Gorram Mal and gorram ways. Once again I wake up alone. I know where he's gone, where he always goes. To sit and watch Inara sleep. It pisses me off. It's not as if they just had sex. Him crying out my name doesn't change a damn thing. He thinks of her. I don't know how he can, with me inside of him. I don't know how my hard body can change in to her soft curves. I don't know why I continue to hope he'll be here when I wake up. Just once I wish he would watch me sleep.
I know, I actually find it kinda creepy, someone watchin' you sleep. But it's his way of showin' he cares, him watchin' over you. Not that I'm in love with him or anything. I just sometimes wish that Zoë never would have pointed me out to the cap. Take him, she said to him. It hadn't been long, us all on the boat before me n' him got ta drinkin'. That's what whiskey does to you. Wakes you up with one shot, the next your gone. I try not to think about the first time. Cause that leads me to the only time that I wasn't alone walkin' up. He rolled over and looked at me. That big ass grin on his face. He moved over and kissed me, the first kiss we had shared. The only kiss, we ever shared. I'm tired of lay'n in my bed, wide-awake while he's watchin' her sleep. I get up, pull on some pants and make my way towards Inara's shuttle.
The door is open and I just walk in. He doesn't hear me; he's to in to his whole listening to Inara breathe. I put my hand over his mouth and pick him up by the back of his shirt. It's true that Mal is taller than me but he ain't got nothing to my strength. I take my hand off of his mouth but before he can utter one word I smash my lips to his. I can feel his breath being taken away. I can feel his shock his in his tightness. Once he starts to respond I set him down, not that he's still not taller than me. His hands come up to my face, I put everything I have into this kiss, I may not love him but I damn sure want him. I moan and he starts to push me back against a wall. Then I hear Inara gasp.
AN: I know an weird ending. And yes that is the ending it didn't get cut off or anything.I Like this, it's my first attemet at this pairing, only my second in this fandom. Is Jayne in character? Please review, please oh please oh please! Thank you for reading.