Summary: Izaya has been secretly in love with Shizuo, and getting broken each time they fight. After years of living the same every day, one night Izaya wonder in his bedroom if his beloved monster loves him back but the chances always reach 0.
Warnings: One-sided Shizaya (ShizuoxIzaya). Super Angsty and Fluffy at some points. Plus Izaya crying a lot and overly OOC.
Everyday at Ikebukuro was the same, busy people walking down the streets hurrying to get to their jobs, Highschoolers hanging around not worrying about anything and as usual spreading rumors around, gangs of several punks around alleys or just scaring people... It was just like everyday expect for that special thing that usually happened between 3 pm and 7 pm.
That one time when the monster of Ikebukuro finished dealing with people who wouldn't pay their debts, forcing him to use his infamous strength. Who was this monster? It was none other than the ex-bartender Heiwajima Shizuo. Who usually fought with his mortal enemy, the only one who managed to hurt him and get away with it. Yes that informant who worked for the Yakuza; Orihara Izaya.
The "flea" as the ex-bartender liked to call Izaya was quite smart and had this hobby of 'human observation' he had no secrets, perhaps only his dark past but that was nothing for him now, he only wanted to enjoy his humans who he claimed to love, despite his sadistic and devious way to show it. But behind that smirk he always wore, behind all the laughs and humiliations he gave to people there was pain inside him. Something he never dared show anyone but himself. There was a darker secret one way darker than his past.
Izaya Orihara was deeply in love with the monster of Ikebukuro...with his beloved monster; Heiwajima Shizuo.
Yes that name felt like a stab to the heart, each time he saw him, nothing but a fight would start. And as he ran for his life taunting him, his pain grew at hearing such hateful words coming from his love.
"Come back here you stupid flea!" The blond ex-bartender yelled at the top of his lungs, holding a street sign between his hands.
"Oh, do you miss me that fast Shizu-chan~?" The raven haired man purred while he gave a graceful spin to face the blonde while running backwards "I'm sorry but this informant has to go~ I do have work y'know."
"Work? My ass you'll go around manipulating people like always!" the blond growled while tightening his grip on the sign.
"At least I get paid for it! That's enough for me... observing my humans in such desperate attempts to understand what's going on!" giving yet another spin he left half-skipping and half-running "sayonara, Shizu-chan!"
"IIZAAAYAAAAAA!"
As the raven haired got lost into the giant crowd of people the bartender cursed under his breath at the informant and for the billion time he swore he would kill him one day.
After an hour of running the informant got to his apartment, slowly opening the door to let himself in as he stumbled on his feet and let himself fall heavily on the couch while throwing his fur-trimmed coat away and sighing heavily.
"Had another chase with Heiwajima?" asked more annoyed than worried a raven haired woman. Namie to be exact, she only worked for him because he gave a lot of money to her.
"Namie-saaaan~ I'm not in the mood... bring me some Ootoro and then leave!" Izaya whined and he covered his eyes with his arms.
"But Izaya I've got paperwo-"
"Just get it and leave me alone...!" The informant simply stood up and ran to his room while slamming the door behind him.
Deciding it was better to leave Izaya alone, Namie decided to get some ootoro from the fridge, being thankful she had brought some earlier that day. After leaving it at Izaya's desk and knocking a bit loud to let the informant know the food was served, the secretary left rather annoyed at her boss' weird behavior.
After Izaya heard the door to his apartment close, he opened the door of his room and walked towards the desk to take the plate of ootoro back to his room. Where he decided to leave it on his nightstand as he laid on his bed heavily while looking sadly and with a lonely stare at the ceiling.
"Shizu-chan... why...why won't you love me back?" he whispered, as his voice slowly cracked in the middle of that sentence.
Izaya had been in love with Shizuo for a long time awhile before high school ended he had realized he had fallen for him, as it would explain his constant stalking and thinking of the blond. But as they were enemies he could do nothing but stare from far away and have his heart broken each time he had a fight with him.
"Would you ever return...m-my feelings?" sniffling softly tears fell from his eyes. "I'm sorry for everything I've done... please...just give me...one chance...!"
He grabbed a piece of ootoro staring at it, he forgot to eat yet again. This had been going for a few days, Izaya would come back from a fight, ask for food then kicking Namie away. Always forgetting to eat as he would cry himself to sleep.
"After everything I've done to you... Of course you'd never consider it" He threw his precious ootoro away, as it landed on the other side of the room.
"I'd guess...chances will always reach zero..." the informant put a hand right where his suffering beating heart was. Feeling each slow and painful beat with his fingers. "Why did I decide to love you? I should not lower myself to such human emotions...yet... you made it happen... Shizuo..."
Painfully he clenched his hand into a fist grabbing his shirt as if holding his heart, trying to relieve the aching pain.
"I'll never stop loving you... and I decided... I'll love you from afar...even if you make a family, I'll be there...watching you as I am now..." more tears fell from his eyes. "No matter how much it hurts...I...I...!"
Finally he broke down into a crying and whimpering mess, hoping to wash away a bit of his pain with his bitter tears. After crying for what seemed to be hours he found himself on the verge of falling asleep.
"I'll always love you..." As soon as he whispered those words, he hugged his pillow close as his last tear fell from his eyes, finally giving up to the sleeping realm.
"Shizu-chan...".
A/N: So, hi there guys, you just witnessed my first ever story...and it fails badly I know ; A ;. I apologize for the grammar mistakes, you see.. english is definetly not my first language, but I tried my best. I also... um... wanted to ask if anybody wanted to Beta my stories or multi-chapters ones, since as you can see my english is quite bad x_x
Hope you enjoyed it anyways!
Shizuo is off now. Rate and Review please? not destructive critics please... I accept the ones to become better but not flamming D;