Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight that privilege belongs to Stephanie Meyer I'm just having fun messing with her characters.

This is my first attempt at a chaptered fic and it is very much a work in progress so all comments are welcome.

We Are Broken

Chapter 1: Facing reality

Alice's pov

The ringing of my alarm combined with the message tone of my phone creating the usual Monday morning fanfare that rudely ripped me from my peaceful dreams to the harsh reality that another week had begun.

I pushed one arm out of the comforting cocoon of my duvet to switch off my alarm without bothering to open my eyes.

Just before sleep returned to me my phone went off again.

Grumbling loudly I rolled over to grab it off my bedside table and stared blearily at the screen for a few seconds before it came into focus.

As expected both messages were from my older brother Emmett. Only he and his girlfriend Rosalie had my number.

The first read

Morning sunshine, time to get up and seize the day. X

I smiled, it was so typically Emmett.

The second was a little less jovial

Get your lazy ass up NOW Alice. I've already been awake for three hours!

Grumbling I quickly sent him one back telling him I was up and I hated him.

I didn't mean that of course I loved Emmett more than anything, he was the one person that kept me going when everything turned to shit.

The thought it would be five days until I saw him again caused my Monday blues to darken a little more.

I took a long hot shower helping wake me up and pull me from my maudlin thoughts.

Heading back into my room I pulled out my traditional jeans and plain green sweater, I'd learnt long ago not to wear anything that made me stand out at school.

Keep it plain and simple.

After dressing I blow dried my short hair and ran some products through it. I never bothered with make-up there was no point.

I skipped down the stairs and into the kitchen to make myself breakfast and switched on the radio to chase out the ominous silence that always seemed more prominent on a Monday with the absence of Emmett.

I grinned as I found his traditional note of farewell pinned to the fridge.

My dearest sister Alice,

It read

Oh how fast the days have gone as I find myself once more contemplating the lonely……

Ok enough of that shit its 5am!!!!

Why do I do this to myself every week? I should listen to you and just head back to Seattle Sunday night. But I just hate leaving you alone.

Then again you never bother getting up to say goodbye!

I feel so unloved :-(

Have a good week baby sister. I'll call you tonight like always and feel free to

call me anytime if you wanna chat.

God knows I'll relish the opportunity to skip a lecture.

See you Friday.

All my brotherly love.

(The other type is reserved for Rose!)

Emmett

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I giggled as I read it through twice. Even when he wasn't here he could make me smile.

I rolled my eyes when he said he should go back to Seattle on Sunday night. I told him that every week but he always refused.

Then again it had only been a few months since I'd managed to convince him to spend the week there rather than commuting every day.

The familiar guilt rose in me as I thought about how much Emmett had sacrificed for me.

Two years ago he'd been loving his life studying in NYC until the fateful day a drunk driver killed our parents.

Emmett had insisted he would be my legal guardian insisting he didn't want me sent off to strangers.

Unfortunately that meant he'd had to move back to Forks because he didn't want my life uprooted any more than it had been.

A few months of nagging from me had him checking out local courses and home studying options but none had appealed to him, finally with the help of his tutor from New York he had transferred his studies to Seattle.

His circumstances had been taken into account in his first year allowing him to commute in so I wouldn't be left alone and we had settled into a comfortable, if not ideal, routine.

Now I was older Emmett spent most of the week in Seattle, this allowed him to get a part time job as well, and whilst are parents had not left us penniless it was a good way for him to regain some control over his life.

I missed him terribly but I'd never admit that to him, Emmett had given up a lot for me, it wasn't fair to make him feel guilty when he did something for himself, besides he'd be back by Friday.

I grabbed some orange juice from the fridge and put bread in the toaster, I couldn't be bothered making anything more than toast that morning.

Whilst I ate it I gathered up all my books for school and packed them into my bag smiling up at the family photos me and Em had placed around the room to try and create the illusion our parents were still here somehow.

Checking the clock I realised I'd been dawdling this morning, with a heavy sigh I picked up my schoolbag and pulled on my raincoat, I danced over to my car splashing through the puddles with a giggle.

I loved the rain, which was lucky considering that's all it seemed to do in the pacific North West.

I got into my yellow VW bug. It was old and rattled but thanks to Rosalie's knowledge of mechanics it would never let me down and even if it did I'd point blank refuse to get rid of it.

According to Em my dad had discovered it before my fourteenth birthday, knowing it was perfect for me he'd brought it and kept it in storage ready for me when I passed my test, even though he hadn't been around to witness that the car had.

I had cried for nearly the entirety of my sixteenth birthday after Emmett told me the story and I loved my car, it was my sanctuary after a tough eight hours at school it was always there for me waiting in the parking lot welcoming me into it's familiar comfort and taking me away from the hell that was high school.

My foot became lighter on the gas the closer I got to Forks high, it's not that I hated school, I actually enjoyed my classes unfortunately that was part of the problem.

The other was I was just different, or at least I had been in junior high, during years of bullying I had learned how to disappear, blend into the background avoid standing out and now I knew my place in the social hierarchy of high school things weren't so bad.

Pulling my car into it's usual spot I quickly headed to my home room successfully being avoided in the corridors, apparently a new student was starting today and that gossip kept everyone's attention off me.

Taking my seat I pulled out my trigonometry homework to check over passing the time.

A new student meant nothing to me, if they were interesting, or attractive enough, then Mike Newton would assimilate them into his little click. If not, well they'd never be a bigger freak than me!

The bell rang and the rest of my class filed in, I quickly packed my work away before any damage could befall it courtesy of Lauren Mallory.

I tensed as she passed but she ignored me as she filled Tyler in on her first glimpse of the new boy.

I sighed in relief, maybe today wouldn't be so bad after all.

Jasper's pov

Rain!

That seemed to be the one word that could sum up my new home of Forks Washington.

We had been here a grand total of three days and all it had done was rain. It had gotten to the point where I was wondering if the locals had actually evolved with webbed feet.

I was soaked through as I got back from my early morning run, a tradition I was stubbornly sticking to despite the inclement weather.

I missed the heat of Texas, I missed the sun.

Of course I'd never complain to my mum, there was a good reason we had upped sticks to travel almost the entire length of the continental USA to settle in this dead end, damp town and that reason was Cindy.

My dads mid life crisis had hit on his 50th birthday, it had started the traditional way. A new gym membership, a flashy new sports car, hair die and had quickly turned into a full blown affair with a 19 year old intern at his office.

Not that I could really blame him, Cindy was gorgeous in the 'obviously has nothing but looks to offer' kind of way and I myself had had my fair share of play with her.

A small juicy nugget of information I was holding onto, maybe I'd tell my dad at Christmas, or his birthday or maybe the over extravagant wedding that was being planned and the main reason I found myself 1,693 Miles away from everything familiar.

The second my mum had discovered Cindy was sporting a $4,000 diamond ring on a rather significant finger she had requested a transfer, unfortunately for me Forks hospital was the furthest away.

Mum had insisted it was because she couldn't stay and watch him make a fool of himself but the truth was she was running away from the pain.

My mum was still young at barely 40 and she had kept herself in shape. She had only been 20, training to be a nurse, when she met my dad and according to mum it had been love at first sight and that was the main problem, she still loved him.

When we were still in Texas she had been hoping for a reunion but with dad getting engaged it had destroyed that last spark of hope.

The only option left was to run. Start afresh far away.

I thought through the entire fucked up situation as the hot water of the shower pounded down on me, chasing away the chill the rain and sweat had caused.

Today was Monday, my first day of school here. I wasn't overly worried, this was a small town and I was something new.

I made friends easily enough, my dad had always said I was charismatic.

After my shower I pulled on jeans and a black shirt then pulled on a sweater as well, it was raining and I still wasn't used to the drop in temperature compared to Texas.

Mum had headed into work early this morning so I grabbed an apple for breakfast and drank milk straight from the carton.

On my way to the door I paused to glare at my reflection in the hall mirror.

Slightly curly honey blonde hair hung just into my dark blue eyes which narrowed as they took in the chiselled jaw and straight nose.

I had always been pretty pleased with the way I looked, and I had enough experience to know the ladies did too, but I just looked too much like my father to be happy with what I saw staring back at me.

I ran a hand through my tousled hair toying with the idea of hair dye before I shook my head and turned to grab my bag and keys.

I wasn't my father!

With that thought firmly stamped in my head I headed back into the rain and towards my car, a brand new silver Volvo. A present from dad, apparently this was meant to make up for everything.

I wasn't too proud to accept it, although if I could have afforded my own car I would have driven it into a wall the second he handed me the keys.

I was building up to me revenge however, and the more accepting I was of my dad now the more force it would have.

On arrival at the wonderful Forks high I headed into the office to pick up my schedule, map of the school and various other pieces of paper that were somehow meant to help me during my first day.

"Any questions?" the lady behind the desk asked.

I tried not to roll my eyes.

"No I think I got everything thanks."

I have been going to school for the past 13 years how difficult can it be? I added in my head.

By the time I got out the rest of the school population seemed to have arrived.

I could feel several pairs of eyes on me as I walked and noticed a blonde giving me a not so subtle once over, from the sultry smile she gave me as our eyes met I'm guessing she liked what she saw.

I sent back my self assured lopsided smirk that was always a good place to start on my quest into a girls pants.

Maybe this school wouldn't be so bad after all.

Thankfully I was pretty much up to speed with all of my classes.

First period English I sat next to a guy with bronze coloured hair messed into a style that looked like he'd taken just a little bit too much time trying to make it look like he hadn't bothered.

"Edward Mason." he introduced as I slid into the chair next to him.

"Jasper Whitlock." I replied.

The teacher called the class to order before we could exchange any more pleasantries.

"So how are you enjoying Forks?" Edward asked quietly as we were set work.

I shrugged "It's wet!" no point lying.

Edward chuckled "Yeah, you get used to that. It's probably the only place you can get vitamin D supplement at the local grocery store."

I smiled, the guy had a sense of humour "Other than the weather it's not so bad." I added, may as well try to be nice by not pissing on his home town completely.

"So what other classes do you have?"

I passed him my schedule, it was easier than trying to tell him.

His eyes flickered over it and he let out a soft whistle "You're taking advanced calculus?!"

I shrugged again modestly, what can I say maths makes sense to me.

The rest of English passed quickly, Edward helpfully gave me little tips for handling each teacher I would have.

As I entered American History I smiled as I noticed blondie was in this class, nice time to lay down some ground work.

I was directed to a seat behind hers and she leant back in her seat closer to my desk.

"Lauren Mallory." she whispered as the teacher stared the lesson.

"Jas…" I began but she cut me off.

"Oh I know who you are." she smirked and then moved shifting back towards her desk and ignored me for the rest of the lesson.

Well that was a turn off!

I hated people who played games.

She was hot though, I thought as I followed her ass down the corridor to Biology.

The only free seat in the classroom was next to a tiny dark haired girl who didn't seem to register me sitting down next to her.

"Hi, I'm Jasper." I said trying to be polite.

I bit back my laughter as she blinked in surprise and looked around comically to see who I was talking to.

She looked back at me questioningly and I raised an eyebrow expectantly.

Yeah darlin' I'm talking to you.

"Alice." she said slowly, her eyes flickered past me before dropping to the desk and she spent the rest of the lesson ignoring me.

Going well so far Jay!

Lauren accosted me the second the bell rang for lunch.

"Sit with me." she said her long nails dug into my arm slightly as she dragged me to the cafeteria and towards a table at one side. Four people were already seated there, one I recognised as Edward from my English class.

"This is Mike, Jessica, Edward and Bella." Lauren introduced as she forced me into a seat and plopped down next to me.

I nodded politely wondering when I'd get the chance to actually get some lunch. The others had trays in front of them but Lauren seemed happy starving herself.

"Hey, I'm Jasper." I said politely well aware I was being viewed like a piece of meat by Mike and Jessica. They were clearly the ring leaders of this little group.

They seemed to accept me though and went back to whatever conversation they'd been having before me and Lauren arrived.

"Right, well I'm gonna get some lunch." I said slowly.

Edward gave me an encouraging smile and rolled his eyes at Lauren.

Another guy, Tyler, had joined by the time I got back and the conversation had turned to what was planned for the weekend.

"Well my parents are out of town, again." Jessica smirked "So party on Saturday night."

"You up for that Jay?" Lauren asked me eagerly.

I smiled in my, self confident ass hole way "I think I have a window in my schedule."

Edward chuckled and even Mike raised one side of his mouth in a half smile.

I got distracted as the girl from Biology came, quite literally, dancing into the cafeteria.

"Oh god it's here." Jessica wrinkled her nose like there was a bad smell as her eyes fell on the girl.

"Alice McCarty." Mike said seeing my confusion "The local freak."

The whole table laughed and I got a slight uneasy feeling in my stomach. I noticed Bella's eyes drop to the table

"He has to sit by her in Biology." Lauren told them and I got sympathetic looks like they'd just been told I was suffering from some incurable disease or something.

"So what's with the dancing?" I asked curiously as I watched her dance back out.

Jessica rolled her eyes flipping her curly hair back "Like Mike said she's a freak."

Guess that's the only explanation I would be getting.

I arrived home that night the same time as my mum.

She glared at my car as though it had wronged her somehow.

"Mum if he wants to spend money in an attempt to get me to like him again I ain't complaining." I said.

This was an old argument.

She felt by accepting his gestures like this it meant I had forgiven him.

"How was school?" she asked surprising me by actually avoiding a fight.

I shrugged "Ok. I'm pretty much up to speed with all my classes so that's good. How was work?"

I frowned as her cheeks took on a pink tinge.

What the fuck was that about?

"Fine. You fancy pasta for dinner?" she asked making a hasty retreat into her bedroom.

"Yeah pasta's fine." I said slowly wondering what was going on. "I'm gonna get started on some homework." I said deciding to just leave it for now, who knew what the hell went on inside that woman's head.

Sighing I pulled the curtains across the window as I entered my room blocking the grey sky from view.

Fucking rain!

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