Hmm. First GSD fanfic. Sorry if the characters are OOC, since I've only saw...5? episodes and some spoilers. (I know I shouldn't be writing about something so unfamiliar, but I was so...um...inspired.) This fic is based solely on spoilers, by the way, so excuse me for any mistakes in the story line, etc.

This fic is about Stellar after the war (yes, I know she was really killed) with amnesia, trying to remember Shinn but can't.

Reviews appreciated!

Diclaimer...doesn't this word speak for itself?

I woke up, and everything was white.

The walls, the ceiling, the bed I was in, my clothes, everyone else's clothes… They were all white.

The people told me I was in a 'hospital'. I didn't know what a hospital was, so I asked them.
The people just shook their heads, and looked away sadly.
Then I asked them why they were sad. They just shook their heads again and left me alone in the white room.

I couldn't remember who I was, or what my name was, or how old I was, or where I was from.

They asked me who my 'parents' were. I didn't know what that meant either.

The people just left me after that. I was kept in the white room. Sometimes, a lady would come and give me food, but that was it.

I sat in the little chair beside a window, and looked outside. There was green. The lady who brought me food told me they were called 'trees' and 'plants'. I liked watching them.

Sometimes, it became black. I was scared, and I didn't like it. The lady called it 'night'. She taught me to look up, and I saw a yellow circle and dots of light. 'Moon' and 'stars'. After that, night was not so scary.

I fell asleep, woke up, and ate in my chair. During day, I watched plants. During night, I watched stars.

Later, the plants became red. It was 'fall'. Then came 'winter', then came 'spring'.

I learnt many things from the lady, and from watching outside. Then, I started wondering who I was. But I never remembered. My mind was white, just like the room.

People told me I was a 'natural', and that I was a 'drug junkie'. They said it was probably for 'war'.
I never understood what they meant.

After the plants changed color one more time, I started seeing things when I was asleep. 'Dreams'.

I always dreamt of a boy with black hair and red eyes.
Sometimes he was happy, sometimes he was mad, and sometimes he was sad.
I asked him why he was smiling, or frowning, or biting his lip. He looked at me, but he never answered.
I wanted him to answer, but he didn't. I wondered what his voice sounded like, but I never found out.

Then, I saw a different dream.
At first, I saw big, scary things. I knew them from the 'news' of war from the 'TV' they made me watch, but I couldn't remember what they were called.
They shot fire, and then there was bright light everywhere.

I liked light, but I didn't like this light. It was scary.

I was inside a small room with many small machines. I looked out of the small window in front of me, and saw more fire.
From me?
I didn't like it. I tried to make it stop, but I couldn't move. In my dreams before, I could move and talk and do anything. Here, I could not move.

A white, red and blue machine came in front of my window, so I couldn't see. I was so scared.

Then, it threw something green at me. There was fire inside the room. It was so hot, and I screamed.

After that, it was all dark. I knew this darkness was different from night, because there were no moon or stars.

I heard some noises, but only faintly. Nothing clear.

Something crashing. Some footsteps. Then someone lifted me up. I felt something wet fall on my clothes, but I couldn't open my eyes to see what was happening.

I heard some more noises. The noise small children in the hospital made when they were called by the doctors.

"Stellar!"
The person shouted. But I didn't understand what he was saying. Was stellar a thing, or was it a person? That was when I finally opened my eyes, and saw the boy that I always saw. There was water in his eyes and on his cheeks.
"Shinn…?"
My lips moved to say that word. I didn't know why, or who or what shinn was, but I said it.
"Stellar…No, Stellar…!"
"Shinn…came to see Stellar. S…Stellar is…happy."
I still didn't know what shinn or stellar was, but I said it. And it hurt when I said it.
"I said I would protect you, and…"
'Protect'. I felt something when he said that. It was a special word for me.

Then, black again.

"It's okay now… No one will hurt you or use you…"
The boy said through those noises that children made, and I felt something cold around me. I think it was water.

When I woke up from the dream, I also found water in my cheeks. I also felt really sad, but I did not know why.

After the dream, I knew I forgot something very important. Something to do with 'shinn' and 'stellar' and 'protect'.

I told the dream to the lady, and she said that the boy was probably called Shinn, and that I was Stellar.
Then she told me what protect meant.

So everyone started calling me Stellar.

The plants and trees changed colors many times after that, and I became a little taller than when I was in the white room.
The people told me I needed to go out of the hospital, so I did. They got me a place to live, and I started working in the hospital.

I never once saw the different dream again, but I kept seeing the dreams with whom I know now as Shinn.
But I still can't remember anything. And I know that 'anything' was something very, very important for me.