A/N: I'm baaack! Yeah I started typing this around the time Long Ago premiered and just got around to putting it up. This is my first try at a song fic and I own nothing except Tania, Udonna's daughter I think that it's going to be a multi chapter fic and only the first two chapters will have a song going in them. Both songs will be by Evanescence, the first being My Immortal. Montana here you go I posted this just like the bet said Please R&R
Udonna sighed as she thought about her daughter. Picking up some things she saw that Nick had left his walkman there. Putting the headphones on her head Udonna turned the machine on hoping that the music would take her mind off her daughter, Tania.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
As Udonna let the sad song go through her head she remembered how she still feels a part of Tania lingering with her. Tears were now softly rolling down her face as she thought of Tania, her sixteen year old daughter.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Hearing that tidbit the emotional wounds that she had sustained when Tania had been taken from her opened up again
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Udonna smiled softly through her tears as she remembered the long nights where Tania would be waking up to nightmares even though she was so little. She had cradled Tania close to her and gently wiped the tears from her face. And when Tania had just been born and Udonna would be sitting next to her cradle holding onto her small hand.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
Sighing as she remembered how Tania had always hypnotized her even when the little girl was sleeping. How the child's innocence had brought the light back to her eyes even though their world was at war. Then when Tania had been taken Udonna had barely gotten on living with the fact that her daughter may not even be alive anymore. Udonna's once pleasant dreams had given way to nightmares. It had broken her down and had almost driven her to insanity, her daughter being taken from her and her having to give her son up.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
Still sobbing Udonna went to her bookcase, walkman in hand she picked up a book and opened it to the middle, and a small mortal photograph was in there of two babies, one newborn and a nine month old. Tania was the newborn while Bowen was the nine month old.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Udonna continued to cry her heart out as she stared at the picture of her children, she had recently found out that Nick was Bowen but the hole in her heart that had opened when Tania had been taken had never healed.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
Udonna remembered the many times that she tried to force herself to believe that there was no way that Tania to have survived. But a part of her knew that Tania was still with her in spirit. Even though she's been alone these past sixteen years.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
Then Bowen came in and saw that his mother was crying walking up behind her he wrapped her in a warm hug and quickly wiped away the tears falling down her cheeks with his right hand and Udonna grabbed his left hand softly. The song had ended but it still had opened up old wounds that had never really healed.