by Hiryu Kaga
to "I" by Black Sabbath
I am Ikari Shinji, son of Ikari Gendou and Yui.
I am anger
Under pressure
No, not anymore. My mother is dead... and I stopped considering him as my father a long time ago. When I received his letter, I hoped for a moment, that it would change. I was wrong.
Left in cages
A prisoner
The first to escape
He summoned me only to put my life on the line. After my first battles, I wanted to run away, but he knew how to stop me. He gave me a new life - a false one, but real enough to trap me inside. I couldn't leave.
I am wicked
I am legion
I am Ikari Shinji, pilot of Evangelion Unit One.
Strength in numbers
A lie
The number is one
The Third Child. A fighter. A savior. Forsaken by his father, and yet shaped the way he wanted.
I - I - I
Everything that I see is for me
With a savior like me, who needs enemies?...
Yes, I am giant
I'm a monster
Is that what he wanted? I'm a fighting machine, like my Eva. I hate my Eva. I hate myself. All I ever bring to this world is pain.
Breaking windows
In houses
Buildings of glass
People suffer from my actions. If an Angel won, just once, they would never be hurt by me again.
I know they suffer. I saw their hatred when Touji told me about his sister. I tasted their pain when he punched me. I felt their suffering when he was pulled out from his entry plug.
And then...
Rebel rebel
Holy outlaw
I ran away. I finally broke free after that. I threw it all in his face and walked out.
Stupid child.
He knew I would come back. His smirk never faded.
Ride together
Don't try it
The power's in one
And I came back. I had to save them, my escape did not severe the bond. I returned and vented my anger on the Angel. I wanted to give some to him, but I couldn't. Stupid child.
I - I - I
I am standing alone
But I can rock you
Why did I do it? Why did I come back? In the name of false ideals, to save the ones who didn't care about me. I'm on my own, always was.
I - I - I
On the edge of the blade
But the knife can't cut the hero down
Sometimes I wonder why I'm still alive.
I am virgin
I'm a whore
Is that what you wanted, commander? You took away my childhood, made me a soldier. You made me hurt and kill. You twisted and warped my mind, and I don't know what's true anymore. I used to be an innocent child. Used to be.
Giving nothing
The taker
The maker of war
Now I'm an empty shell, I follow the orders. You give them out, not caring for my feelings. Of course, why care about your soldier, he isn't your son, is he? Not your goddamn blood!
I'll smash your face in
But with a smile
You made me kill my friends. Yes, I considered him my friend. The Fifth Child, the Seventeenth Angel. He gained my trust and then betrayed me. But you are worse than him. And now it's over, what power do you have over me?
All together
You'll never
Be stronger than me
The list of your deeds goes on, the reasons to hate you more than myself.
I - I - I
Right here on my own
But I still rock you
One by one, I lost all my friends. Asuka is comatose, God knows when she wakes up. Why did you let her get like this? If you're so powerful, why didn't you find another way? Rei died to save me. Save me! Only because you didn't let me go there, again! The Ayanami you brought back is not Rei. Never will be.
I - I - I
Don't follow behind
Just leave me on the outside
Is that what you wanted, I repeat? Tell me!
...
What was that? Did someone actually stand up to you? People running around, chaos. I can feel it, this is the end.
I - I - I
I am standing alone
But I can shock you
I don't want it to end this way. But if you die, it's fine with me.
I - I - I
On the edge of the blade
But no one makes the hero bleed
Or will you drag me into the etry plug again, to kill more people?
I am hunger
Feed my head
No, now I just want to die. And take you with me.
All together
You'll never
Never make the hero bleed
"Sorry, kid. Don't hate me."
I don't. Just don't fail your mission, soldier. We're the same.
Hiryu's Post-productive Rant:
Just had this idea. I've been working on it in a hurry so it might suck. Of course, it wouldn't make a difference if I worked on it in peace, it would suck anyway. R&R. Criticism welcome, flames always come back to you.
Tirade of a Demented Dragon:
Just for the record: Locust, if you're going to wisecrack again, don't bother to review. End of rant.