Hidden Hundred

By Carol M

Summary: Point of No Return missing moments…the letter Dean wrote to Sam and Sam taking care of Dean after the beat down…brotherly h/c…and faith

Disclaimer: Don't own them, only love them

Spoilers: Up to Point of No Return

Notes: Others have and will address these moments, but I thought I'd throw my interpretations in the ring as well. That's why this fandom is so awesome! Enjoy!

Part 1 is the letter and Part 2 is the missing scene.

Sam,

I know you're pissed at me for doing this and for that, I'm sorry. There isn't any other way, man. I gotta do this. I have to try and save everyone. Hopefully, one day you'll understand that and not hold it against me.

Maybe if I say yes now, I won't have to kill you. Maybe Michael'll gank Lucifer before he's wearing your meat suit. If there's any chance that I can avoid having to kill you bro, even if technically it's Michael doing the killing, then I'm taking it.

If it comes to it though…I will kill you. I don't want to. Damn it, you have no idea how much I don't want to. I've fought so hard to prevent that moment from ever happening. But I'm beginning to think it's unavoidable, just like they all say. Life's a bitch, right and then you die…a few times. Destiny sucks ass.

I'm so tired, Sammy. What the hell have I been fighting against this whole time, huh? Destiny? Dad? You? Myself? I don't wanna fight anymore. I want peace for you and Bobby and Cas and the whole freaking world. For myself.

I want you to know that in spite of all the crap, and not just yours, mine too, that you're still that tiny baby I carried out of a burning house all those years ago. I love you, Sammy. We've done some awful things to the world and to each other, but I think that in our hearts, we both were doing what we thought was right at the time and doing the best we could in crappy circumstances. That's what I believe I'm doing now, Sam. I really do.

Take care of my baby. Bobby and Cas too. And take care of yourself too, little brother. Guess I'm not gonna be around to do it anymore. I did my best.

Dean