Hello, so I'm italian and my english is a really mess, so please be good with me, I really hope this story is good for you, please...ok??
Is a wee¡¡chester story I'm obssesed with little Dean and little Sammy. This story is close to my experience and feelings towards this sicknes and all the treatment.
Disclamer: I'm nor owner of Supernatural or Dean or Sammy or their dad, I'm just playing and trying to write a story.
Chapter 1. Balls, test and true.
Without too much noise and slowly he lifts his pajama evading the pain that in the last days have appeared in his chest and back.
Sammy is in his bathroom and looking in the mirror, lately he has been feeling some weird balls in his chest and stomach, in the beginning he asked to one of his classmates if was possible have balls in the body and the answer was no, how can you even ask that?, so for that Sam knows that little balls in his body are not normal and less normal is the pain his body is right now. He is ten years old, he is a big boy, he is not a baby anymore and he can take care of himself, which can no be so hard if Dean takes care of both of them.
Looking closely his reflection in the mirror, he can see a big and horrible bruise in all the skin on his spine.
He feels a suddenly a wave of dizziness and everything is blurry, and now he is not so sure that he can be a big boy, he just wants his daddy and his brother. So he tries to walk towards the door which is moving too much for his liking, he stop and shuffled over unsteadily his head pounding again and calls his dad.
"Dad…¡¡DAD¡¡" He ignored the overwhelming dizziness that was washing over him.
He can hear his dad's voice but can't make the words, he falls to the floor, all is so hot and in the same time so cold, and he wants sleep, so he just close his eyes and…
"Sam? Sam?" Dad? "Son Open you eyes, Sam¡¡" NO I wanna sleep¡¡ "SAM¡¡¡¡" God...O K...he has bad mood today.
Sam opens his eyes and is surprised in see his dad's worried face and he is calling for someone. His mind is all foggy he can't see right and his chest is killing him, he can't breath and his arms are heavy.
"Dad" Sam said, wow my voice is all weird. "D-ad" God that pain in his chest again.
"Is going to be ok Sammy, just breath with me OK? Just breathe Sammy and don't close your eyes. OK?" His dad is worried he knows that, but why? What is happening, he can't breathe or see fine and the pain in his chest and his back. He is so cold.
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Sam is so pale, his breathing and pulse steady but so pale and still, he has been unconscious since they took him to the hospital three days ago. The doctors are making test for verify their suspicions about what is wrong with his son. The simply idea about his son so ill makes him terrified. Sammy is just ten years old, he is a good boy, always full of energy and never being quiet, so now is so hard see him like this completely out and hot for the high fever that now is going down.
He found Sammy is the floor almost passed out; he was crying in pain and wasn't breathing right. He tried to talk to him but his son losing conscience very fast and his breathing was becoming more irregular , while he tried to calm Sam Dean called an ambulance, his older was terrified and almost crying, but when the ambulance arrived Sam wasn't awake anymore, the paramedics took him and said that something wasn't right with his heart.
After some test and X-rays they found a large mass that is making pressure in the chest and back, is on the heart and touching the lungs. When John heard that he knew what that was, but he just didn't want believe it yet. He is waiting for the biopsy.
He is here with Dean who is almost so pale like his younger, Dean hasn't sleep in the last few days and hasn't get out of the hospital since his brother is here. John told him about Sam's test, Dean didn't said anything at first, but when the entered Sam's bedroom his tears felled out, he is so scares for his brother, because to him he always is going to be a baby.
"Mr. Winchester?" The doctor's voice gets John to reality. "I need talk to you, please."
John knows are bad news. "Ok. Dean, wait here". And Dean just nods.
Out of the room, John's mind is flying now, so many thoughts, and any pleasant.
"Mr. Winchester, we had the result of the biopsy". John's heart is beating faster and faster that he can hear it. "I'm sorry, the mass and his size indicate a lymphoma disease"
"What...What that means?" John don't want to hear the answer, he just want all this to disappear.
"Your son has cancer Mr. Winchester. It could be curable if the treatment start now. It already has spread to your son's right lung and stomach, and the tumor is making a big pressure in his heart and that can cause a heart attack or a collapse to one of his lungs"
John stopped reasoning the minute the word cancer left the doctor's mouth, his baby has cancer, and his baby can die. A mass, heart attack, collapse…God his baby boy.
"What…How bad it is? ...you said heart attack?" John can't even talk.
"The true is that like a said the cancer has spread to other parts of Sam's body. If the treatment starts now the cancer cell can be attacked and the possibilities of recover are higher."
"What kind of treatment" john wants to know, because he thinks is only one thing that will put his baby in more pain and is….
"Chemotherapy" Yes that will be more pain and tears for Sam and nothing pleasant for him and Dean. "Is the only way apart of radiation?" The doctor can see the agony in John's eyes, is never easy say when a patient has cancer, but is more difficult when the patient is a child because they can't really understands what is happening in their bodies and all the changes and pain. "Look, now Sam has a fever and is very weak, so the best for now is waiting until the fever is gone and your son takes new energy and can take the treatment. So go with your son Mr. Winchester. If you have more questions just call me ok?" The doctor left.
OK??? No is not ok, his son has cancer how can something be ok? Sammy, his bright light is so sick. How can that be possible, cancer and is spreading, the danger and complications that can be with the chemo, his heart and lungs are weak. How can he explain to his son hat is wrong with him? How can he tells him that he has cancer, a deadly disease which can kill him, well he won't tell the part of kill and die and Dean is going to know, Dean always know everything when is about his brother, and for that he knows that Sammy will be living in total pain for the next few months about the treatment and the sickness but Dean will be in pain too just for love to his brother. His older son can be almost fifteenth years old, but when is about his little brother, he can have like forty. And because of that he just doesn't know how tell Dean this.