I'm tired of not being able to find good stories that I want to read.
When you lose everything that is most important to you, you feel as if there is nothing left to live for.
To bad in the world of shinobi you always end up burying the ones you love.
When I first met Naruto I found it amusing how someone could be so naive to the work we have to do. As I look back now, I realize that was probably how he survived. I've lost count how many lives I have taken. Each one makes me feel like I've just lost a piece of me, and I start to wonder. Will I ever be whole again? Will I ever be able to look at a sunrise and feel joy that today is a new day? Will I ever feel again?
I seem to reminise a lot these days...Does that mean I'm getting old?
I remember going on a rather brutal mission with him. The mission was just to assassinate an important figure. But...We ended up having to kill one quarter of the village. How Naruto ever ended up as an anbu is beyond me. Does he feel like he's lost something when he kills?
In the morning on the way home, he grinned that goofy grin of his and happened to mention how beautiful konoha was behind the sunrise. Looking up, for the first time, I saw the colors splashing onto the sky and konoha just waking up, and I felt, joy.
Joy is something you feel everynow and then. Finding out that the new book of your favorite series had just released a new unscheduled book is one of those joys. But staring at that sunrise made me actually feel again. Like I hadn't just massacred part of a village. Thinking about my feelings made remember the last time I had felt joy. It was when my sensei and my teammates were still around. How the simplest memories could make me laugh.
I had decided to bury them when the fourth hokage died, but I find myself unburying them slowly with every similarity that the new team 7 had. I think...that team 7...wouldn't begin to be what it was without Naruto. His loud way of speaking dispelled awkward pauses quickly, his bright orange jacket and blond hair you could spot almost anywhere. His almost irrepressible joy, and must do attitude. The simplest things that made him who he was.
Thinking about all of this has made me realize. Naruto will become the next hokage. Even if the whole village is against it, he could still become hokage.
If he didn't then konoha would probably cease to exist. Naruto has managed to make powerful people belief in him. From the best shinobi in the village to the worst of criminals to hokages. Maybe that's the reason the villagers won't accept him. They're just too simple minded. To caught up in there own world to care about anything else.
With some help and maybe a change in clothing...Naruto will become the hokage. But before I try to predict the future, I need to get through with the day...and the new feelings of needing to teach someone everything I know to help him. Yes. That's one thing I'm certain of. I will help Uzumaki Naruto become the greatest hokage that konoha will ever have seen. The feelings are starting to come more natural now...Maybe...just maybe I could begin to feel again.
A little drabble I needed to get out of my head...Now to write a decent story...