A/N: This was written for the 2009 Drabble Exchange, first line by the wonderful splv, but I forgot to post it. However, due to a bit of prompting and some clean-up due to my fanfic anniversary, it resurfaced. Hope you all like it.
Disclaimer: None of this is mine, but, as you're not doing anything with them, I'm sure you don't mind that I borrowed them for a bit, right? Please don't sue!
Captain and Commander
I thought she looked at me with love in her eyes. But I was wrong, so very wrong. For here I am, fighting a war not my own, with no end in sight, all to return to a place that isn't my home anymore. Hasn't been for a long time now. No family, aside from the comrades who fight and die beside me. And now, so desperate for any measure of human comfort as to imagine that small, gung-ho Française to have love in her eyes. Love for me. The delusions of a desperate man. But still, for a moment, I thought it was there. That perhaps, my life wasn't all emptiness. Then, with my next breath, it was gone. Like it was never there.
The moment I come to my senses in the holodeck I know we need to fight. I need to fight the Hirogens, for the crew, my friends, my family; for the ship, the home we have build together. For all of it. And we do fight, we all do. And we win.
Afterwards, when we find each other in one of the corridors, I walk towards her and I see that besides the relief that is obvious on her face, she also looks at me with love in her eyes. Then, with my next breath, it is gone, like it was never there. But I know.
Fine