AN/ This story is rated M for adult themes, cursing and sexual scenes later on in the story, I strongly suggest that you only read this if you are of the age to do so.

So, today's the day. Today's the day I'm leaving everything in this little shitty flat and this shitty town the Seam, and moving away, half way across the country, to be with my best friend Finn so that we can go to Uni together.

A few years ago I lost everything that I lived for. My mum, my dad, and worst of all, my little sister Prim. My dad was taking my sister and her best friend Rue into school one day and they got hit. T boned on the side of the car. It was a hit and run. All of them were pronounced dead at the scene. I'd never got on with my mum particularly well, we always argued. So when it happened… well, I didn't know what to do with myself.

My dad was my rock; my little sister was my best friend. I locked myself in my room for around a month, only coming out when I felt like I was going to pass out from not eating anything. One night when I came out, I decided enough was enough. Dad wouldn't want me to be moping around not going to school and ruining my future, neither would Prim. I went out of my room and yelled for my mum, there was no answer. I started to panic. Mum had never been one to show her emotions. She never let anyone in, unless you where my dad.

I ran all around the house looking for her. Then I saw the note on the kitchen table:

Katniss, dear,

I know you haven't been well, neither have I. I want to tell you that I love you, one last time. I love you, Kat. Don't ever think that I'm doing this because of you, I want to see your father again, I want to see Prim again. I miss them. I hurt because I don't see them. I want the pain to stop. I want to see them again. And I don't want to hold you back from doing the things that you want to do in life. I'm sorry I couldn't be there for you .I'm sorry I couldn't hold you and tell you everything will be okay, like a mother should. I'm sorry we argued. I love you. Goodbye baby girl.

I love you.

Tear stains splattered all over the paper, some old, some fresh.

There. Outside. I was looking out the window into the back garden and there she was, standing on the stool, just putting the rope around her neck. I yelled, and sprinted into the garden as fast as I could. If I could get there in time I could stop her, I could make her stop hurting so much. But I was too late. She'd already done it.

I sprinted into the wood as fast as I could. Just like Gale and I used to. God I missed Gale. He chased his dreams, became a professional football player. The last time I'd seen him, he been gearing up for the big game. The IFAF World Championships. I was proud of him, so very proud. But at moments like that I just wanted him to hug me, or throw something for me to shoot.

I have no idea how long I sat in the woods. I closed my eyes and must have fallen asleep. The next thing I knew, I was in an unfamiliar bedroom, with a familiar boys smell. Finnick's boy smell. Since Gale left, I had made friends with the copper haired boy. The there's never been anything romantic going on between him and me, always just there for support.

"I came round to see how you were doing and when no one answered the door got scared." He had said in a small voice. "So I went round the back, climbed over your fence. I'm sorry Katniss, so very, very sorry." He said with tears pooling in his eyes. " I- I called the police. They're round you house now. I knew I had to find you before you did anything you would regret. I found you in the woods, asleep. You can't keep doing that Kat. Running away from people. You need help. We- we both need help." I liked it when Finn let me see the real him. The him that wasn't always messing around and flirting with girls. The him that had been messed up by an abusive step-father. The him that no one saw but me and Annie, Finnick's girlfriend.

Finn had got me help that I needed, and Gale had come home for a month to check on me and make sure that I was okay. The three of us had grown up together. But Finn and I had never really talked much until Gale left and we both missed him being there.

We would have nights where the three of us would sit happily on the sofa and reminisce about funny memories, silly things my dad had done, funny things my sister had said, my mum's old chocolate chip cookie recipe. But then we would have other nights where the three of us would just sit and cry, and hold each other. We would sob for hours until we got tiered and fell asleep on the sofa tangled up in each other.

Too soon Gale had to leave and I had to go back to school. I hated it. People saying, "I'm sorry for your loss," or, "My deepest condolences". Half the people had never spoken to me before. Didn't even know me, or my family.

When I graduated I couldn't wait to be gone from the Seam. I wanted to leave, and so did Finn. So we enrolled at the same University. We both made it in. I felt like a huge wait had been lifted off my chest. I was moving all the way to the other side of the country with my best friend Finn. I was ready to face the real wold again.

So now, here I am. A 19 year old girl, packed and ready to move to Stanford. I got a full scholarship and so did Finn.

I'm standing outside my shitty little flat, in the shitty little town called the Seam, waiting for Finn to pick me up so we can go to the airport together.

When I see his truck pull into the road I almost squeal with delight. "Ready to go Kat?" he beams at me, leaning over the centre console to open the door for me.

"Ready." I grin back at him

AN/ I know this chapter is kind short but it is only like, the epilogue, just to give you the background deets at to why Gale isn't in the story so much and why Katniss and Finnick are best friends. I know it gets really deep and gritty but thats only so you know whats going on :)

Okay, so I know what some of you may be thinking. Yes, I did have another story and yes, I have now deleted said story. Just hear me out. I wasn't really feeling it. The story line was too confusing and at the moment I just have so many other thing on my mind I wanted to write something at that I'm comfortable writing about. I hope you guys understand and I might, possibly, continue writing the story after this one, I still have it saved on my computer ;) But for now, enjoy this Peeniss story I have thrown together for you.

Peace

K xx