AN: First JeNate story. This is how I wanted things to go. I know GG is over and I know they didn't end up together but I really think they should have gotten a chance. I mean he wrote her a letter he could've sent a text or a mail but no it had to be a letter. I just loved them together. I don't GG sadly enough, I might owe some charapters in the upcoming ch. Hope you enjoy it and please review. There will be a second charapter if I get 4 ratings, sorry just I don't want to write a story when nobody reads it. I am from Belgium so sorry if my language is bad.

' ' are thoughts and " " are spoken words but I think most of you already figured it out.

Nate's p.o.v.

'She is gone, God she left without saying goodbye. How could she?! Okay, yeah maybe we weren't on good terms because she tried to break up me and Serena but that doesn't mean she doesn't have to say goodbye, or at least why she left. But who am I to talk I mean I am the one who pulled her away, the one who rejected her so many times he lost how many times it were. So yeah maybe she had a reason to not talk me. but still it feels wrong. Should I call her? Or text her? No, she probably won't even answer, she was really mad and I wanted to ask her a few days ago why she changed so much but she just ran away. Was I stupid for rejecting her? Geez I don't know I am so confused right now.' then there came some memories in his mind. God did he miss those big blue eyes and those blonde hairs and those oh so soft lips where he couldn't enough from and those long legs that went on for days.

"I thought we could hang out together."

"I'm not leaving with you." "Fine than I can wait"

"How could you do that to me?" "What are you talking about, you're lucky I showed up when I did, that was a bad scene Jenny" "What, no it wasn't okay. We were dancing in our underwear not making a porno." "Not yet anyway" "No not ever, I would never get myself in a situation like that. Alright? I know what I'm doing Nate" "I know you think you do but that guy was taking advantage of you." "Okay, you are not my father and my brother so why do you care so much" "Because..." Then she kissed me and she was like toxic, I sighed and she turned around to walk away and I pulled her back kissed her rough. God did that make out session feel good, I just couldn't get enough from her.

"And since when are you so worried, you haven't spoken two words to me all week." "Jenny come on, you know it's complicated." "you care about me prove it, come with me." "Maybe I should drive."

"I pulled you a suit on the way out, it would really mean alot to me if you stayed." She laughs and walks away and i can't help but chuckle.

"you kissed me again." "I know"

"Jenny whatever you decide, I'm with you."

"You're a really special girl Jenny, who deserves a guy who is gonna see that. You know who is gonna be there in the morning." "Not like you're available."

"You can't be with someone who is dealing drugs." "Why not it's not like you haven't done any. Stop, pretending that you care about me. In fact the only one who does just got here." "I'm sorry there is no way I'm letting you leave with her"

"Hey you wanna dance?" "Uhm, yeah"

"I'm glad you didn't. Honestly, you're not who I thought you were" 'Stupid, stupid for letting her slip away. Why did I choose Vanessa.'

"Jenny." "Who the hell are you" "Get of her."

"You Ok?" "What's wrong with me?" "Nothing is wrong with you."

God she lost her virginity to Damien, I mean it's not like I hoped that she would give it to me but she could've waited I mean they broke up after it. Now I lost her, God I'm so stupid. Why do I always make the wrong decisions. Was it wrong to choose all those other girls over her. God I feel sick. I just need to talk to her. I made so many bad decisions and now I'm 'hanging out' with girls from Chuck's black book. What am I doing? Where did I get myself in this time?

So this was it. I hoped you enjoyed it. Next chapter comes soon. xx