Whisper in the Wind
Author's Notes- One-shot (Though longer if anyone really cares, it doesn't bother me either way) take for Isle of Solitude, one of my biggest supporters. Usual disclaimers apply.
To Isle of Solitude. Thanks for reviewing and believing in me when no one else did, even myself. I love you, gal.
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Who can say where the road goes, Where the day flows, Only time. And who can say if your love grows, As your heart chose, Only time.
~Enya, Only Time
The river in front of me flowed, never ceasing, never stopping. Never deterred from its goal. Headed toward the ocean, where it would join the waters from heaven; the ultimate living death. Being one of the millions like it. It's what I want to be like- one of the normal ones.
Ten thousand years have I lived, always knowing the outcome of time and life as we know it. Never was there a surprise in action, never had I had to make a decision. Just follow. Never question. Fate is time, time is all. I was like a never-ending river, turning forever, destined never to live true life, never to reach a goal, never to even see one. Was fate cruel, or was it just living hell in my mind? I hate it. I wanted, and still want, to live. This isn't living, being here locked up by the knowledge and truth of the past and future. The river is now bending, not curving, not doing anything. Just going closer to death. To a welcome death. Why can't I swim with it to the end of time?
When I first saw Usagi, I wanted to be like her. Clumsy, naïve; young again. A princess of a land forgotten by time, enveloped in beauty.
My own youth is clouded in fake memories and a time long ago, before this solar system ever existed, before the crystal was ever a dream, before the Silver Millennium was even a star's nova. Back then, the gods roamed around as mortals, humans couldn't conceive time, and I was a normal person. I suppose I was once in love, once married, once with children. I know for a fact that I had three daughters and a son, and that I had great- great grandchildren when the planet they were on was destroyed when their sun went nova. But it mattered not- by this far along, no one with my blood would be alive. It was an impossibility. So I wished again I could be Usagi, waiting for the future, with a husband, and a beautiful child. I stayed around Chibi-Usa because she reminded me of me having a child- something I've always wanted, even if again.
When I lost my husband and children to time, I gave in. I knew my calling, and accepted it. Life meant nothing. Family meant nothing. Love meant nothing. Only duty, and time, meant something. But then, in just another time, another duty, something happened. Something amazing. Usagi, the young princess who hadn't even experienced loss, taught me that there was possibly a chance. That there was hope, that love was needed. That I'd forgotten myself and my life ten thousand years ago when I lost all I loved. That I still had something, a chance, at life. Life.
The river ended. Just like that, it dropped off into the ocean. I sat on the edge, contemplating life. Long ago, I'd killed myself, jumping off this exact cliff. Yet I returned, much to my dismay, and lived on. I'd do it a thousand times over if it would work, but it won't. I'm here to stay, with a duty. With a non-existent life.
But she taught me that long time ago when she snuck off to Earth and was caught, that nothing is impossible. It was impossible to do what she did, but she did it. She saved my life from not death, but from life itself.
Usagi, you are my one, my only, my eternal princess. And I thank you with my heart for giving me the light of the moon to guide me.
Author's Notes- One-shot (Though longer if anyone really cares, it doesn't bother me either way) take for Isle of Solitude, one of my biggest supporters. Usual disclaimers apply.
To Isle of Solitude. Thanks for reviewing and believing in me when no one else did, even myself. I love you, gal.
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Who can say where the road goes, Where the day flows, Only time. And who can say if your love grows, As your heart chose, Only time.
~Enya, Only Time
The river in front of me flowed, never ceasing, never stopping. Never deterred from its goal. Headed toward the ocean, where it would join the waters from heaven; the ultimate living death. Being one of the millions like it. It's what I want to be like- one of the normal ones.
Ten thousand years have I lived, always knowing the outcome of time and life as we know it. Never was there a surprise in action, never had I had to make a decision. Just follow. Never question. Fate is time, time is all. I was like a never-ending river, turning forever, destined never to live true life, never to reach a goal, never to even see one. Was fate cruel, or was it just living hell in my mind? I hate it. I wanted, and still want, to live. This isn't living, being here locked up by the knowledge and truth of the past and future. The river is now bending, not curving, not doing anything. Just going closer to death. To a welcome death. Why can't I swim with it to the end of time?
When I first saw Usagi, I wanted to be like her. Clumsy, naïve; young again. A princess of a land forgotten by time, enveloped in beauty.
My own youth is clouded in fake memories and a time long ago, before this solar system ever existed, before the crystal was ever a dream, before the Silver Millennium was even a star's nova. Back then, the gods roamed around as mortals, humans couldn't conceive time, and I was a normal person. I suppose I was once in love, once married, once with children. I know for a fact that I had three daughters and a son, and that I had great- great grandchildren when the planet they were on was destroyed when their sun went nova. But it mattered not- by this far along, no one with my blood would be alive. It was an impossibility. So I wished again I could be Usagi, waiting for the future, with a husband, and a beautiful child. I stayed around Chibi-Usa because she reminded me of me having a child- something I've always wanted, even if again.
When I lost my husband and children to time, I gave in. I knew my calling, and accepted it. Life meant nothing. Family meant nothing. Love meant nothing. Only duty, and time, meant something. But then, in just another time, another duty, something happened. Something amazing. Usagi, the young princess who hadn't even experienced loss, taught me that there was possibly a chance. That there was hope, that love was needed. That I'd forgotten myself and my life ten thousand years ago when I lost all I loved. That I still had something, a chance, at life. Life.
The river ended. Just like that, it dropped off into the ocean. I sat on the edge, contemplating life. Long ago, I'd killed myself, jumping off this exact cliff. Yet I returned, much to my dismay, and lived on. I'd do it a thousand times over if it would work, but it won't. I'm here to stay, with a duty. With a non-existent life.
But she taught me that long time ago when she snuck off to Earth and was caught, that nothing is impossible. It was impossible to do what she did, but she did it. She saved my life from not death, but from life itself.
Usagi, you are my one, my only, my eternal princess. And I thank you with my heart for giving me the light of the moon to guide me.