"Colleen it's not your fault. He's a Jackass, okay. I will always be here for you and the baby." Jessica said sitting next to me trying to comfort me as I cried my eyes out.

"I can't believe he did this to me...to us!" I said putting my face in my hands. She rubbed my back as I fought back the urge to scream. My 5 day old baby started crying from upstairs. I stopped crying, wiped my tears and walked up the stairs I walked in and picked him up from the crib. I laid him in my arms and rocked him slowly. I watched him fall back to sleep peacefully. I kissed his cheek lightly and placed him back in the crib gently. I walked out of the room and down the stairs.

Jessica came over to me and said "I gotta go, but I will stay if you don't..."

"Go have fun! We will be fine!" I interrupted her. I gave her a reassuring smile.

"Ok. Fine." She said as she got her keys off the coffee table. The phone rang.

"I'll see you later." I said as I got to the phone. "Call me if you need me." Jessica said closing the door.

"Hello?" I said picking up the phone.

"Yes hi, can I please speak with Mr. McCartney?" A guy said.

"I'm sorry but Jesse no longer lives here, do you want his cell number?"

"Oh, ok, uh no thanks I got it."

"O.k" We hung up. I went into the kitchen and got a gallon of Cookie Dough Ice Cream. I sat down and started to watch a really old chick flick. I started to doze off a little while later and someone knocked on the door.

I went to the door and opened it. "Hey." Jesse said walking past me.

"What are you doing here?" I asked.

"Getting my stuff, and seeing Dylan."

"Um you can get your stuff, but your not seeing my son." I said.

"Excuse me?"

"I don't want you to see him Jesse. It's all or nothing. You know that."

"I want to see my baby Colleen."

"Your baby? Are you talking about the baby you're walking out on? I don't think so Jesse. It's not going to happen. Just get your stuff and get out."

"You told me to leave Colleen. Thats the only reason why I'm leaving, is cause you asked me to. So don't go saying I left you, with a baby, on your own don't you dare blame me..."

"You chose your career over us. I get your career and that this is something you want to do, thats amazing you have something like that in your life. But Jesse the one time I really needed you, which happened to be when I was in labor, you weren't there. I never asked you to give up your career or even life for me and this baby but I really needed you and you could have stopped for an hour just to help and comfort me."

"I'm sorry. But I don't want him growing up hating me." He said.

"He won't, I have time to fill your place, He won't even know your the father." I saw him get uncomfortable when I said that.

"So we're really over?" He asked.

"Yeah, but you ended it, not me."

"I don't want us to be completely over. I want to see you and him. I want to be a family, but I don't want to stop my career."

"Then don't. I never told you to."

"I know, but your making me sound like a dirt bag. I love you. Not seeing myself here in 20, 30 years, with you as a family hurts. Why won't you just give me this?"

"Because Jesse. If you can't be here, when I'm in labor, you won't be here weather you want to or not. Something will always be holding you back." He looked at me a little longer.

"Still upstairs?" He said talking about his stuff, tears filling his eyes which made mine fill too. I nodded.

"Guest room." He walked upstairs as Dylan started crying.

I walked upstairs to the nursery. Tired. I picked him up and rocked him again. "Shh..." I said quietly. A tear slid from my eye. I wiped it. I walked out with Dylan in my arms and I walked to the guest room. "You wanna say bye to him?" I asked Jesse.

"No. But I wanna hold him." He said coming over. I handed him over gently. Jesse went over and sat on the bed. Watching Dylan closely. He looked up 5 minutes later. "Please, don't do this Colleen. Please?!" I let a couple tears fall and shook my head.

"I have to."

"No you don't. I'll be here. I promise." He said.

"No." He looked down at Dylan who was sleeping soundly. He stood up and walked to me. He handed me Dylan and embraced me in a hug and kissed my forehead.

"Take care of yourself and Dylan, Please?" I nodded. Tears falling down my face. "I love you,very very much..." He said which made me cry even more. "If you ever need me you know you can call." He kissed me and licked my bottom lip for entrance, I let him in. He pulled away and grabbed his stuff and walked past me. I heard the front door shut and broke down crying.