Tuesdays. My least favorite day of the week. At least on Monday I have an excuse for being tired and slow, because everyone is like that on a Monday. But by Tuesday I'm expected to have just as much energy as every other person in the halls of Odaiba elementary, and because I usually never do my early bird friends decide it's fun to tease me about any thing they can think of while I'm still half asleep.
This fine Tuesday morning is no different as far as the teasing goes, and the first bell hasn't even rung yet.
"Man if those bags under your eyes get any bigger you won't have to worry about if your pants have pockets to keep your things in or not, Daisuke." Takeru jokes to my left.
"My eyes aren't that bad." I say, yawning at the end.
Kari grins on my other side and I know she's thinking of something to tease me about. It's Tease Dai Tuesday after all, there's no way she'll be left out of the game even if it means I'll find something to tease her about this afternoon when she gets like this.
"I don't know Dai. Maybe those bags are why you can't seem to get a date." She says.
I have to bite my lip on this one, and suddenly I'm a little more awake.
Takeru glances at her and frowns. His teasing edge gone.
"No, he hasn't got a date because he still hasn't settled." He tells Kari seriously.
Settling. It's a soar spot for me since all my classmates and friends, including Cody who's two years younger than me, have already settled into their second gender and I still haven't. TK is an Alpha, so he knows I haven't settled because my scent is still "fresh". In other words, to Alphas and Omegas who have the ability to tell a persons second gender by scent, I have a scent, unlike a Beta, but it's also not strong enough to tell if it's an Alpha sent or an Omega. And until I settle, even I know I can't date because if I do try to date before settling, and then settle while I'm with someone, depending on what my second gender turns out to be we could decide we're not right for each other just because of my newly reveled gender and nothing else and both be hurt. Kari didn't know I hadn't settled yet because she's a Beta, she settled about a year ago so she has no scent and can't smell anyone else's second gender.
She looks like she's going to apologize, even as a Beta she knows talk of second genders and settling is touchy at our age since some people don't settle until as late as their early high school years, but I stop her.
"Look it's fine. You didn't know, and you were just teasing about something else anyway. Let's just forget about it alright?" I say.
She smiles and nods and then the bell rings. Everyone takes their seats as the teacher walks in.
Everyone pulls out notes and books, and the teacher begins talking about some math equation that we're probably going to have no use for in real life, but are required to learn anyway. I write down the equation itself and a couple side notes so it looks like a gave an attempt before allowing myself to zone out. If I miss anything big I'll get it from Kari or Takeru later, but right now my mind just keeps going back to the topic before class started.
I'm constantly questioning why everyone I know has settled except me. Takeru is an Alpha, Kari is a Beta, Ken is an Alpha, Cody settled as an Alpha last month, Yolei is a Beta, Tai and Yamato are both Alphas, Izzy is a Beta, and so on. Not only has everyone settled, but their all Alphas and Betas. Not that there's a problem with that, it's just since I haven't settled I still get called out as a child while the others, who have settled, can sometimes pass as adults and it bugs me a little.
If a ship goes down and they have to fill life boats they always tell you who gets on first. Beta women, Omegas, and unsettled children. And while I hope nothing like that ever happens, if it did it might mean I have to leave most my friends behind just because I'm unsettled. And where I hold the DigiEgg of Friendship, that thought hurts me deeply.
Now there is no doubt in my mind that when I finally do settle it will be as an Alpha since I'm the leader of the new Digidestined, but until I do settle it's still going to bug me that I'm not.
I could settle as a Beta though, that's a thought since most my family are Betas, and that's fine to, but I'm still pretty sure I'm going to be an Alpha like Tai.
I know I shouldn't be thinking to hard about this or get my hopes up, I know I can't chose what my second gender will be, but every time the topic comes up, even if only briefly and then it's dropped, I find myself thinking about it.
It's almost like being a little kid and wondering what you'll look like when you're full grown, or wondering what your family will look like when you're married with kids. Only when you're wondering what your second gender is your wondering who will give birth to the kids and if your going to have a husband or wife standing beside you. Because unless you settle as a Beta, the first gender you're born with doesn't mean squat.
I sigh internally as I reach that last thought, because while I high doubt it will happen, there is still a small chance I could settle as an Omega.
And if I did settle as an Omega that would mean that picture of my happy little future family would have me as the mother to the children and an Alpha husband next to me. And I know it would be a husband because Alpha Women are sterile and don't marry, not to mention extremely rare.
If I remember right from that health class everyone had to sit through last year, Betas are most common regardless of first gender, then Alpha males are second most common, then Omegas again as a regardless of first gender, and then Alpha females are least common.
So basically if a person is born with the first gender of female, it's pretty safe to say their probably going to be a Beta or Omega. But for someone like me, with male as the first gender, we have a higher chance of being Alpha or Beta, but are still just as likely as a girl to settle as Omega.
And it's extremely frustrating not having any clue.
If I settle as a Beta, then I lose any sort of scent I may have and won't be able to tell second genders apart as well anymore, but nothing really happens and life goes on as normal. That sounds like an alright option.
As an Alpha my scent will get stronger and I will be able to notice second genders easily, not to mention Omegas and even some Beta girls will be very attracted to me. This is an option I'm good with to.
But if I were to settle as an Omega it would be a real show. I would fall into my first heat, Alphas would be all over me wanting to protect me and such, I'd have to miss school for a week every other month for my heats, I'd be asked when I planned to find a mate and have children of my own. Hell no.
I will be an Alpha and if not a Beta. Omega can not be an option, even though I know it is.
The bell ringing to signal the end of our first class is what breaks me out of my thoughts. The teacher dismisses us and everyone packs up their stuff. I catch a glimpse of Takerus notes and see I didn't miss to much while I was spaced out. Good, I didn't really want to have to borrow any ones note anyway.
Once I have all my stuff I stand to follow my friends to the door. When I reach them, Takeru looks at me funny.
"What?" I ask.
He shakes his head, looks away, and frowns.
"Nothing." He mutters. "That lesson just fried my senses a little is all."
I laugh.
"Yeah, I zoned out half way through. Managed to get all the note down though."
Kari rolls her eyes.
"Of course you did, you write as fast as you can and then practice sleeping with your eyes open."
"It's called day dreaming. And I find it's very relaxing most the time."
She looks at me, eyebrow raised.
"And when it's not relaxing."
"Then it's just something to do to pass the time."
She laughs at that.
"Paying attention passes the time to."
"But not as fast."
"Time doesn't speed up or slow down."
Takeru snorts at that.
"Not true. I bet our teachers are related to some digimon. Time slows way down at school, almost like in the digital world." He says.
"But the digital world is never boring." I say.
"Now that-" Kari starts, but Takeru cuts her off, his teasing tone back half way.
"-We can all agree with."
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