. Maybe I should try?...
the song that was used was "broken" by lifehouse, which i don't own.