What Hurts the Most: Chapter One

Summery: What if Elizabeth didn't step in with Will at the end of CotBP? How would things be different? What would happen to the characters? My version of what would happen, it's kind of dark just to for warn ya'll reading. Willabeth all the way!!

Disclaimer: I don't own anything from POTC or from Rascal Flatts.

Ohh yeah, this chapter is from Elizabeth's POV

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"You will learn your place, Turner." Norrington said angrily

"It's right here, between you and Jack." Will replied.

"Take them away!" James commanded to his mean. Only to find that Jack wasn't there. He skillfully sneaked past the guards while their attention was on Will and James. What a nut. That's when I stepped in.

"James, please don't take him! He didn't do anything wrong." The words escaped through my mouth before I was able to comprehend what I just said.

Norrington blinked at me. "Nothing wrong? Nothing wrong, huh? He acted in an unlawfully manor with a pirate. He is going to brig!"

I gasped. "No, James please don't!" I pleaded. I started pounding my fists on his chest. "Please don't let him go!"

"ENOUGH!" He shouted at me, holding my wrists so I would stop hitting him. "And not to mention that he loved you when you are to marry me. He's going to the bring and that's final!" And with that, he walked away with his men as well as Will in irons.

I was left in shock. Tears welled up in my eyes but I wouldn't let them fall. A warm hand landed on my shoulder. It was my father, so I turned my head to give him a small smile.

He smiled back at me. "It will be alright, dear. Norrington is just doing his job and there's nothing you can do about that. Come, lets go home."

I nodded and so we walked to the carriage.

That was the last time I saw Will. Six months ago. I miss him so much. Not a day has gone by when I haven't thought about that day. Why didn't I step in? Why? Why didn't I just run into Will's arms and tell him I love him? Why didn't my damn feet move? I ask myself those questions everyday. And I will keep asking myself those even after today. Today I am to be married to a man I don't even love.

We were to be married this morning but it started raining. Good sign for the marriage, huh? So now I'm sitting by the window watching it ruin everything in the backyard. I'm glad. But I do love the rain. I'm tempted to go out there right now and have the rain soak into my wedding gown. I'm tempted to go out there right now and just cry. Then no one would be able to tell that I was crying.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me.

I can take a few tears now and then

And just let them out

Father says I've changed since the day I was captured by cursed pirates. But I agree with him. I'm not myself. Right now I wish some pirates would take me far, far away with them. Anywhere, I don't care. As long as it's not here, not now, not with Norrington. But I would like a certain pirate to whisk me away to freedom…

…Will.

It hurts so much that I can't love him. It hurts so bad that I can't be with him. I just don't even care anymore. My fiancé could walk in right now and I wouldn't care if he saw me crying. Yes, I'm crying. I'm crying for Will, I'm crying for us. It's just not fair. I want Will, not Norrington. I need Will…

I'm not afraid to cry

Every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone

Still upsets me.

"Come in." I say.

In walks my father with a smile. He is more excited for this wedding that I am.

"Hello father." I mutter. I am not happy at all about this wedding.

"Elizabeth." He whispers to me and sits across from me. He takes my hands in his and he starts rubbing them like my mother used to do when I was upset. "You know I dreaded this day ever since the day you were born." He sighed. "I can still remember holding you in my arms. You were so tiny, and so beautiful. I didn't want to let you go." I smile at him. I love hearing about his memories. "But by this afternoon you won't be my little baby anymore. You'll be a married woman." He comes closer to me and cups my cheek. "But you'll always be my little girl."

That's when he enveloped me in a hug. A hug I've been waiting for ever since the mention of this awful wedding. I hold onto him so tightly and kiss his cheek.

"I love you, father." I say with tears in my eyes.

"I love you too, Elizabeth." He smiles at me and walks back to the door. "The rain is clearing up, it's time to get ready." He says to me.

I nod and look down at the floor as he leaves me room. Then the maid walked in ready to fix my hair and such.

"Are you ready, miss?" She says to me.

Me head is screaming no but instead I sit down in front of my vanity.

There are days every now and again

I pretend I'm okay.

But that's not what gets me

I sat in silence as the maid curled and pinned my hair up into a tight bun. It was giving me a headache. But, what the dear Commodore wants, the dear Commodore gets. If I had it my way, it would be free and flowing in the wind. Free…a word I often think about in my life. I've never been free in my life. Propriety has always gotten in the way of everything. Even Will…my only true freedom. He set me free, no matter what I was doing or what was being said. He made me fall in love with him, which has hurt me since the day we arrived back in Port Royal.

It's like how the old saying used to go: 'Close, but no cigar.' Will and I were so close, but I couldn't bring myself to step in. Was I afraid? What was I so afraid of? I've seen cursed pirates, almost been killed, jumped off the plank, and fought against the cursed pirates. And through all of that, I was scared. But why was I so scared on picking my on true love? I had so much to tell him, so why didn't I? Why did my mind get in the way of my heart? My heart cried out to him, but my mind said I was engaged to Norrington. But right now I am losing my mind. I've been going insane ever since he walked away with those irons clasped around his wrists. It's my fault he was in those awful things. It's all my fault…

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

Things would have been so much different if I stepped in that dreadful day. I would be engaged to the wonderful and loving William Turner, instead of Commodore Norrington. I don't love Norrington; he's just a friend. But Will, I would give my heart and soul for him. I would give up everything I have just to have him. But I can't do that. We'll just never know what we could have been because we could have been something amazing. We would prove all people wrong about love. Because that's what we are. We love each other. But I couldn't see that I love him.

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do.

"All finished, Miss." The maid says to me.

I look in the mirror and truly look at myself. I look different. Like someone just made me into a porcelain doll. I'm not myself. And I will never be myself without my love.

There's another knock at my door. "Elizabeth?" It's my father again. He opens the door with a smile on his face and looks at me. "My God, you look so beautiful honey." He comes over and plants a kiss on my cheek and offers an arm to escort me down to the backyard. "Shall we?"

I nod a yes and we start walking down the spiraling staircase. I have no idea how I'm going to get through this wedding if I can barely speak to my father. I look at the doors leading to the backyard…

…Time to face the music.

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Next chapter will be Will's POV.

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Slayerchick33