Note: The following is all true.
Even now, it's hard to tell the difference between having a crush and being in love. But I think I'm starting to see it.
Back in the time I had a crush on Sophie, it wasn't like what I feel now when I look at Cathy. I realized I had absolutely no chance of being her (Sophie's) boyfriend, and I really didn't want to. Sophie was like a rabbit; constantly hopping from one topic of discussion to another, yet pretty. Sure, she was funny, but I stopped being so attracted to her.
I like comparing the people I know to animals. My best friend is a lynx, I'm a fox, and my psychologist reminds me of a lion (He likes sleeping and has a crazy hairdo). Another crush of mine was like a dove. Cathy is a cat, however.
She may seem cold and distant, but when she smiles…
When we look into each others' eyes… I feel strong and weak at the same time. I feel excited and terrified. The truth is, I don't know how I feel.
But I do know who I want to be with.