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August 30, 2009 11:37pm
Dear Diary,
My name is Bella Swan and I am 17 years old. I really don't know why I am writing in a diary my mom says it's good to write in it because it's like the only person who really listens or some crap like that. So here I am writing in you because you are the only person I can trust. I can't talk to Alice because Edward could read her mind and god knows what Edward is going to spill to his family. Oh and by the way Edward is my vampire boyfriend who could be very dangerous if he's not careful with me. I know what you're thinking like what the hell am I doin with a vampire boyfriend, I really don't know. I have a secret that I haven't told Edward yet. I'm only with him to make my Friend Jacob Black jealous. You see me and Jacob have gotten kinda close over the summer and I have to say I fell in love with Jacob Black. oh and if your wondering who Jacob Black is he's my best friend we have been friends ever since I was little. The only reason why I am trying to make him jealous is because he has a girlfriend and I don't like it one bit. Like that little slut needs to get off my man! Her name is Tracy Gephart, and she's a fucking blonde. I can't believe Jacob would fall for something like that. So ya I am trying to woo back his heart by making him jealous with Edward. We all go to the same school and I guess Tracy just moved here so she's like getting a lot of attention. But enough of him and his slut let's get back to talking about Edward's family. Edward and his vamp family have been very nice to me and they consider me as part of the family. I love Alice she is like my best friend. Alice is dating Jasper and then there's Rosalie. I swear I think that women hates me and she is dating Emmet. Emmet is like the funniest guy on the planet he cracks me up. He could be a little immature sometimes though. Then there is Carlisle and Esme and their his parents. But ya that's the vamp family let's start talking about my summer. Well this summer was goin great and all you know with Jacob and his friends until she showed up. It was like I was pushed out of the group or something. Jacob still pays attention to me but he pays attention to his girl toy more. Oh did I tell you that Jacob and his pack are werewolves. There's Embry, Quil, Jared, Sam, Seth, Leah and Paul. They are all really cool to hang out with. I have a lot of supernatural stuff happening around me. Like who knew vampires and werewolves exist. I sure damn didn't. But ya Embry used to have this little crush on me and all and then they all started liking me but I blew them all off. All I wanted was Jacob. He told me that he liked me and that he would never hurt me but that all changed when Tracy walked in. I had dinner with them the other night and I swear I was gonna barf by the way he was touchy feely with her at the dinner table. If he loses his virginity to that bitch I am goin to be very upset. When I found out that Tracy had become Jacob's new girlfriend and everybody started ignoring me I cried hard. I ran to the forest so I could clear my head and think straight and that's when Edward showed up. He asked me what was wrong and I told him ,and he was like oh you don't need him and then over the summer me and Edward became close and I learned his secret and now weir boyfriend and girlfriend wa la. I'm not really attracted to Edward too much I mean he is no Jacob. Jacob is all buff and warm and tan and Edward is just skinny cold and pale there's nothing great about him. And Edward doesn't even have a sex drive every single time I try to sleep with him he just pushes me away and says "I will only hurt you Bella" like a retard. I just wanna make Jacob jealous and make him mine and then I'll just dump Edward. I feel bad about saying that but it's the truth who wants to be with a person you're not attracted to. Ok well that's a brief summary of my life right now. I have school tomorrow and Charlie my dad is yelling on the other side of the door telling me I need to go to sleep. So I gotta go talk to you tomorrow. Hopefully everything goes alright.
Love,
*Bella*
P.S. - I think I should give you a nickname how's Sparky? I'm going to start calling you by Sparky now instead of Diary.
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August 31, 2009 4:15pm
Dear Sparky,
Ok so much has happened today. Ok so I got up this morning took a shower and picked out some cute clothes. Edward texted me and said that he was gonna pick me up from my house so we could ride together to school. So he picks me up and we ride to school. When we get there Edward see's a yellow Volkswagen convertible in his spot, and guess whose car it was? Tracy's yes hers and man I was pissed because I didn't want to see her. Edward asks her if she could move her car and she says no that she was there first. Then Jacob pops up and asks Tracy nicely if she could move her car and that she could park hers next to his and she goes "sure babe no problem" and I almost barfed when they kissed. He didn't notice I was standing there and got shocked when he saw me. Edward went to go park the car while I stood there and talked to Jake. He asked how I knew Cullen and I told him that he's my boyfriend and Jacob's smile fades. He goes "oh I didn't know you guys were dating um when that happen? You could do so much better than that Bells" and I go "Ya and you could do so much better than going out with that blonde bimbo" but then we got interrupted because his gf and my bf showed up and the orientation bell rung and he told me he would talk to me more at lunch. So then me and Edward parted ways because our last names start with different letters. I went there and got my class schedule and the first period bell rang. I had bio for first period and god did that suck. Second period I had calculus, third was my free period because I'm senior I get free periods, fourth I had computers, and fifth I had P.E ya I know we still have P.E. when weir a Senior and ya it sucks but I'll get over it, and then I go home for sixth period so I don't have a too bad schedule. As I was goin to class I ran into Alice and we both said a quick hi and went to our first period. When I got there I found that Edward was in my class and so was Jacob. I thought perfect chance for me to start making Jacob jealous, but then Tracy walked in and I said fuck out loud and Edward was staring at me. I told him it was nothing. As class started the teacher said that he was going to give us assigned seating like weir little kids. I thought that was really dumb and that blew my chance on trying to make Jacob jealous. So as your guessing yes I sat right next to Jacob and Tracy sat next to Edward. Now this was making me really nervous. Me and Jake started talking to each other about why I'm dating Edward and I told him because he's a great guy. The thing that really got me shocked was what Jake told me next. He told me that the only reason why he is dating Tracy was because it was a bet between him and his pack. He said that if he could get into Tracy's pants in one month he gets $200. I started panicking because I didn't want Jake losing his virginity to Tracy and I tried to tell him that he should back out of the bet and that it wasn't worth it but the teacher told me to stop talking and if I keep talking I will get a detention. I started to get really dizzy and I asked the teacher if I could go use the restroom and he said yes. I didn't go back to class because I didn't want Jacob seeing me like this. Edward found me and gave me my stuff and asked if I was ok and I said yes. I went to second period and thank god Alice was in my class. I needed to tell her what is going on with me and not liking Edward and the whole situation with Jacob and all. I asked her if we could talk on our free period and she said yes and that she wanted to go buy her off campus pass anyways which I also needed to do so we could go off campus during free period and during lunch. Second period went by swiftly and me and Alice started talking. I told her everything and thank god she's a good friend and she understood what I was going through. She just said that she doesn't think its right for me to be using Edward like that but she knows he will get over it. She told me to try to talk Jacob out of it and I said ok. We bought our passes and went to go sit down at the lunch tables. I saw Jacob and his pack sitting at a nearby table laughing manically and so Alice told me to go talk to Jacob. I was nervous about doing this I mean what girl tries to talk her crush out of fucking his girlfriend so what I'm about to do is crazy I just hope he listens. So I tell Jacob that I need to talk to him and his friends all start whistling for some odd reason and we go off and talk. I start to talk when he stops me. He tells me he knows what I am about to say and that sent major butterflies through my stomach. He goes "So you don't want me to fuck around with Tracy and lose my virginity right?" and I go "Well I don't think that's smart". I tell him that I will try everything in my path to make him not do this and he says "bells you can try all you want but that's not gonna stop me from having sex". And I say "well ill stop you". He says like how, me have sex with you? And me not thinking I say yes. So he agreed to have sex with me in order for him to not have sex with Tracy. We set a place and time and that was that. Now I'm set to have sex with Jacob Black at his house at 10:00pm. I don't know how this happened and what am I going to do with Edward. So I tell Alice and she tells me "do I always have to clean up your messes?" and I say I would really appreciate it but I asked her if I should go through and have sex with Jake. And she yells at me and tells me I better do it because if not she is going to slap me. Right now I have mixed feelings I can't believe this is happening I hope I go through with it. The rest of my day went by good Edward didn't suspect anything so I was good. And Alice said she will keep a clear mind and not try to picture me and Jake having sex with each other because that exactly what I'm about to do in 6hrs so I better be ready. I should be happy about this but for some reason I'm scared. I'm supposed to be doing my home work right now but instead I am writing in you Sparky. Well ttyl wish me luck. Because god knows I need it right now.
Love,
*Bella*
P.S- oh Sparky how the hell did I get myself into this situation.
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