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It was late and everyone was asleep. Kurama turned restlessly as he finally decided to get up. He looked at the alarm clock, 3:30 am. He sighed as he actually emerged from his covers.
'Maybe if I take a walk, I'll feel better.' He though as he threw on his robe and stepped out of his room. He took a look into the room next door, and saw a precious life in slumber. He quietly put on his outdoor slippers and exited out the back door and into the tree covered foliage rich back yard.
He wondered around for hours, trying to clear his head from his uneasiness. 'Where are you?' He wondered sadly as he passed the moss covered rock for the hundredth time as he aimlessly wondered over and over. He walked sluggishly toward a near tree as he leaned against it as tears began to fall.
'Why, Hiei, why. Why wasn't I enough? Wasn't your son worth it?' He screamed in his head as he hugged the tree for comfort. He looked up when he felt someone nearby.
"Fox, why are you out here?" Hiei asked as he jumped down to where Kurama stood.
Kurama watched him intensely without saying a word. Silence fell upon them as the chilly air blew between then. It held the proof that Kurama was looking for, the scent of a woman's perfume.
Kurama just turned and left. He couldn't stand to look at the one that betrayed and insulted him in the worst way possible.
"What's wrong?" Hiei asked tenderly as he dashed forward and held Kurama by his arm.
"Let me go." Kurama snapped with hurt embedded in his voice as he quickly snatched his hands away. He turned and looked at Hiei.
"You have no right coming here again. How dare you contaminate my innocent family." Kurama said bitterly with tears beaming from his eyes.
"What?" Hiei said in shocked as he watched his life walk away from him. That took him off guard as he stood and stare where Kurama once stood. 'What, I thought I was hiding it well.'
Kurama knew that if Hiei was guilty, he would not follow him. The perfume was proof but deep down he was hoping that Hiei would at least try to mend the broken ties by coming for him. He fell on the bed as he covered his head with the pillow as he let out his sorrow in tears.
Hearing Kurama's tears, the sleeping form from the other room entered as he watched his mum laid stomach first on the bed.
"Mummy, are you alright?" The boy asked as he gently touched Kurama's forearm. Kurama reluctantly looked up at his son.
"Yes, dear, I'm fine. Please go back to bed, you have school tomorrow." Kurama said as he looked at his son. 'Hiei!' he thought sadly as he looked at his son. Before it was a good thing that he looked like Hiei but now, it hurt Kurama.
"No." He said as Kurama looked at him shocked. "I am not going, you are crying and if you will not tell me, at least I can be here for you. Was daddy being stupid again?" He asked sadly.
"No." Kurama lied.
"Mum, you're hurting and it hurts me too." He said tearfully as one drop fell from his ruby eyes.
"Please don't cry Hiyama." Kurama said as he sat up as hugged his son close to his chest. His son embraced him strongly as well. "Please don't..." Kurama's voice died out as he tried to hold back his tears, but it still fell. 'My best friend, my mate, my life.' He thought as he held his son near, hugging tighter as memories flooded in his mind.
Hearing the thunder in the horizon, he forced Hiyama to go to bed, but he refused.
"You need me and I will not leave you." He said as his small armed squeezed his mum closer.
Eventually they fell asleep.
The next morning Kurama took a taxi as he dropped Hiyama to school. He decided to walk back home hoping to meet his mother on the way back. She usually visits the supermarket close by, but today wasn't the day. He sighed as he continued on his route.
"Kurama." he heard a voice call him but he refuse to turn around. 'Why didn't I feel him?' He thought as he kept walking.
"Kurama." The voice said sternly as a hand held him back.
"Hiei, leave me alone. I am worth more than this." Kurama snapped as he turned and looked at Hiei.
"Let me explain." He said as he held onto Kurama, knowing that the fox would not try anything when humans were around.
"Explain what Hiei. There would not be anything to explain if you were not hiding something." He reasoned as he held Hiei's glare. He could not be vexed as long as he would like. He did love him.
"I was helping her." Hiei reasoned.
"What, how? She had an itch she couldn't scratch on her own?" He said bitterly as he stared daggers at Hiei.
"That is just nasty Kurama." Hiei said seriously as he looked at his mate.
Kurama raised an elegant brow in question.
"Listen to me. I need to explain this to you. You have it all wrong." Hiei said as he pulled Kurama against his will to the park across the street and sat on the public bench.
"Hiei, I don't want to hear a lie." He said as he tried to stand up.
Getting tired of all this Hiei roughly pushed Kurama back down on the bench, hard. "Stay, and listen." Hiei demanded authoritatively.
Kurama looked shocked at him but he stayed put. "I was helping her, YUKINA." He stressed.
Kurama gasped in surprised as he looked apologetically at Hiei. "Hiei I..." Kurama started.
"Shut up Kurama. How dare you think I would cheat on you. I thought you would have more faith in me." He snapped.
"What the hell was I suppose to think. You are never home. If it wasn't for me telling Hiyama he looked like you, he would forget what his father looked like." Kurama snapped back as he glared up at Hiei.
"I have responsibility to my sister." He said as he watched Kurama with a cold glare. "She is the only family I have alive."
A breath caught his throat as Kurama listened to Hiei. "Well, then if she is your only family, then you would not mind if Hiyama and I move away, since we are not family and not that important for the almighty Hiei." He snapped again as he stood up and was about to turn away and leave.
"Kurama, that's not what I mean and you know it." He watched the fox in his eyes. "She is the only blood I have alive. I would not have helped her if I knew what this was doing to you." He reasoned.
Kurama sighed. "It is not that. I adore Yukina. It is just the secrets you kept. Why couldn't you tell me?" He pleaded.
"She made me promise not to tell anyone, but now I know I should have told you." He sighed as he turned his gaze to the grass below. "I will tell you. I rather Yukina be mad at me than you."
"No, I can't let you do that. I am sorry for my assumptions. It is just that, with us here and your job in Makai, you're almost never home, and when I kept noticing the woman's perfume on you on the nights you do decide to come home, I couldn't take it. I thought that I wasn't good enough, because I am not a woman." He confessed sadly.
"Kurama." He yelled and it startled the fox. "How the hell could you think like that? I chose you, didn't I?" He asked but not with a questionable tone. "Didn't I." He pressed on as he watched as Kurama sank back on the bench and Kurama nodded.
"I will tell you even though she promised me not to tell anyone." Hiei said as he sat next to Kurama.
Looking up in shock, Kurama watched him. "No Hiei, you can't betray her trust." He reasoned.
"I would rather betray her trust and her not trusting me that letting you stay mad at me for one more day. You're worth more to me Kurama." He confessed as he held a strong gaze on Kurama.
"Hiei." Kurama sighed as a tear made a way down his alabaster cheeks.
"She wants to leave Kuwabara and she is torn." Hiei confessed finally.
"What ,why? They seemed as the perfect couple." Kurama held Hiei's hand in his.
Hiei accepted the gesture. "She is torn between her love for Kuwabara and her demon nature to return to the island." He explained. "I tried to visit her as much as I could, knowing that right now, she needed me more that you did. You knew I loved you, I proved it every time I could, well I thought you did so I..." Kurama cut him off.
"I know you do, and I am sorry Hiei." He said again as he hugged Hiei.
"I know you're sorry fox, but let me continue. I want to make this right." Kurama pulled away and nodded for him to continue. "I made it my duty to visit her in the park every chance I could. She didn't want Kuwabara to know. She knew he would be crushed. Remember a Koorime doesn't naturally have desires for men. The society is strictly female. She didn't know what to do. I tried helping her but all she did was cry. The only thing I could have done was to comfort her. Damn it. I hate feeling useless." He said defeated.
"Hiei, you're not useless. You did all you could. It is up to her." Kurama reasoned.
"Yea but I tried to ease her hurt but in the mean time I hurt you." He looked at his fox as he caressed his cheeks. "I'm sorry, fox." He said tenderly.
"Hiei, it is alright now, you explained it to me, and so it is alright. I just don't like sneaky behaviour. Almost every night, Hiyama comforted me until I cried myself to sleep. He is nine, he is too young for this Hiei, but I am happy he doesn't need to do that anymore." Kurama said with a sad smile. "Our son is growing up faster than he needs to Hiei, he needs his father. I can't be both."
"I will be there for him fox and I will be there for you as well. I am sorry Kurama. I am very sorry for the misunderstanding and my lack of sympathy to the situation." He said.
"I know Hiei, but you may have to ask him for forgiveness. He knew I was crying over you." Kurama confessed.
"I will do anything I have to do to make things right." He said as he kissed Kurama softly and tenderly.
Pulling away he watched Kurama. "Last night when you left me, I went back to Mukuro. I asked for two weeks vacation."
"Really?" Kurama asked happily.
"Yes, but she said no." He said.
"What really.?"He asked shocked.
"Yes, so I trashed the place and burned her precious outfits until she said yes." He said with a mischievous grin.
"Oh Hiei, you do care." Kurama hugged him.
"Of course I do, stupid fox." He smiled as he accepted the embrace.
Later that day
Hiyama came home with the schools private transportation. As he opened the door he took off his shoes and walked into the kitchen. He saw Hiei playfully chasing Kurama around the island in the kitchen as he finally grabbed him and planted a kiss on him.
"What are you doing here, father." He said bitterly as he watched Hiei.
"Dear, you're home, are you hungry. I just made dinner." Kurama said happily as he watched his son form his awkward position.
"Not anymore. Mother why is he here?"
"Hiyama, he's your father, why wouldn't he be?" Kurama asked as he gently pushed Hiei from him as they both watch Hiyama.
"Well, did you forget that he made you cry? You know that I don't like to see you crying. He hurt you mum, and he didn't come to say sorry. Mum didn't you say the ones you love would never hurt you and if it was a mistake, they would say sorry and make it all better?" he asked as he looked at Hiei with condemning eyes.
"Sweetheart, Hiei did say he was sorry." Kurama moved away from Hiei as he went to Hiyama's side and hugged him gently.
Hiei watched the tender scene with a guilty heart. 'My own son hates me.' He thought. 'I would too. Kurama deserves better.'
"He did dear, but he was with your aunty. He did tell me he was sorry and why he was away for so long, can you please forgive him?" Kurama asked him sweetly.
"I don't know. Is aunty Yukina alright, or did he make her cry too?"He snapped as he watched Hiei again.
"Hiyama that is no way to talk to your father." Kurama snapped.
"Fox it's fine. I deserve it. I think I need some time with him." Hiei said as he stepped forward as he approached them.
"Um.. alright. I'll stay here then." Kurama stood up as he watched Hiei leave the kitchen with Hiyama as he grudgingly followed.
In the living room, Hiei watched his son. 'He is too young for all this.' He thought as he saw his son sat on the couch with a look that rivals his own stoic expression.
"I know I made mistakes, but I am here to make it better." Hiei said as he watched Hiyama.
"We were doing good without you here. I am the only one that truly cares for mum. I never left, nor would I ever. You left both of us. My heart hurt when you didn't come back, and mum was crying. I know mum felt it more that I did and I didn't want to know how bad it was because I was hurting bad, my chest hurt, even in school. The nurse could not help me. Daddy you hurt both of us. You missed my birthday, daddy. You missed my kendo match, you missed my play, and you missed my spelling bee. I won daddy I won and mum was so proud." He paused as he took a deep to contain his emotions but the tears overflowed.
"I wanted to be like you daddy, you were so cool and awesome. I even tried to copy what you do to mum when grand mum died. I did the hug right, daddy, you would have been proud of me. I even stayed until we both fell asleep. Daddy ..." He was cut off by his own sob.
Hiei took up his son and held him as he cried. 'I am really a cold hearted bastard. I missed so much. Was it worth it? Yukina would always be there, but my son's first moments. I missed it.' He hugged Hiyama tighter.
He finally pulled apart. "I am sorry, I really am. Can you forgive me? I took two weeks off to be with you." Hiei tried to reason. His heart ached as he heard his sons sobbed in his chest.
"Daddy, I missed you. I hated you and I hated myself because I remembered mum said I looked like you." He said between sob.
That pulled on Hiei's heartstring and his breath caught his throat as he held back his emotions. His son didn't need him to be crying too because he hated himself because of him. "I am sorry." Hiei said as he held him tighter. He didn't know what else to do but to just hold him.
Eventually the sobbing stopped and Hiyama looked up at his father. "Are you really staying? To be with us? I want you to stay forever. Aunty Mukuro is not important than mum and I and neither is aunty Yukina."
"I agree. Do you forgive me?" He asked.
Hiyama just held his gaze, and then Hiei took out his communicator. "See this?" He asked and Hiyama nodded. "This is what they use to contact me." He said as he rested it on the coffee table and smashed it with his hands.
"it's gone." He said as he watched it shatter to pieces.
"Daddy." Hiyama grabbed him again. "I forgive you."
"Thank you." Hiei said gratefully as he held his son closer.
"Hey, dinner is ready." Kurama said from the entrance of the kitchen. Hearing that, Hiyama untangled form his father and ran to Kurama.
"Mummy, itadakimasu." He said as he raced to the table and began eating before anyone else.
Later that night, Hiei did more bonding with Hiyama. He helped him practise with his sword, and then he tucked him in bed.
Finally he walked into the room he shared with Kurama.
"Are you still awake?" He asked.
"Yes, just waiting for you." Kurama said as he turned towards Hiei and tapped the empty spot next to him. "I need you to keep my flame burning." He said seductively.
"Hn." He smiled as he slipped under the covers as he attacked Kurama with a kiss. Kurama moaned as Hiei rolled on top of him.
"Oh how I missed you Hiei." Kurama breathe out between kisses.
"It was hell for me too." He confessed as he pulled away and looked at Hiei with all his feelings. Kurama saw the truth in his words. Hiei was torn as he was when his mother was alive, the battle between blood and love.
"My poor baby." He said as he pulled Hiei down into anther kiss.
Hiei grinded himself against Kurama and smirked when he heard Kurama moan. He moved to his neck as he gently kissed his neck.
"Hiei" Kurama moaned as he held Hiei tighter. "Help."
Hiei looked up. "There is no one here to help you, fox." He said playfully as he pulled the cover over them completely. "You're at my mercy." His smooth deep voice sent a delightful chill down Kurama's spine.
"No, oh what would I do. I am helpless." Kurama role played.
"Good, so I can have my way with you." Hiei said as he began to pull at the clothes Kurama wore as he continued to kiss him. First went the slacks, then the t-shirt and lastly his underwear. Kurama made space by bending his knees as Hiei settled between them better.
Breaking away from the long passionate kiss, Kurama watched him. "I don't think this will work with you fully clothed. " He grinned.
"What can you do about it?" Hiei challenged.
"I can go take a cold shower, and..." He was cut off.
"Fine, here." In a blur, Hiei's clothing disappeared as Hiei appeared under the covers again. "Happy?" he asked as he watched Kurama's slightly flushed face beneath him.
"Very." He said as he pulled Hiei down for another kiss as he reached into the nightstand for a tube and gave it to Hiei.
After much foreplay and preparations, they were back in their missionary positions. Hiei kissed Kurama deeply as he caressed him from his hip to the back of his knee as Kurama encircled both legs around Hiei's waist. He moaned happily in the kiss as he felt Hiei enter him slowly and gently.
"Ah, Hiei." He sighed as he broke the kiss with a redden face with his eyes closed and head thrown back in ecstasy. He tightened his hold on Hiei's waist. As Hiei began to move, Kurama began to get louder, but he remembered Hiyama was in the other room, so he tried to control himself. It was hard, because Hiei hasn't been home that much.
"Gosh, Hiei, yes." He screamed as Hiei went faster, as he held on to Kurama's thighs, anchoring himself as he continued to delve deeper into his mate.
Kurama breath caught his throat as he could not vocalise anything but just breath hard with his mouth open as he gripped on Hiei's shoulder as he rode the waves of pleasure.
He hoarsely screamed as he released himself and pulled Hiei closer to him as he felt him came as well. Hiei sighed as he rested a while and then he rolled to the side and pulled Kurama to lie on his chest.
"I love you Kurama. Don't forget it." he said tenderly as he caressed the soft silky red tresses.
"I love you too and I will never forget." He sighed as he snuggled deeper into the embrace. Before the accepted sleep he had one thought. 'I'm glad you're not slipping away.'
The end. I really hope you all like this. It was a spur of the moment story and don't be too harsh with the review, but I do want reviews. Thank you very much for reading.