The feelings I have hidden in the box of my heart…Are overflowing…
Like that ideal 'box garden' I have created… To carefully protect it…To keep it from breaking… to go on ignoring my unnecessary feelings…
"All I want is for us to be a family…forever." Tamaki said quietly as he closed his eyes under the snow.
Behind him Kyoya watches his friend behind his gleaming glasses.
"You know the bonds of our friendship won't be broken that easily right?" he said looking at his friend.
I am… so confused…
"I don't understand what you mean Kyoya." Tamaki said sighing. "I'll be going then, sorry for troubling you in your own house."
"Actually… We're at you're house right now." Kyoya said clearing his throat.
"Oh…." Tamaki said with a sweat drop.
The next day, Tamaki was seated by the window lost in thought while all of his friends watched him, worry etched on their faces.
Why is it…when people fall in love it makes everyone unhappy?
I didn't think I was a weak person…to be plagued by my own emotions…
Tamaki clutched his chest while biting his lip.
Why does my chest hurt?
"Tama-chan…" Honey said sadly looking at Tamaki.
"I…" everyone looked at Tamaki, shocked that he finally said something. He gave them all a painful smile.
"I didn't think I was unhappy…I didn't grudge my own circumstances. Even though my Japanese grandmother shunned me and I had to be separated from my father, I was always allowed with my mother, my grandparents, and my tutor… So I…" Tamaki said suddenly spurting things that didn't make any sense.
Everyone became even more worried. Tamaki had never once spoken of his situation with his family.
"Never mind…" Tamaki said smiling." Sorry for saying that out of the blue."
Everyone nodded and watched as Tamaki stood up and went outside.
Images of Haruhi's smiling face flashed through Tamaki's mind.
I see… I'm… in love with Haruhi.
So the meaning of Hikaru's words…
Flashback…
"Tono, I told Haruhi how I feel. So you shouldn't give up to your trauma either!" Hikaru said frowning at him with uncertainty.
End of flashback
I was depending on something…and there were things I was afraid of… but the thing Hikaru said to me… I have thought about them a lot but surely the way I'm living is better for me. I just… I've been able to make good friends… so I'm happy. I don't want to break that even temporarily. I've forced all of them into this ideal world of mine and now I'm clinging to it. So I decided…
To carefully protect this ideal box garden, to carefully protect this bond of friendship… I must go on ignoring my unnecessary feelings…
But right at this moment my heart whispers:
Donna ni donna ni tsuyoku omotte itemo
Tsutaerarenai you don't understand
I'm so in love with you
Mune ni daite
No matter how, no matter how strong my feelings are
They don't reach you. You don't understand
I'm so in love with you
Deep within my Heart
I'm sorry Haruhi…
I know it's kinda lame and confusing but please review!