Neville sat on the plush red chair before the fireplace in the common room. He stared at the fire for a long time thinking about his life. His worthless useless life. How no one ever respected him. No gave a damn about how he felt, or asked him if he was okay. Always getting teased, bullied, and hurt.
His grandmother always desired a stronger better grandson. One who would bring glory to the family. Like many others in his life he had disappointed her. Never given her the grandson she craved for. He had tried to write to her, to tell her how she felt but she always told him to remain strong.
And his parents! Oh his parents who didn't even know their son's own name. Who were tortured beyond what they could take but Death Eaters. Who would live the rest of their days in a hospital ward. He always felt longing and emptiness when he saw other people and their parents. Maybe if he had had a father to actually support him, he would be a better wizard.
All of these thoughts danced around in his head like the flames dancing in the fire. A tear drop gently streaked down his face, a lone sad one.
Why couldn't he have turned out better?
Beside him sat a knife. A plain simple steel knife with a polished cherry wood handle. He smiled as he looked at it again. So comforting, so loving. Now with this he had control over his life. With this he could take control. He always did it the muggle way. That way it would feel real instead of a quick and blunt hurt with his wand.
Pulling up his drawn sleeve he placed the knife an inch after the last one. The previous night. As he slowly pressed the tip of the blade onto his skin he moaned. Not with pain but with joy. Joy that he never felt.
It always felt comforting. As the droplets of blood stained the couch and skin he smiled no longer crying. He removed the blade and set it beside him careful to clean it off. He lifted his arm and let the droplets fall onto the leather.
He suddenly heard a quiet gasp beside him.
"Neville?!"
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