A World of Difference
"I can't believe your actually being like this Ash." I have been fighting with her for the past 15 minutes to try and get her to join the squad. She is my best friend and I don't want to do this alone, well not without her at least.
"Why? Why do you want to even join those prissy wanna bees? All they do is look at themselves in the mirror on their free time." She stated looking at me as if she did not know me.
"Whatever ok? Don't be so quick to judge." I told her.
"Yeah, whatever." She scuffs.
"Listen Ashley, I don't want to be who I was back in middle school. I don't want to be the rich weird girl who hangs out with Lesbos." I told her making my face look mean and sarcastic.
"What?" she said in a small voice.
"Look Ashley, you think I haven't notice. The way you look at me, the way you look at any girl that approaches you. Oh come on, ever since the baby and Aiden you have been a total dyke." My heart is beating so fast, I am scared and feel even more alone than ever as the words slip out of my mouth. This is my best friend but this is my social life.
"That was low blow, even for you Madison. And FYI I don't look at you or any other girl in that way. Maybe it is you. Maybe you want me to look at you in that way." She looks at me and steps closer. My head screamed to leave the scene to stop the fight to not keep going. But the other side of me was saying to tear her down. For all the years she made you a social outcast, a total loser. I have a chance to redeem myself back to who I want to be. Not to something she wants me to be. My heart grows dark every second. No I won't let her get to me again.
"Madison, are you in here? What is taking so long?" shit it is my cousin.
"Ewwww. Get away from me. You Lesbo. I don't think so I only go for guys not for girls. So get lost." I screamed making sure my cousin heard it. Ashley face drops in disbelief.
"This is so over between you and me Madison." She says with tears in her eyes. I grit my teeth and say "Don't worry. It was never meant to be in the first place." My heart breaks a little but I a m building a new me today. And she and anyone else from my past won't stop me.