Disclaimer: Willow and Tara aren't mine. Never was. Never will (well, I
guess in my dreams they are but in reality, Joss is the boss).
Rating: PG-13
Feedback: Appreciated.
Summary: Willow visits Tara.
Author's Note: I'm obviously still is grieving. I will never stop, I guess.
Gone
by
tiffany (rogueslayer747@yahoo.com)
(alexis_866@yahoo.com)
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I never thought we'd get this far. I never thought a love like ours existed. One that defied every possible barrier. I wasn't prepared for this, not at all. I had my life carefully planned out for me, I had it outlined and organized. Kind of ironic knowing that you are living on a hellmouth but hey, you know me... I just wanted everything to be, well, perfect.
But I guess life doesn't go that way. Everything just gets out of hand especially when you least think they will.
I think of that night, that last night when me made up... When we made love. I still couldn't believe how I was able to get through that night without my heart bursting. I was afraid that I was doing it all wrong, not that we haven't done it before, but that night was different. That night we were both sure that nothing would ever go wrong again between the two of us, and therefore we begin--again. And every touch, every kiss astounded me in a level I never knew was possible. But then again, just like many times before you were there and made everything all right.
You were the only one who understood me beyond the words I spoke of. You were the only one who braved standing up for me when everybody wanted me to do something I didn't want to. You made me believe that I deserved love just like everybody else and that nothing's wrong with being different. You made believe that life could actually be beautiful if love guided its way.
Then the next morning you were gone. Somebody took you away for no good reason. And again, just like many times before the heavens betrayed me. A good life is promised to those who had faith. I had faith in us, so why this? Why do I end up always losing you? Why this way? I stared at your lifeless body for a while, bathed in your own blood and right that moment all I knew that was true, all the things that I had believed in just crumbled. And that moment, I died with you.
And now I am here, standing in front of a stone. A stone that bears your name. I stare at it blankly, for I no longer feel a thing. Funny because sometimes I'd just find myself with tears in my eyes but I can't explain why. I suppose it doesn't really make sense, but it has stopped making sense since you've gone away.
The wind… you loved the wind, and now, it is whispering to me. I feel its cold touch brush the side of my face. And then I see you're name again, engraved in that stone and God knows how much I want to put mine next to yours, but I couldn't, I just don't have that strength anymore.
Tara, I'd give up everything just to hold your hand even for the last time, I'd give up everything just to hear you say my name, I'd give up everything just to be able to drown myself in the ocean that is your eyes.
Once, you said death is a beautiful thing because there exist heaven, but when I looked up to it... my tears blinded me.
Fin
Rating: PG-13
Feedback: Appreciated.
Summary: Willow visits Tara.
Author's Note: I'm obviously still is grieving. I will never stop, I guess.
Gone
by
tiffany (rogueslayer747@yahoo.com)
(alexis_866@yahoo.com)
===============================================================
I never thought we'd get this far. I never thought a love like ours existed. One that defied every possible barrier. I wasn't prepared for this, not at all. I had my life carefully planned out for me, I had it outlined and organized. Kind of ironic knowing that you are living on a hellmouth but hey, you know me... I just wanted everything to be, well, perfect.
But I guess life doesn't go that way. Everything just gets out of hand especially when you least think they will.
I think of that night, that last night when me made up... When we made love. I still couldn't believe how I was able to get through that night without my heart bursting. I was afraid that I was doing it all wrong, not that we haven't done it before, but that night was different. That night we were both sure that nothing would ever go wrong again between the two of us, and therefore we begin--again. And every touch, every kiss astounded me in a level I never knew was possible. But then again, just like many times before you were there and made everything all right.
You were the only one who understood me beyond the words I spoke of. You were the only one who braved standing up for me when everybody wanted me to do something I didn't want to. You made me believe that I deserved love just like everybody else and that nothing's wrong with being different. You made believe that life could actually be beautiful if love guided its way.
Then the next morning you were gone. Somebody took you away for no good reason. And again, just like many times before the heavens betrayed me. A good life is promised to those who had faith. I had faith in us, so why this? Why do I end up always losing you? Why this way? I stared at your lifeless body for a while, bathed in your own blood and right that moment all I knew that was true, all the things that I had believed in just crumbled. And that moment, I died with you.
And now I am here, standing in front of a stone. A stone that bears your name. I stare at it blankly, for I no longer feel a thing. Funny because sometimes I'd just find myself with tears in my eyes but I can't explain why. I suppose it doesn't really make sense, but it has stopped making sense since you've gone away.
The wind… you loved the wind, and now, it is whispering to me. I feel its cold touch brush the side of my face. And then I see you're name again, engraved in that stone and God knows how much I want to put mine next to yours, but I couldn't, I just don't have that strength anymore.
Tara, I'd give up everything just to hold your hand even for the last time, I'd give up everything just to hear you say my name, I'd give up everything just to be able to drown myself in the ocean that is your eyes.
Once, you said death is a beautiful thing because there exist heaven, but when I looked up to it... my tears blinded me.
Fin