I don't know when it happened. It just did.
I just went over to Seth's house after Bella had left with Edward. I wanted someone to talk to and something was telling me to go to Seth with my problems. The second he opened the door, I knew. I had imprinted on Seth Clearwater.
I remember it like it was yesterday.
~Ten Years Earlier~
She left, again. Of course she had to leave. It's not like she lived with me, but why did she have to leave with Him. I need to talk to someone, but not anyone. I got in my Rabbit and started to drive. I didn't realize where I was headed until I was pulling into Seth's driveway. Not caring how I got here, I cut the engine and got out. I locked it and went to the door. Before I had even knocked Seth had opened the door and was smiling at me.
My eyes met his and I didn't want to break the contact. It was like gravity wasn't holding me anymore, it was him. Like Bella, Edward, The Vampires, The Pack, Life itself, didn't matter. Only he did. I fought the urge to have him in my arms, to hold him, and to kiss him.
"Uh...hey Seth, I was...uhm...wondering if I could talk to you, maybe, if it's possible." A slight blush rushd to my cheeks. After he didn't answer I was starting to get a little self-conscious, and began to walk away. "I think i'll just-"
"Uh, no! I mean. Come on in." Seth said it in such a hurry he he practically yelling for me to come inside his home. I had to resist that urge again. I went inside and looked at the familiar couch in the middle of the small living room similar to my own. He had the same small TV that barely works resting on the small, dark brown coffee table. Everything on the reservasion seemed small, even the beach. "So, what did you want to talk to me about?"
I had completely forgot that I had come to complain about Bella being with Edward. But I just had to tell him the truth. But the words to say it were elating me. I didn't know how to speak with those curious brown eyes staring back at me. Seth had always had a soft spot in my heart, but who would know that would turn out to be an imprint. I just knew it was an imprint. I hadn't felt like this at all with Bella.
"Jake why are you smiling?" I must have been grinning like an idiot while I was thinking about him when I could be talking to him.
"Uh Seth, I-I need to tell you something." Of course now I really look like an idiot.
"You can tell me anything." If only you knew. I am going to tell him. Well if I am going to do it then I better say it right now. I'm stupid. How could he want me? But how can I be sure? This has never happened before, there is a chance. Maybe all those times he was telling me that I was his idol was really he was really telling me that he had feelings for me? Could it be true? Time to find out. I sat on the couch and looked to the floor. He came and sat next to me. Our arms touching.
"I imprinted on you." It came out as a whisper, and from the lack of response I think he didn't hear me. But when I looked up he had a mask of shock and disgust on his face. Then I ran out. I could faintly hear Seth calling my name as I ran off into the forest.
Not caring if my clothes shredded to pieces, I shifted and ran further into the trees. I'm such an idiot. How could Seth love me. No one can love me. I am a disgusting. An abonination. I shouldn't go back. Everyone will hate me for what I have done. But it wasn't me, it was destiny. No it's not. I am a monster. Dad won't hate me, i'm his son. I'll go back for him. He won't want a fag like me. He'll love me no matter what. The war in my head contained only me. No members from the pack had shifted. Not even Seth. I guess he thinks I should die. Go to Hell. I guess I should. Make it easier to keep it a secret, easier for him. Not having to put up with a queer like me. I shouldn't say that. I am going back. For Billy.
I began to see a change of the weather and started to wonder where I was. Then I came across a sign that said : Welcome To Saskatchewan- The Best Canada Can Offer. Wow. Canada. I'll look up where that is on google maps to see if I broke my record, last time I got to Alberta. Near Calgury too. I sat down and let out my howl. It was full of my heart-wretchingly, broken, nothing-ness. I guess I should be heading back. I turned around began to jog back home. 105.3 miles later. I was getting tired I grabbed a huge branch with my teeth and ripped it off the tree. I settled myself on the leaves, and slowly drifted off to sleep.
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