Lullaby
Author: mujakinotsubasa
Rating: PG
"It's... lonely."
When the commander was just right there in the next room, sleeping on your bed?
The metal felt cold against his skin. The chill seeped into his clothes and clung to him like a silken blanket.
His eyes were dry.
Passive blue eyes watched as the coppery liquid slid down the length of his finger, the trail dividing as it reached the palm. Then red continued its way down the pale expanse of his arm.
It tasted bitter in his mouth.
The nail made a soft little clang against the frozen floor.
"Let me sleep here for tonight."
I'm sure Byakuran wants you over there.
"I'm... tired."
Then go back to your soft bed and sleeping lover.
"He's not..."
That's what you say.
Shouichi's head fell on his shoulder. He made no move.
Not needed.
Unnecessary.
Emotionless.
The machine he called "heart" performed perfectly.
There was crimson on the pristine white of Shouichi's uniform. There were tear marks on his face.
"It doesn't hurt."
Of course. You allowed it.
"It really doesn't hurt."
Can't fool me.
There was only darkness.
You're in pain.
You're hurting.
You're breaking.
Tearing.
Shattering.
Dying.
"Spanner..."
Don't call my name.
"Have you ever loved someone?"
That's a useless question.
"... Nothing is right."
Nothing ever was.
"Hold me."
You'll break.
"Kiss me."
My lips are cold.
"Spanner..."
Not with that voice, please.
"... Good bye."
The line was dead.
"I can't sleep, Spanner."
I can't sing you a lullaby.