Telling an old boyfriend, the same one he quit wrestling because he had his baby was a crappy way to start the day. Randy took a big breath before walking in the locker room it was all different since the last time he was there, which was 2 years ago. He remembered all those late nights he and John were in it and just laughing and carrying on. They also made the baby right there in that locker room, Randy seen some one and prayed it wasn't John, he wasn't ready yet.
"Well if it isn't "Big Randy" John said hugging him, Randy just relaxed in his arms then tensed back up again, he couldn't let John get to him. "I am the one and only. John how are you?" "Good." he looked down at Randy, he was even more handsome if it existed. Randy could tell he was being watched and John having sweat coming down his whole body didn't help at all, Randy couldn't keep his eyes off of him, John finally got that nice tanned body and he saw those dimples rose from John as he smiled. "It's good to see you again, can I get you anything?" John asked as he looked in Randy's eyes, it looked as if the light went out that had always shined in them. A new heart, Randy wanted to say but didn't. "Rand, how long as it been?" "Just shy of 2 years." "It seems like yesterday, we were in here and expressing our love to one another." Tell that to your 11 month old son, Randy wanted to say but didn't. Randy was in his 4th week of pregnancy the last time they seen one another. His little boy was the reason he came back to John, the baby needed to know his father.
John clasped his hands around Randy's waist, "Have you lost weight?" John asked as he felt Randy tensing up again. "I may have lost a little weight." "There's something different about you." He had John's baby but he didn't want to blurt it out. "I'm still the same old me." "When you left, I didn't know where you went, are you still wrestling?" "I went back home and started a wrestling training center and more things." "Well, it sure agrees with you." What being a parent to a baby he had sooner? "How have you been John?" "Well, I been ok." he lied, he never wanted Randy to leave. "How 'bout you Rand." "Funny you should ask..." "WHAT?" John asked with fear in his voice. John reached for Randy and pulled him close. "John, my heart's failing..." John nearly cried, no it couldn't happened to his lover of all those years, he had a huge heart and it was filled with love. He stopped his tears because Randy was on the verge of tears.
"Rand, do you have a doctor close by, if you have an appointment, I would love to go with you?" "No, it won't help, I am going to die and..." "Please Randy, don't give up. Never give up." "There's more to the story." "More?" "Yeah, with my health issues, it made me think of my life I built." "You shouldn't worry, I'll take care of you." "It's not me I'm worried about, it's, it's my baby." "Baby?" John asked shocked and then the dots started to connect. Was it really his baby though? "Yeah, our baby, he is 11 months old." He? A Boy?" "Yes, we have a son, his name is Jonathon Keith." John was speechless. "What the hell are you trying to say?" "I am telling you that you have a son." "If I believe you." "If?" "Why should I believe you, you were the one who ended it remember and you never said that you were pregnant." "You never gave me a chance." "Why are you telling me now?" "Because of my health and I am afraid that if something happens, Jonathon would not have anyone." "So this is about you?" "No, it is about our son." "Why should I believe you after all this time, what are you after?" Randy felt like crying, how could John reject his own child? "I am sorry, it was wrong not to tell you." "You think, I have been absent from my son's life for 11 months if he is mine." "It's clear you really never knew me, I wouldn't lie to you John, especially not this." Randy walked out and went back to his house which was only 2 blocks away from John's.
2 days later after Randy's life was turned upside down, he and John sat in a booth at a cafe. One look at Randy made John's stomach knotted. His mouth was made to be kissed by him, his hips made him turn on more times he could count and it had fueled more dreams than he wanted to admit. "Would you like something from me?" John asked Randy. "Only to get this over with." "Ok then, if he is my child." "Your son is named Jonathon." "Why didn't you tell me I was going to be a father?" Randy let out a breath and looked at the window, then back at John. "I was afraid and scared about what you were going to say. Do you remember the last time we were together?" "Yeah, one minute we were fine then the next you said we were through. I don't tend to forget that." "I'm sorry, but you said that you didn't want to be tied down. If I told you about the baby, you would have been tied down." "I was a jerk, but you should've said something or left a message saying, "John, I'm going to have a baby and wanted you to know it was yours." "You made it clear how you felt and there was no way I was going to burden my baby with a father who didn't want him." John's heart ached, why did that one man, many years back ruin him. Randy was and is the man for him but he was afraid of the same thing replaying from the other man. "You didn't give me a chance to react, if I'd known you were pregnant, we could have talked about it." "You talked John, so shoot me for not wanting to hear anymore." "Until now." John took Randy into a hug and didn't let him get out of it. "When I found out about my heart, I didn't want to picture Jonathon without me. He had to know about you, and who you are." "Randy, I want to believe you but I want a DNA test." "OK, I will and I have no doubt that it will confirm what I am telling you. I am so sorry, I didn't tell you sooner, but I needed to know that Jonathon will be fine if I die." There was that word again that John hated coming from Randy's mouth. He wasn't go to die, he was going to live and that was all to it and they would all become a family again. "So we have a plan." "We do." Randy turned away and was walking out and John couldn't help to look at the sexy sway of his hips, the feelings for Randy never did go away from John, it was still there. "Rand." "What?" "I want to go see our son."