Demons for Angels
Disclaimer: I own none of the Kingdom Hearts Saga
Darkness closes so fast and so deep… that it could almost drown a person… as if it were time and space, yet an ocean of fear… Does anything make sense…? Or does it all have no meaning? Can anything really be right within the worlds… after everything I've done to help destroy them?
The thing that holds me so tight… clutching me within its smothering grasp. Is this what I'm reduced to? Gasping for air—for life—while the demon inside me sucks away my very being until I'm no longer myself? Or is this what I truly am? A being that is afraid of both the Light and the Dark, afraid of being with anyone else or of taking sides? Is that what I really, truly am?
How scared I can be, yet I refuse to let anyone call me a coward. I'm such a hypocrite… blinded by my own anguish and guilt—even my own pride—that I can't see what's really important. Maybe that's why I choose to fear both entities. Am I afraid of what I will really see… when I truly open my eyes to the truth? Could the truth really hurt that much?
It chokes and corrodes; smothering you until you can no longer reach for the Light… this is Darkness. Yet how is it that people can stand the Light? When it is so blinding and weak? No… now I know… even in the darkest Darkness… there will always be Light.
My friends are in that Light. I can almost hear them… but I'm too far gone… will I ever return? This seemingly endless Darkness… this place of nightmares… this is where I am… and even maybe… this is where I must stay. I can atone for all my sins if I stay here… right?
Or, maybe I'm wrong. Do I really have anything to atone for? What a stupid question. Then again, I AM stupid… for choosing the Darkness over my friends… for giving in… thinking it would give me strength, that if I wielded it, I would be able to help them, gain extraordinary power.
All these questions… yet can I answer none of them? That's simple. I must first answer myself this: Do I have reason to fear the Light and the Dark?
Light. I can see it now, almost as if it's reaching toward me, trying to save me from this lonely place.
Are my friends there?
Is any of this real?
Why am I here?
Somebody… please help me!
I can't do this alone anymore. I need my friends, I need SOMEONE. This nightmare must end! These wings I thought I had gained are no longer an angel's… light and feathery, but rather a demon's… terrible and monstrous. How I want those angel's wings again! I no longer wish to be the demon everyone hates, but the angel everyone loves! No longer an outcast, that neither the Light nor the Dark wants! No longer a forgotten friend and a newfound enemy! No longer the reason that everyone's worlds were sent into chaos!
Riku…
That voice… was it just an illusion?
Riku!
Riku!
Riku come back to us!
I want my friend back!
Riku!
Riku!
My friends… they… they're calling for me, from inside the Light. I can see them… faintly. They really want me back.
Sora.
Kairi.
Their hands… they're reaching for me. How I want to join them… but can I? After all I've done… after what I've become… I… I still harbor the Darkness inside me. Can I face them? No, what am I thinking? Of course I can… and I will. I will be with them once more, together on our island… our home.
Back into the Light… where my Darkness will keep me safe.