Hey! This is my first SWAC fanfic, so please any advice is appreciated. I don't own SWAC! If I did, we would've been able to see what Sonny and Chad said in Sonny: So Far. Did we see it? No. No I own SWAC? No. Song is Catch Me- Demi Lovato. Yeah, I don't own that either. Enjoy!
"Okay, your only assignment this week will be an essay. I must be three pages, types, single spaced, no indentations, or paragraphs." Ms. Bitterman stood at the board, explaining this week's work.
I raised my hand. "Ms. Bitterman, what is the topic?"
"You, Miss Monroe."
"Me?"
"All of you. You must write something about yourselves. It must be a personal thing. A discovery, of sorts."
"Ms. Bitterman? What if it's really personal?"
"I should hope it is, Miss Monroe. It must be something that defines you and contains your secrets that only you know or figure out yourself."
"But… What if we don't want our personal secrets to be shred with anyone?" I don't want people knowing my secrets! They're secrets for a reason!
"It won't be read. This is a personal assignment. I don't want to know all of your inner secrets, Miss Monroe. That is your personal business. I'm not doing this assignment just for a grade. I want you to discover something about yourselves during this process. I don't want it to be easy for you. This should be a challenge. I won't grade it on content but I want it to be clear you tried. The only person who will know what you wrote will be you."
I sighed, relieved.
"Now, for the rest of class, you are free."
"Free?" Grady asked, unbelieving.
"Do whatever you want to, go wherever you wish, but reflect on yourselves and remember the essay. Try to find something new about yourselves."
Wow. Ms. Bitterman had changed since she and Marshall started dating. Thank you, Marshall! We all got up and left the classroom.
"What are you guys doing for your essays?" I asked. I didn't know what mine was about so I hoped maybe they could give me an idea.
"I'm writing about my fashionable outfits and pretty hair!" I will give you one hundred dollars if you can guess who said that.
"Yes, you in the back!"
"Tawni!"
"Correct! Ding, ding, ding, we have a winner! Here's your prize, go buy yourself something nice!"
I rolled my eyes. "Tawni, it's supposed to be personal."
"It is! Nobody has this hair! It is my personal hair and looks!"
"Moving on, I'm writing bout my pet chinchilla, Georgia!
And it's time for round 2! Who just said that? Yes? You in the sparkly outfit!
Zora!
Correct! Here's some sparkly nail polish to go with that outfit!
"I'm doing mine on tin popcorn kernels!"
"Me too!"
Do I even have to ask? Who knows this one?
*Whole imaginary audience* NICO AND GRADY!
Correct!
"What about you Sonny?" Zora asked.
I frowned. "I don't know." And I really didn't. I mean, lots of things made an impact on my life: Lucy, Wisconsin, Mom, So Random! , Tawni, Nico, Grady, Zora… but nothing really shook me. Lucy had been there all my life and she was pat of who I was in Wisconsin, but she's not here now. Wisconsin was part of my old life; it's not the current Sonny. Mom has had a definite role in raising me, but she isn't me. So Random! Has an ongoing impact on me but it isn't what defines me. None of my cast mates are either. I didn't know what to write.
"How do you not know?" Tawni asked. "It's you! What's your most personal feeling or secret? Take it and write it down."
Shifted uncomfortably. "I don't know," I mumbled.
"Well, think about it. Hey! I'm going to go get some SAS cupcakes! Who wants to come with?" Tawni asked.
"I do!"
"Me too!"
"Me three!"
"Um, I'm good."
"What?! You don't want a SAS cupcake? Are you insane?!" Zora exclaimed. By the look on the others' faces, they agreed with her.
"I'm really not hungry."
"Okay," said Tawni, looking at me suspiciously.
After they left, I walked to my dressing room. I pulled out my guitar and my songbook. I strummed a few chords. I loved to play my guitar. I thought about writing about music then decided against it. Music is definately a big par of my life but… didn't feel like it was me.
I closed my eyes and strummed my guitar. I played an unfamiliar rhythm. All of a sudden, lyrics crept into my head. I sang them softly. When I was done, I grabbed my pencil and quickly wrote down the lyrics and music. When I was finished I looked at the writing on the page.
Before I fall too fast
Kiss me quick
But make it last
So I can see how badly this will hurt me
When you say good bye
Keep it sweet
Keep it slow
Let the future pass
And don't let go
But tonight I could fall to soon under this beautiful moonlight
But you're so hypnotizing
You got me laughing while I sing
You got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
And your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me
See this heart
Wont settle down
Like a child running scared from a clown
I'm terrified of what you'll do
my stomach screams just when I look at you
Run far away
So I can breathe
Even though you're far from suffocating me
I can't set my hopes to high
Cause every hello ends with a goodbye
But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've got me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling
But please don't catch me
So now you see
Why I'm scared
I cant open up my heart without a care
But here I go
Its what I feel
and for the first time in my life I know its real
But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing
You've get me smiling in my sleep
And I can see this unraveling
And your love is where I'm falling
So please don't catch me
And if this is love
Please don't break me
I'm giving up
So just catch me
When I read what I had written, I knew this song was my discovery. I wanted to fall in love but at the same time I was scared. But… who was the song about?
Thanks for reading! Hope you enjoyed it!
Abby Jade