It's pouring… wait no. I can't hear a sound. But it must be, I'm soaked…soaked to the bone… aren't I? It's late right? Midnight… or close to it. Must be close to it now. Am I crying? I feel sick… so sick. So horrible. Headache? Or am I just tired. I've been running forever… forever? Forever is a lie… its all a lie. Everything that's been done. I wish it were a lie. NO!

How, how am I supposed to feel
When everything surrounding me
Is nothing but a fake disguise
I don't know,
I don't know where I belong
It's time for me to carry on
I'll say goodbye

The rain pounded harder… too hard. A storm? I hear loud noises, maybe just my mind. How can I know? How can I know anything anymore? Anymore… more… forever more… forever. I've already thought about that word… already right? It feels so slow… so long.

I can't stop the rain from fallin'
I'm drownin in these tears I cry
Since you left without a warning
I face the dawn with sleepless eyes
No I can't go on
When clouds are pushin' down on me
I can't stop, I can't stop the rain
From fallin

Time's so slow now… so hard to keep track. Hard to keep track of it or everything or everyone or every loved one… and every loved one I've lost. Lost? I forget… I can't… I can… forgive. Remember. Love. Hate. No. Dangerous. Lost. Forget. Forgive. Forgive and forget. Lost. Lost…lost. I'm lost! I DO forget! I can't! WON'T FORGIVE! I LOVED THEM! ALL OF THEM! BUT NOW I HATE! IT WAS STUPID! DANGEROUS! NOW THEY'RE ALSO LOST! BUT I CAN'T FORGET!

So, tell me where I went wrong
I'm stuck inside a dream long gone
It's hard to reveal the truth
Your love,
Is nothing but a bitter taste
It's better if I walk away,
Away from you

I grab my head. Words repeat themselves over and over again. I'm forgetting something. Something's missing. But what? And how? How could it happen? What happen? I don't know… but why am I running? What- NO!

I can't stop the rain from fallin'
Im drownin in these tears I cry
Since you left without a warning
I face the dawn with sleepless eyes
No I can't go on

I fall. Fall onto the hard ground. The soft ground. The wet ground. The dry ground.

I can't tell.

I couldn't tell.

I shouldn't tell.

I never should have told.

That was it.

It was the thing in the back of my mind.

It was why I was running.

It was why these pictures all flooded my mind now.

It was what was dangerous.

It was what I could not forgive.

It Remembers.

It Loves.

It Hates.

And now it's not the one Lost.

I'm Lost.

And I can never Forget.

When clouds are pushin' down on me
I can't stop, I can't stop the rain
From fallin

I'm down. And the dark quickly over shadows me.

Good night Eric.