AN: This is a one-shot. It is primarily one-sided Sasu-Hina, pre-timeskip, just before Sasuke leaves for Orochimaru. This is also my first story.
Strange Thoughts
I never cared about any of those fangirls. All they do is constantly stalk me, competing for me, trying to make me love them.
As if.
I could never love any of them. That annoying Sakura is always flirting with me, not realizing that it only makes her seem less in my eyes. I can tell that she means well, but there is nothing worthwhile in her.
Baka*s, all of them.
It's not just the fangirls, it's everybody. Kakashi, that old scarecrow, is trying to make me into a copy of him. And then there's the village council, considering me their "precious" last Uchiha. They could never understand what I've been through. All they consider me as is breeding stock.
However…
There is only one who does not think more or less of me. She is shy, frightened, and one who everybody thinks is weak. But I can tell that there is something more to that. There is something behind that mask. She is the heir to a clan that despises her, considers her weak. Her name is Hinata Hyuga, and I can tell, there is no way she is weak.
Still,
As much as I may think highly of her, I am still confused. Do I love her, like her, or hate her?
Gaaaah! These thoughts are driving me insane! I think… I think I may love her…
There's a problem…
Even with my feelings for her, there is no way she would ever return those feelings. She is stricken with love for that dobe* and my rival, Uzumaki Naruto. I don't understand what she sees in him. He's simple, dens, and hyperactive. Sure, he may be kind and energetic, but there's a dark-side to him. But then again, I have a dark-side too…
That one night…
It was that one night. The root of all my problems. I come home from shuriken training, to find my whole clan dead on the streets. I go to my house to see if my family is okay, and what do I find? My "beloved" older brother, Itachi, the one I foolishly looked up too, standing over the corpses of my parents. He told me to hate him, kill him. And that remains my goal. But if I have no means of accomplishing it here, in this so-called "glorious" village of Konohagakure, what am I waiting for?
I guess this is it…
If I can't be stronger than that dobe, can't have Hinata's affection, must constantly live in my brother's and Kakashi's shadows, then there is one thing left to do. Leave Konoha.
It's my turn to win.
From now on, I will get more powerful. I will abandon my old life. I will kill my brother. And I will leave Konoha. And I have just the ticket. That Snake Sannin, Orochimaru. I won't let him take over my body, but I will become strong enough under him to kill Itachi.
In the end…
Maybe, just maybe, when it's all over, I can come back. Start again. And see that shy angelic face look up at me and say the words "Sasuke-kun".