Another story, yes… Again Raven/Robin. Again twisted. So here we go… Torniquet, this won't be a one-shot.
Torniquet summary: Raven has a demonic reflection looking to control her, or kill her. What does her reflection make her do? And what will the team do when they find out?
Category: Angst/Horror
Rating: PG-13, Self-mutlilation, attempted suicide, and wanted murder.
Pairings (If I use them, if so, minimal fluff, if any, I'm not focusing on love, just friendship): Rae/Rob, Star/BB.
Disclaimer: I don't own Teen Titans, or any of the Evanescence songs I use in this story, or Green Day.
P.S.: To the person who introduced me to this site, who will go unnamed but knows who they are: There will be no fluff, just for you. Just desire from not FOR, FROM a certain masked fool! AHAHAHAHA! This will be about Raven overcoming her emotions…
NO FLAMES! I know she is not a cutter and won't ever be! There are to many stories with that, sorry, it just starts out this way.
ON MY OWN, HERE WE GO
Raven looked at her reflection in the mirror.
Worthless! You only bring everyone you look to pain and misery. End it for them! Her reflection hissed at her.
"No!"
Yes!
"I… I… do." Raven looked at the jagged dagger lying on her dresser. She picked it up and dug into her wrist, watching the blood pour out with a morbid facination.
I tried to kill the pain
But only brought
more
I lay dying
And I'm pouring crimson regret and
betrayal
I'm dying, praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too
lost to be saved
Am I too lost?
Good… you deserve every drop of blood pouring out of you!
"I don't… deserve… them…" Raven could feel herself weakening. She wanted to fall right then, but instead she thought about the note she had left them.
Titans: I'm sorry for all the pain and misery I've caused you. I know you won't miss me once I've gone.
Cyborg: Thanks for some good times, dealing with me. I'm sorry for making you listen to my pointless drawl.
Beast Boy: I didn't hate your jokes… some of them. You could find a way to cheer me up. I know you didn't like me… I'm just 'creepy', if you recall. Now you won't have to face anything creepy.
Starfire: You tried to bond with me, tried to ignore my darkness. I'm sorry for wasting your time. Thanks for some memories to hold.
Robin: I hate you… for everything you make me want. You won't miss me, you won't notice I'm gone. I may sound cruel: But you have Starfire to turn to, not me. I've gone on ignored and I won't take it any longer.
A raven fallen
Broken my wings,
It's useless to try to fly
You won't miss me
You won't notice my abescence,
I'm leaving for you
It's for the better
A raven fallen
I broke my wings
A dagger will show you this
You won't miss me
I can promise you
You'll forget your painful memories
I've brought to you
A raven fallen
I've broken my wings.
Raven Roth
Raven looked at her reflection.
One slash isn't enough!
"No… You're right." She grabbed the dagger, and again dug into her arm. Ignoring the shouts of pain she cut up and down her arms. She was bleeding more now, black was closing in around her eyes. Soon she wouldn't feel anything.
"RAVEN!" Robin's cry broke her moment of peace.
What are you going to do, say sorry? You can't fix me Robin! You've broken me beyond repair. Raven thought to herself.
Suddenly a pair of strong arms wrapped around her. "Raven I'm so sorry!"
Sorry? Yeah right.
"What is wrong with Rae?" Beast Boy asked.
"MOVE!" Cyborg yelled. "Get her to the medical room now! Beast Boy go tell Starfire- no… keep Starfire away as long as possible."
My God my tourniquet
Return to me
salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
"Get her oxygen, stop the bleeding." Robin commanded. Cyborg obliged. Gently the two covered her arms in bandages.
Raven slipped into unconciousness. The last thing she heard was Robin's voice. "You're going to make it Raven, if I die trying, you won't die."
Did he care?
NO! You should be dead, they don't care!
XxXx
"Raven?"
Raven awoke to the beeping of all of the machines hooked up to her, pumping life into her veins. Robin's voice rang through her ears, she wanted to yell for him to stop, everything seemed so loud. She tried to remember everything that had happened, but so much seemed vague, as if walking in a nightmare.
Do you remember me
Lost for so long
Will
you be on the other side
Or will you forget me
I'm dying,
praying, bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I
too lost?
"Yes?"
"What happened?"
Of course, the first inquiry. What happened, not are you okay, but what happened. "Nothing."
"No, something happened."
"What's it matter to you?"
"You are my team mate, of course it matters to me!" Robin said. Although… I wouldn't mind something more… Whoa Robin, where did that come from? "And A friend!" He countinued, realizing team mate wasn't enough from the look at Raven's face, it wasn't even anything.
"I just slipped, I lost control."
"Then why were there cuts all over your arms, and a dagger dripping blood in your room?"
"I did it to myself! You don't care! I'm just a pain… all I do is bring you misery! I don't deserve to live! I'm damned, I'm useless!"
"You are not useless!"
"I'm not going to sit here and argue about it." Raven stood up and walked out of the room, as if nothing had ever happened. Robin glared after her.
"Where do you think you're going?" He said, running.
"TO MY ROOM!" A crack snaked up the wall, onto the ceiling.
"No, I don't think so." The Boy Wonder was being persistant.
"What makes you think you can stop me?" I snapped.
"I don't want you to hurt yourself again! You are wanted Raven! We are your friends, we care about you! Just open your eyes for once and you'll see it!"
Raven shot Robin a death glare and walked off to her room.
My God my tourniquet
Return to me
salvation
My God my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
You came back! I thought you were going to die
"I thought no one cared! You lied!" Raven hissed at her reflection.
I do not lie! You lie to yourself!
"NO!" She hit the mirror. Shards of glass flung at her hand, cutting it. Raven howled in pain. "Only pain and misery are brought… by HER!" She clutched her hand and ran into her bathroom, rinising her many cuts and trying to bandage them with toilet paper. The paper just ripped, it was strong enough to contain all the blood she was shedding. Raven grabbed a towel, it was blood red, to concede with the black in the bathroom. At least there wouldn't be to much of a stain, she could lie and say it was toothpaste. Raven wrapped her hand with the towel, wincing. She glared at the mirror.
You cannot escape me! You are a fool Raven! Thinking you can destroy your reflection!
"I can ignore you!"
Thinking you have friends!
"The Titans are my friends!"
LIES! YOU BELIEVE HIS LIES? THEY ONLY WANT YOU FOR POWER, DON'T YOU SEE?
"YOU ARE THE LIAR!" Raven tried to ignore her demonic reflection. She concentraited on her favorite Evanescence song instead.
My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries
for deliverance
Will I be denied Christ
Tourniquet
My
suicide!
"It will be fine…" Raven clutched the cloth tigther to her hand. She used her powers to put Evanescene in the CD player and started to play Fallen, Whisper.
"I can stop the pain if I will it all away, if I will it all away." Raven sang with Amy Lee, hitting all of her notes. She whispered this to herself as the song went on, just to reassure herself that everything would be okay…
"I KNOW I CAN STOP THE PAIN IF I WILL IT ALL AWAY!" Raven concentraited, letting the cloth she had around her hand fall to the ground. "Azarath, Metrion, Zinthos…" She chanted, trying to calm her raging emotions, and ignore her cruel reflection.
YOU WILL DIE OR START THE PROPHECY DEMON CHILD!
chapter one end, stop.
Well, what did you think? Creepy? Annoying? Stupid? Way to comon? Different? Horrible? Good? Maybe you… loved it? Please review! Oh… and for those of you who don't know Evanescence, here ar the lyrics to Whisper, which I will probably use.
Catch
me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to
the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself
This
truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If
I will it all away
Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the
pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your
name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind
them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)
I'm
frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much
more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded
by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
Don't
turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though
they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows
what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep
never die)
Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my
ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons
me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all
I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end
Don't turn
away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though
they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows
what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep
never die)
Allright… so review, please!
Next Chapter: What the other Titans are thinking while Raven does all of her… actions.