You're My End and My Beginning Chapter 1: Cards on the Table Both Showing Hearts, a days of our lives fanfic

You're My End and My Beginning

A/N: Sometimes you hear a new song and you wonder "How did we, as a world, as humans with beating hearts, live without this?" Sometimes they're party songs that pick you up. Sometimes they're poignant, sometimes they're sad, and sometimes the words so perfectly narrate some part of your life that it's like the writer is inside your head.

This is just the first chapter exploring the soundtrack of Will and Sonny's love story.

Note: I am sort of combining my canon with other fic writers and the true canon. Go with it! Mine starts with Chapter 18 of the Valentine's Day story. If you write #WilSon, you might find some of your "memories" showing up along the way. That's be cause all of you, the other writers, inspire me. Thank you.

Thank you: to my #NinjaBeta and #LogisticsDirector, KB. None of this without your help and encouragement. Also, a shout to my twitter #MusicDirectors, Amy & Christine. xoxo

Want another chapter? Hit the review button and tell me what song you hear when you think about Will and Sonny.

Warnings: I dunno, you might need a tissue?

Cards on the Table, We're Both Showing Hearts

"We now welcome to the dance floor Mr. and Mr. Horton-Kiriakis for their first dance as husbands."

Sonny had been less than enthused about wedding planning. There was just no time. As long as he had the people there, he wanted he did not care about the food or the decorations or the schedule or the flowers. All Sonny wanted was to marry Will.

That's all Sonny had ever wanted since he laid eyes on the shy blond- haired, blue- eyed boy in the Square a few years ago. It was all Sonny wanted when Will put his arm around Sonny's shoulders in the coffee house and told Sami they were a couple even though they weren't. It was all he wanted when the elevator doors opened at the hospital on Valentine's Day, and Will's bloodshot and tear-filled eyes looked up and met his. It was all he wanted when he held Arianna Grace for the first time, and when he sat on the stand in the courtroom and told the judge "Will is my life partner."

Now Will was his husband.

The only thing Sonny insisted upon in the wedding planning was selecting the song to which he would dance with Will for the first time as husbands. The playlist that Sonny put together on Valentine's Day the previous year ended up being the catalyst to getting back together with Will. They shared their first kiss at a concert under the stars. When Ari couldn't sleep, he would sing soft lullabies and play the songs for her that had floated over his own baby bed.

When words failed Sonny, music stepped in to take their place. There was no possible way that he could say to Will Just. How. Much. this day meant to him. Not in his own words. So he got to pick out the song.

Weddings were almost more about circulating and shaking hands than starting a life. He'd seen Will for all of 20 minutes the whole day—during the ceremony. On the day they were officially joined together as one, Sonny was lucky to get a glimpse of Will across the crowded room.

He had looked forward to this moment, this dance, all day.

Many, many times Will had tried to guess what Sonny had planned. He had flashed his wide beseeching grin and asked in a breathy whisper when Sonny was barely awake. He tried to bribe the DJ, but Sonny had beaten him to it. Had it worked? Had Will guessed, or would Sonny's song for Will be a surprise?

Sonny stood in the middle of the dance floor, hands upturned, waving Will over to him. He smiled as he watched Will work his way through the crowd, grinning and slapping people's backs, shaking their hands, all the while his eyes of endless blue locked on Sonny's brown depths.

Sonny's breath still caught when he saw Will walk into a room, when Will slipped in at the club or arrived home after a long day of classes, shutting the door and leaning against it, eyes closed, sighing, grateful to be home. Then, when those baby blues opened up, and Will lifted his chin to meet Sonny's dark brown depths, for Sonny, the earth would actually stop spinning for a minute. Today was no different. Good God, did Will look handsome in his dark gray wedding suit, perfectly tailored to highlight his muscular shoulders and taper to his trim waist.

Will reached Sonny and threw his arms around Sonny's shoulders, shoving one hand in in the dark brown locks, wrapping the other around Sonny's broad back, closing the gap between them. Sonny circled his arms around Will's waist and pulled Will to him.

All of Salem circled around them, clinking their champagne glasses with their spoons. "Kiss, Kiss!" the crowd shouted.

Will and Sonny were happy to oblige.

Will fixed his eyes on Sonny's with a look so full of desire that Sonny actually shivered in the warm and crowded room. Will moved his hands to Sonny's face and traced Sonny's bottom lip with his thumb. Sonny's lips parted, and Will leaned in to take them with his own. Sonny sighed into the kiss ,and they breathed the same air. Will's lips, soft at first, became greedy and searching. Sonny felt Will's tongue slide in next to his own. He opened his mouth wider and clutched at Will's hair. He was dimly aware of some whistles from the crowd. He broke away and whispered in Will's ear. "Baby, later."

Will put his arms around Sonny's neck and rested his head on Sonny's shoulder, eyes closed, relaxed. Sonny wrapped his arms around Will's waist and pressed his cheek to Will's.

Piano notes. Then the first verse.

What would I do without your smart mouth

Drawing me in, and you kicking me out

You've got my head spinning,

no kidding,

I can't pin you down

Will's eyes flew open and he drew back, looking at Sonny, who smiled and continued to hold him.

Sonny could tell that Will hadn't guessed.

"Oh, Sonny." Will's lower lip trembled. He leaned in pressed a soft kiss by Sonny's ear. "All of me loves all of you." Sonny felt Will's tears wet both of their cheeks. "How did you know I was going to include these words in my vows?" Will asked.

"I didn't."

Sonny had stood at the altar that afternoon holding Will's hands, looking into Will's eyes—eyes so full of hope and promise and trust and love—while Will spoke the vows he'd written for Sonny. And though Will was a wordsmith in his own right, he had included a few words from the very song they were dancing to now.

You're my downfall, you're my muse

My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues

I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

You're my end and my beginning

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

And Sonny had had to free one of his hands to wipe the tears running down his cheeks.

The music played, and they continued to sway and spin slowly ,but they might as well have been in their living room with the lights turned low for all they noticed everyone around them.

His voice wavering, Will said "Baby. This is perfect."

Sonny's eyes filled.

While the strains of All of Me drifted through the reception hall Will and Sonny floated back through their own love story.

Will had always said he didn't want to pin Sonny down, but Will was the one who was harder to catch- a frightened bird, a skittish colt, a tender heart, so worried about Sonny's happiness that he could not see that he was Sonny's happiness.

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

The first days after they all came home from the hospital with Arianna were rough. Will had been taking enough painkillers to fell a horse, and Ari was restless. Sonny spent many a night pacing the floor, holding their daughter, rubbing her back, humming softly to her and lulling her back to sleep.

And then there was Will's mom who was, right now, watching them and wiping tears from her eyes, even though her initial reaction to their engagement had been one of skepticism and doubt. Will's mom, who had made Will the man he was because, mostly, he wanted to be what she was not—dependable where she was flighty, deliberate because she was impulsive, faithful while she was faithless.

Plenty of the crazy in their lives had been caused by their mothers—Will's because she was always getting into something and Sonny's because nobody could ever be good enough for her baby.

Sonny opened his eyes and saw his mother looking at him, smiling and crying. "I love you" he mouthed to her. She blew him a kiss and nodded. He knew that she had made her peace.

Will leaned his forehead against Sonny's, and, gazing deep into Sonny's eyes, softly sang the chorus to Sonny in his breathy tenor,

Cause all of me

Loves all of you

Sonny thought back to their first New Year's Eve, when he handed Will the tin with a small scrap of paper upon which was written the wish closest to Sonny's heart. He had held his breath, his heart bursting, while Will read the words that were Sonny's hope, not just for that year, but for all of the years to follow: "Get Will Horton to fall in love with me." He saw Will's face change as the words hit home, the change in Will's face when Will realized he felt the same way and reached for Sonny to tell him so, not with words, but with the most tender kiss Sonny had ever felt.

He sang to Will:

How many times do I have to tell you

Even when you're crying you're beautiful too

Will shook his head and nuzzled Sonny's nose with his own. Sonny had lost count of the times he'd had to reassure Will that he was right where he wanted to be. It had taken awhile to figure out that Will wasn't trying to push Sonny away because he didn't love Sonny, but because he did.

Looking into the oceanic depth of Will's eyes while they danced together in the first of many more to come in their married lives, Sonny could see his future stretching out—days and weeks and months and years of this—the first thing he'd see when he woke up and the last sight before shutting his eyes for bed at night.

Sonny was sure he would never tire of reminding his beautiful husband that his home was wherever Will was.

Love your curves and all your edges

All your perfect imperfections

He kissed his way down Will's defined jaw. Will gripped Sonny's round bottom.

"Will!" Sonny gasped and paused in his ministrations of Will's chin. Will smirked, eyes boring into Sonny's.

"It's our wedding, baby. We can do whatever we want."

Will smiled, the corners of his eyes wrinkling, his wide mouth grinning with glee. He brought his hands back to Sonny's hair, twisting the thick brown locks and bringing Sonny in for a kiss.

"I love you, Sonny. More than you can ever know."

Give your all to me

I'll give my all to you

Sonny put his mouth to Will's ear. "Oh, I am gonna give my all to you later." His tongue flicked Will's earlobe.

Will shivered. "The old married man's still got it," he laughed into Sonny's ear.

Sonny had a business. Will had a baby. They had dealt with so many things that nobody their ages should have to even think about, much less survive. Will had said to Sami, when she questioned the wisdom of their union, "The only thing worse then dealing with the challenges life hands you is dealing with them alone."

Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts

Risking it all, though it's hard

They had thought, last year, that they could shoulder their burdens alone, but what they hadn't yet realized, standing there in the same church where they were married today, when their world shattered and their hearts broke into millions of pieces, was that they were both already all in.

"Will?"

"Mmmmhhhhhmmmm?" Will had his head on Sonny's shoulder.

Sonny reached up and took Will's chin in his hand, gently rubbing it with his thumb.

"Honey, today is the best day of my life." A tear rolled down Sonny's cheek, and he kissed Will gently and then greedily. Will was his life, his air. Sonny's heart beat for no one else.

You're my end and my beginning

Even when I lose I'm winning

Will had said, a few months ago, "What we have comes along once in a lifetime if you're lucky."

"We're so lucky," Sonny murmured.

"What's that, baby?"

"I'm so lucky, Will."

"Sonny, I'm the lucky one."

All of me

Loves all of you

I give you all of me

And you give me all of you

All Of Me

John Legend

What would I do without your smart mouth
Drawing me in, and you kicking me out
You've got my head spinning, no kidding, I can't pin you down
What's going on in that beautiful mind
I'm on your magical mystery ride
And I'm so dizzy, don't know what hit me, but I'll be alright

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

'Cause all of me
Loves all of you
Love your curves and all your edges
All your perfect imperfections
Give your all to me
I'll give my all to you
You're my end and my beginning
Even when I lose I'm winning
'Cause I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh

How many times do I have to tell you
Even when you're crying you're beautiful too
The world is beating you down, I'm around through every mood
You're my downfall, you're my muse
My worst distraction, my rhythm and blues
I can't stop singing, it's ringing, in my head for you

My head's under water
But I'm breathing fine
You're crazy and I'm out of my mind

Give me all of you
Cards on the table, we're both showing hearts
Risking it all, though it's hard

I give you all of me
And you give me all of you, oh