This was my first real fanfic, so I've decided to publish it. No use in wasting space I guess :P
"Go home, Cat."
I growled at the little red-head while she sat on my bed, looking at me earnestly. Sighing, I glanced at my alarm clock. 2:30 in the morning. I thought to myself. Shock slowly set into my body and my eyes widened slightly. I've been at this for almost ten hours? Cat smiled at me and I rolled my eyes with frustration.
Cat just doesn't get what a monster I am. I destroy everything that I love, and however much I dread it; Cat is no exception. Beck, my dad… I was the reason my mother hung herself. I had broken her beyond repair. For two months she had been a zombie of her former self, always glancing in my direction with paralyzing terror. Finally, I was too much for her to handle. She hung herself with a rope over my window. I felt tears daring to push their way out of my eyes at the thought of that happening to Cat.
What Cat thinks is that there is good in me. Trust me, I've searched for it for sixteen years; there is none. None whatsoever. I've gone to the deepest parts of myself in the empty hope that maybe there was a silver light in me, that somewhere there was good in me. I had never found it.
I looked at Cat and gave her an ice cold stare, slowly stalking over to her and sitting down on my bed next to her. "Cat," A low snarl sounded from me and I gripped her shoulders firmly. I saw beautiful tan face grow pale as my nails slightly dug into her shoulders, and she winced. "I will tell you one last time; Go home." She smiled and giggled slightly, nuzzling herself into my chest. "No, please…" I whispered, hot tears boiling over. My hands nearly disobeyed the order, but I grabbed Cat and shoved her away.
"Cat, no!" I yelled at her, standing up. I was fuming anger now, just to get her to leave. I can't hurt her like my mom. "I don't care how much you love me, or how much good you think is inside of me. There is none." I dropped to my knees on the bed, sobbing silently. I turned away, refusing to let Cat see my tears. "Please, Cat." I whispered, turning to her. I wiped my warm tears from my face with my sleeve, and she grabbed my hand. I hesitated for a moment, before running my fingers through her velvet cupcake hair. "I don't want to hurt you. I'm a monster. I'll destroy you." It was all too easy to destroy Cat. She was far too trusting. I gently let my forehead fall on hers. "Just go."
I looked at her, realizing that Cat was crying too. The silver moonlight shined off of her tears and she leaned in to kiss me. Her soft lips fell upon mine and my heart swelled. She gently released and ran her soft fingers through my raven-black hair. "Jade, I don't care how much you tell me to leave." She whispered, her head falling on my shoulder. It took everything I had not to let my eyes wander down to her body. "You know I'll never leave you. You're not alone, Jade. Remember that." My sobbing stopped and I looked at her, smiling. I leaned and kissed her.