Imagine that Lynryd Skynyrd's I need you is playing trust me if you know this song it works with this chapter. because deep down that all their trying to say but it just keeps coming out twisted.

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Ryce

She had to leave and he was not making this easy for her. On the flip side who could blame him, Sam had just left.

But dad was coming home and things were still new and J.B. needed to be picked up. Then there were the other billion things that were making her crazy.

She love's Dean and she did not want to leave. She just had to. That's why she's standing by the picnic tables and he's sitting.

There eyes are locked on each other and she pleading for him to understand. "Please Dean I need you to understand," She says to him.

His eyes are hard and he has pushed himself back to that place where it is so hard to reach. Come back to me. Don't leave me. The thoughts run desperately through her head.

She can see that he has locked himself away. "You know what if you want to leave too that's fine." His voice sounds far away and she can feel the tears prick at her eyelids.

In the end, he is the one that leaves her standing there looking at the black car as it roars to life and leaves her standing in the dust.

It's in Ellen's arms that she lets loose the tears she has been holding on to. Ellen soothes away the pain. "It's okay baby he'll come back." She whispers. Ryce wants to believe her.

Dean

He is looking into the review mirror and see's her standing there. She is watching him drive away.

He told her that she could leave and walk away. But he's the one that leaves her. Her eyes bright with tears she will not let fall.

He misses her and his eyes stray to the dashboard. There is a picture there of her, Sam and J.B. it was meant as a gag.

They were standing there poising as if they were Charlie's angels. Their hands making pretend guns and face's smiling.

I miss her I miss them. He thinks to himself. From Colorado to Pennsylvania, it's all slash and burn even managed to kill a vamp.

While there he runs into someone, he never expected. "Cas, what are you doing here?" He asks.

"Where are your brother and Ryce?" The angel asks him head cocked to one side. He mentally sighs he didn't want to talk about this.

"Were taking separate vacations." Was his mumbled reply. He didn't want to think about any of this.

Didn't want to remember the way her lilac eyes turned dark with pain. The way she tensed like he had slapped her.

Didn't want to think of his brother. Yeah he didn't trust him and it was hard to watch out for himself when he was looking after Sam. That is just how it has always been.

Ryce

She here at the house now. Ellen and Jo are staying for a bit to help. She could not be more grateful.

Being here with dad was kinda hard. He wasn't what he once was. Well how could he when he doesn't even know if he will walk again.

This was just so hard. Looking at him in that wheelchair. What she really thinks hurts him is those brothers Winchesters.

After everything, they did what no one thought they would do. They split up. Yeah sure Sam had left to become Joe collage but that was years ago.

They had been a team every since that yellow eyed bastard had killed that lovely girl of Sam's.

"What ya lookin at darlin?" She smiled at the man who had always been like a father and who was now the man she called dad.

"Just an old photo album." She says. They had made the album that summer Sam, Dean and John had stayed here. She finds the picture she was looking for.

"You remember when this was taken?" She hears him snort, "Yeah, also remember yelling at you to put more clothes on." He grumbles at her.

She laughs for the first time since Dean left. "Yeah uh dad it's called a bathing suit I'm not supposed to be covered up like a nun."

Dean

He decided that taking Cas out and getting him drunk and laid was a very good idea. Well it was until Ryce called. "Dean where are you?" She asked softly.

"I took Cas out to," He was cut of by loud feminine laughter. "Dean please tell me you are not where I think you are!" She yells at him.

"Ryce look you left and I wanted Cas to have fun so I took him to get laid." Shit that sounded so much better in his head. He hears her let out a soft sob.

"You stupid son of a bitch! If you wanted to go and fuck some one else then just do it don't blame it on Castiel!" She snaps before hanging up on him. What did I do? He thinks angrily to himself only to be pulled out of his thoughts by a loud screeching. "Ah shit!" He grumbles

Ryce

A fucking whorehouse he was at a fucking whorehouse! She had called him to tell she would join up with again that she would meet him in the next town he would be at.

Well she's was not bloody fucking likely to do that now was she. She hated this push away run away thing they had going on. She thought things were good again.

Ever since their talk. They had had it right here in this living room. For once, they had talked about love. About how she told him that she loved him. She never pushed him to say it back.

It was a time thing for him and she got that.

Dean

He had told Cas that he liked being alone and that it was great fun. When he looked over at the empty seat next to him. He felt it.

The big black hole that threatened to swallow him whole. There was no little brother smiling from the seat next to him. No Ryce laughing from the back seat.

No J.B. to give commentary on the fighting going on in the car. His thoughts strayed to Ryce she was the mother of his child.

Had known him since he was a pissed off eight year old and a goofy teen. She made him laugh with her morbid jokes.

Made him cringe when she would throw a book at him. That made him remember the food fight.

This made him remember countless other times they had fought and made up. Once his mind got started, it was hard to get it to stop.

Memories of the last time they had really talked kept flying at him. "No more running dean," She had whispered to him. He had said the same thing back to her. So why was he running now. Why was he running from someone that had helped him in the night when the nightmares came?

"Did you mean it," He asked her. She looked at him in a very serious way. "Dean I love you, I have for a long time." She whispered the last part.

"One day Rycelynn, one day." He said looking at her. What if it was to late. What if she did not want him any more?