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of us.
A/N: Hey, this is my first ER fic. It takes place before the whole 'to propose or not' episode. It's right around the time Carter was bothering Abby about her drinking problem. And just before the whole episode with Eric, coming to the ER, when they figured out he had the same disease as Maggie. This was actually inspired from seeing the previews. Not sure the exact date or name of the episode, but you get the idea. Please review and tell me what you think!!! This will definitely be a LUBY since God knows there isn't enough of those around!!! And don't hate me for my portrayal of Carter, I've seen some nasty ones for Luka that just didn't match him at all!! So, here goes, enjoy!
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"It was just ONE drink, Carter! One margarita! Stop pestering me about it, ill you?! I just wanted to go out with my BROTHER!" Abby defended herself as she walked into the hospital lobby to put on her coat. Her shift just began at 12:00pm and she was pulling a 12 hour shift. Carter had been on since 6:00am.
"Abby..you have a DRINKING problem! You're an alcoholic! " he said back angrily.
"I TOLD you that was in the past! When my life was s#!$y and cold! I was going through a failing marriage! NOW..I'm NOT! I'm happy! I love my job! My MOTHER'S even doing well! I just went out to have some fun! Okay?! Drop it already!" she demanded as she angrily pulled off her coat and put all her nurse things in her smock pocket. Carter just through up his hands muttering 'whatever' and stormed out. Abby rolled her eyes and finished putting her stuff away. When she shut her locker, she spotted Luka sitting at the far table drinking coffee.
"Luka! I didn't know you were here!" Abby said surprised, going over and sat next to him.
"Sorry about him." Luka said in that soft/kind voice that just melts all our Croatian lovin' hearts. Abby smiled touched.
"What for?! It's in no way your fault?! Quite the opposite, as a matter of fact." Abby said almost to herself.
"Why's that Abby?" Luka asked as he sipped his coffee.
"Huh?!..oh..um, with you..you never tried to change me. To a way YOU wanted me. You took me for who I was. It was nice. You're the first one in my life who ever was like that. Except for my brother." Abby said truthfully.
"Go figure?" she finished getting up to get to work before Weaver had her head. Luka smiled at that. He finished his coffee and followed Abby, back to work.
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Just as the day began really crappy for Abby..so was the rest of her day. A woman came in with signs of miscarrying at 4 months pregnant..for the third time. She'd lost a baby boy and a baby girl over the past 3 years after being really difficult to get pregnant. She'd suffered for 5 hours down in the ER trying to keep from delivering. They tried everything they could. All she'd wanted was a son or daughter, to have a family finally. Abby went in just before they moved her upstairs after miscarrying her third baby to do a last assessment.
"It's his way of punishing me..I committed a murder..I should have NEVER done it..it was WRONG!" the woman mumbled through tears.
"It's okay Mrs. Rogers, it's not your fault." Abby tried to comfort her as she did a last check of her vital signs.
"But it IS! I committed a SIN! I took away a life..I'm not God, what gives me the right to ACT like Him?!" Mrs. Rogers sobbed. Abby looked up now, catching on to what she had said.
"What do you mean, Mrs. Rogers?!" Abby asked softly.
"Before Malcolm,..before we were married.. It was an accident. He was just a college fling. I wasn't ready to have a baby..He wasn't either. We figured it was for the best. So..we took care of it. I had.a.an.abortion." Mrs. Rogers sobbed out, not being able to stop now as some nurses and doctors came to transport her upstairs. Abby just stood there, floored. All her hidden guilt came rushing back to her and her chin trembled. She numbly walked out to the front desk, her eyes full of tears, in a daze. And she STILL had about 5 hours to go.
Carter was just getting off. He walked right by Abby, looking at her with an angry stare and said goodbye to everyone else, heading towards the door. Luka was just off to the side, watching.
"Hey Carter..aren't you gonna say goodbye to Abby?" he called to his retreating back. Carter just threw hi hand over his shoulder in a wave.
"What for?!" he called out, stepping out the door. Randi stood next to Luka eyeing the whole scene.
"She seems upset. He saw her, you'd think he'd care." Randi mumbled to Luka.
"You'd think" Luka said, placing his chart in a slot and going over to Abby.
"Hey..Abby, you okay?" Luka asked, full of concern. He placed his hand on her backside gentlemanly, causing Abby to get tingles all up and down her spine, even in her state of mind at the moment. Then she snapped back to what Mrs. Rogers had said and her chin trembled, her tears filling with tears again.
"No" she croaked out, not being able to hold the emotion any longer. She covered her face with both hands, and before she could stop her instinct, she leaned against Luka's chest and started sobbing. Luka instantly wrapped her up in his arms. He stroked her back for a minute and nodded towards Carrie who motioned for her to take off the rest of her shift.
"I'm off right now, let's go somewhere to talk." Luka softly said, leading her towards the lounge.
"N-n-no I'm on till 12." She mumbled, shaking her head. "Not anymore." He said helping her into her jacket. She just nodded, still sniffling. He took her to a little diner/bar and stayed silent while he ordered a big batch of chili cheese fries and beers. After they arrived, Abby had already downed a whole bottle of beer by the time she touched a fry.
"You wanna talk about it?" Luka prodded softly. Abby nodded, but stayed silent.
"Was it about your patient today, Mrs. Rogers?" Luka asked, seeing the look on her face when he mentioned her name.
"Talk to me, Abigail. You were REALLY upset. I hate it when you get upset. Makes me upset." Luka said truthfully. She looked up, nodding some more.
"It hurts." She said after another long pause.
"What does? Are you sick?" Luka said quickly worried.
"M-my heart..my SOUL." She said, getting choked up again. He laid his hand on her forearm, rubbing it comfortingly.
"Shh..it's okay. Just let it all out. I've learned it always helps to talk it all out." He said supportively. He kept rubbing her arm as she calmed down some. So she poured what has been haunting her forever. She went through nearly four beers before she was feeling better. That and she was slightly drunk. He had comforted her the whole time, reassuring her that she would have children one day and even though he didn't believe in abortion, he didn't hold it against her anymore. That he can tell she truly regretted it.
"I think I need to get you home now Abby." He said as he paid the bill and kept an arm around her waist to help her walk. She was only a little tipsy. He drove her home, helping her get through her building door and up the stairs to her room. When he got her through her door, he was surprised when he found Carter sitting on her couch waiting for her.
"Abby? Are you drunk?!" was the first thing out of Carter's mouth as he watched Luka help her to a chair. Abby just gazed at him.
"Yeah..so?" she said, sobering a little to narrow her eyes at him. Luka glared daggers at him too.
"So..you two went on a date, huh?!" Carter said, smiling icily.
"No..she was really upset. We just talked." Luka said going to her kitchen to get Abby some water.
"Oh..I see. Okay, I get it. Goodbye Abby." Carter said through clenched teeth, storming out.
"Carter, wait." Abby tried, angrily. Luka came back and handed her a glass of water. She took it and mumbled a thank you.
"He just won't LISTEN to me for once!" she grumbled, finishing half the glass before peeling off her jacket, with Luka's help, and her shoes and shuffling to her bedroom where she collapsed on her unmade bed and instantly fell asleep. Luka tucked her in and hesitated before kissing her temple.
"Night Abby." He whispered and just before he walked out he heard her sigh.
"Luka." before leaving. He didn't hear her say a moment later, when she sighed again.
"I love you." She murmured as she rolled over and fell completely asleep.
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A/N: How's that? Hope you like it!! LUBY's rock!!! Please tell me what you all think, I really need reviews to make sure I am going at a good angle!! Oh, and don't worry about leaving Carter behind, he has someone return from his past that we all believed was long gone!! Don't forget to review!!! Thanx!
A/N: Hey, this is my first ER fic. It takes place before the whole 'to propose or not' episode. It's right around the time Carter was bothering Abby about her drinking problem. And just before the whole episode with Eric, coming to the ER, when they figured out he had the same disease as Maggie. This was actually inspired from seeing the previews. Not sure the exact date or name of the episode, but you get the idea. Please review and tell me what you think!!! This will definitely be a LUBY since God knows there isn't enough of those around!!! And don't hate me for my portrayal of Carter, I've seen some nasty ones for Luka that just didn't match him at all!! So, here goes, enjoy!
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"It was just ONE drink, Carter! One margarita! Stop pestering me about it, ill you?! I just wanted to go out with my BROTHER!" Abby defended herself as she walked into the hospital lobby to put on her coat. Her shift just began at 12:00pm and she was pulling a 12 hour shift. Carter had been on since 6:00am.
"Abby..you have a DRINKING problem! You're an alcoholic! " he said back angrily.
"I TOLD you that was in the past! When my life was s#!$y and cold! I was going through a failing marriage! NOW..I'm NOT! I'm happy! I love my job! My MOTHER'S even doing well! I just went out to have some fun! Okay?! Drop it already!" she demanded as she angrily pulled off her coat and put all her nurse things in her smock pocket. Carter just through up his hands muttering 'whatever' and stormed out. Abby rolled her eyes and finished putting her stuff away. When she shut her locker, she spotted Luka sitting at the far table drinking coffee.
"Luka! I didn't know you were here!" Abby said surprised, going over and sat next to him.
"Sorry about him." Luka said in that soft/kind voice that just melts all our Croatian lovin' hearts. Abby smiled touched.
"What for?! It's in no way your fault?! Quite the opposite, as a matter of fact." Abby said almost to herself.
"Why's that Abby?" Luka asked as he sipped his coffee.
"Huh?!..oh..um, with you..you never tried to change me. To a way YOU wanted me. You took me for who I was. It was nice. You're the first one in my life who ever was like that. Except for my brother." Abby said truthfully.
"Go figure?" she finished getting up to get to work before Weaver had her head. Luka smiled at that. He finished his coffee and followed Abby, back to work.
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Just as the day began really crappy for Abby..so was the rest of her day. A woman came in with signs of miscarrying at 4 months pregnant..for the third time. She'd lost a baby boy and a baby girl over the past 3 years after being really difficult to get pregnant. She'd suffered for 5 hours down in the ER trying to keep from delivering. They tried everything they could. All she'd wanted was a son or daughter, to have a family finally. Abby went in just before they moved her upstairs after miscarrying her third baby to do a last assessment.
"It's his way of punishing me..I committed a murder..I should have NEVER done it..it was WRONG!" the woman mumbled through tears.
"It's okay Mrs. Rogers, it's not your fault." Abby tried to comfort her as she did a last check of her vital signs.
"But it IS! I committed a SIN! I took away a life..I'm not God, what gives me the right to ACT like Him?!" Mrs. Rogers sobbed. Abby looked up now, catching on to what she had said.
"What do you mean, Mrs. Rogers?!" Abby asked softly.
"Before Malcolm,..before we were married.. It was an accident. He was just a college fling. I wasn't ready to have a baby..He wasn't either. We figured it was for the best. So..we took care of it. I had.a.an.abortion." Mrs. Rogers sobbed out, not being able to stop now as some nurses and doctors came to transport her upstairs. Abby just stood there, floored. All her hidden guilt came rushing back to her and her chin trembled. She numbly walked out to the front desk, her eyes full of tears, in a daze. And she STILL had about 5 hours to go.
Carter was just getting off. He walked right by Abby, looking at her with an angry stare and said goodbye to everyone else, heading towards the door. Luka was just off to the side, watching.
"Hey Carter..aren't you gonna say goodbye to Abby?" he called to his retreating back. Carter just threw hi hand over his shoulder in a wave.
"What for?!" he called out, stepping out the door. Randi stood next to Luka eyeing the whole scene.
"She seems upset. He saw her, you'd think he'd care." Randi mumbled to Luka.
"You'd think" Luka said, placing his chart in a slot and going over to Abby.
"Hey..Abby, you okay?" Luka asked, full of concern. He placed his hand on her backside gentlemanly, causing Abby to get tingles all up and down her spine, even in her state of mind at the moment. Then she snapped back to what Mrs. Rogers had said and her chin trembled, her tears filling with tears again.
"No" she croaked out, not being able to hold the emotion any longer. She covered her face with both hands, and before she could stop her instinct, she leaned against Luka's chest and started sobbing. Luka instantly wrapped her up in his arms. He stroked her back for a minute and nodded towards Carrie who motioned for her to take off the rest of her shift.
"I'm off right now, let's go somewhere to talk." Luka softly said, leading her towards the lounge.
"N-n-no I'm on till 12." She mumbled, shaking her head. "Not anymore." He said helping her into her jacket. She just nodded, still sniffling. He took her to a little diner/bar and stayed silent while he ordered a big batch of chili cheese fries and beers. After they arrived, Abby had already downed a whole bottle of beer by the time she touched a fry.
"You wanna talk about it?" Luka prodded softly. Abby nodded, but stayed silent.
"Was it about your patient today, Mrs. Rogers?" Luka asked, seeing the look on her face when he mentioned her name.
"Talk to me, Abigail. You were REALLY upset. I hate it when you get upset. Makes me upset." Luka said truthfully. She looked up, nodding some more.
"It hurts." She said after another long pause.
"What does? Are you sick?" Luka said quickly worried.
"M-my heart..my SOUL." She said, getting choked up again. He laid his hand on her forearm, rubbing it comfortingly.
"Shh..it's okay. Just let it all out. I've learned it always helps to talk it all out." He said supportively. He kept rubbing her arm as she calmed down some. So she poured what has been haunting her forever. She went through nearly four beers before she was feeling better. That and she was slightly drunk. He had comforted her the whole time, reassuring her that she would have children one day and even though he didn't believe in abortion, he didn't hold it against her anymore. That he can tell she truly regretted it.
"I think I need to get you home now Abby." He said as he paid the bill and kept an arm around her waist to help her walk. She was only a little tipsy. He drove her home, helping her get through her building door and up the stairs to her room. When he got her through her door, he was surprised when he found Carter sitting on her couch waiting for her.
"Abby? Are you drunk?!" was the first thing out of Carter's mouth as he watched Luka help her to a chair. Abby just gazed at him.
"Yeah..so?" she said, sobering a little to narrow her eyes at him. Luka glared daggers at him too.
"So..you two went on a date, huh?!" Carter said, smiling icily.
"No..she was really upset. We just talked." Luka said going to her kitchen to get Abby some water.
"Oh..I see. Okay, I get it. Goodbye Abby." Carter said through clenched teeth, storming out.
"Carter, wait." Abby tried, angrily. Luka came back and handed her a glass of water. She took it and mumbled a thank you.
"He just won't LISTEN to me for once!" she grumbled, finishing half the glass before peeling off her jacket, with Luka's help, and her shoes and shuffling to her bedroom where she collapsed on her unmade bed and instantly fell asleep. Luka tucked her in and hesitated before kissing her temple.
"Night Abby." He whispered and just before he walked out he heard her sigh.
"Luka." before leaving. He didn't hear her say a moment later, when she sighed again.
"I love you." She murmured as she rolled over and fell completely asleep.
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A/N: How's that? Hope you like it!! LUBY's rock!!! Please tell me what you all think, I really need reviews to make sure I am going at a good angle!! Oh, and don't worry about leaving Carter behind, he has someone return from his past that we all believed was long gone!! Don't forget to review!!! Thanx!