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hope you guys enjoy this one like I did while writing it.
Sasha with Kathleen trying to comfort her after her dad's death.
knock on Kat's cabin door, Mike come's in, horrified look on his face. calls Sasha for a moment to talk,
"Tom is leaving!"
"what? leaving what Mike?" in low confused voice.
"he just resigned from the navy. tomorrow will give him a final navy goodbye"
"I just thought you might have a better luck talking some sense into him and maybe convince him to stay."
"God, knows we need him"
Sasha couldn't breathe for a sconed. shook and overwhelmed with all what's been happening the bast 24hours and now this!
Kat is distressed with her father's death and the fact Tom hasn't come to see her made it impassable for Sasha to leave her side.
looking at Mike "don't leave her"
rushing through the halls of the ship headed for Tom's quarters not stopping for air reaching his room out of breath. bursting through the door.
Tom was sitting on his bed already gathered most of his stuff.
"Tom, what the hell are you doing?" you can't tell was it anger hurt, disappointment in her tone!
but it was all coming out in one phrase. an emotional battle rushing through her veins.
"you can't leave!..."
"I am done Sasha I can't do this anymore!" looking up at her with darkened eyes and broking soul "Tex is dead because of me." he stopped for a second looking in vain to keep himself out of his own thoughts "who is next to die, Sasha? huh, you? Mike? who Sasha tell me!" angry as hell looking at his hands were Tex's blood still on them.
"clean your hands, Tom! please!" looks at her then moves to the sink washing that blood wishing that he could wash the memory of what happened.
"Tom, don't do this to your self...not me nor Mike will die Tom don't..."
"I am done, Sasha" giving her a look that showed her how lost and broking he was. right at that moment, she hugged him tight. her hand's on his shoulders "it's okay, Tom, its okay..." he didn't move for a sconed he just sobbed on her shoulder.
puts his arms around her hugging with all his heart. he needed her. he needed her so bad and she didn't disappoint him SHE was right there where he needed her. with no more words floating in the air the only thing both could hear was each other's heartbeat. and they stayed that way for quite some time.
hiding his face in the crack of her neck her scent was pulling him closer and pulling back all the old memories. the ones he had been trying to avoid since the minute she walked back into his life. she could feel his hot breath on her neck it made her keen for more of him her fingertips traveling through his hair massaging his neck. he couldn't fight the need to touch her he starts kissing her neck upwards towards her cheek...pausing for a second to look deep into her sky kissed blue eyes placing a soft kiss on her lower lip with her hand on his neck she pulls him tighter deepening the kiss...the roles didn't matter to him in this moment all he want's is more of her he pikes her up and puts her on the bed...
{{Note: it will sink-in better if you play |already gone |by kelly clarkson| as a soundtrack.}}
Sasha wakes up in his bed with nor him or any of his stuff...
she fears the worst and nothing but the worst she found.
|Tom left her|
|Tom left the navy|
puts on her clothes and runs onto the deck looking for him...
"he is gone, Sasha" Mike's voice field with sadness.
"NO, he can't do that not after..., not like this Mike he can't"
the idea of the man she loves leaving her like this shattered her heart. NOT HER TOM. not the noblest guy on this planet.
he would never do that not to her not to the women he loves.
she drowned in her thoughts doesn't want to believe that he actually left. goes back to her room furious at how stupid she was thinking after last night he would stay! stood in the medal of her room her eyes were drowning in her tears. shattered, heartbroken sad but mostly angry at her self and him...
{{NOTE: play |leona lewis| better in time| soundtrack |}}
3weeks later.
Mike is worried about her she is not eating not sleeping, working her ass off trying hard to distract her self-form her thoughts.
Mike asked Azima, Wolf, to keep an eye on her. to keep her company.
Sasha walks towards Wolf asking him to train with her. she asked him to throw some bunches teasing and laughing "STOP hitting like a girl, bring it on. come on, I can take it " it was fun Azima, Miler wore laughing. Wolf throws a right hook to her abdomen she fell down shouting out of the excruciating pain in her belly and holding her stomach wolf quickly took her to the doc.
Doc "what happen?"
Wolf "I didn't hit her hard, something is wrong doc"
Miler went to get the captain "something happened sir, "
Mike"what? " Sasha she..." "what happened to her talk!"
"she was training with Wolf and he hit her she is in medical sir"
Mike"what the hell Wolf I asked you to look out for her not to kill her "
Wolf "I sowar sir, I hit her harder than that before, I tell you something is wrong"
Mike "what did the Doc say?!"
Azima" nothing yet sir"
"no, no this can't be" after seeing blood between her thighs.
grabs the sonar "oh my God" pauses for a sconed "she needs surgery!"
"act quickly prep her for it"
goes out askes the captain for a word.
Doc, "she... ah, she is... was pregnant" "her body is weak she couldn't handle the blow and I know she wasn't eating, sleeping and Wolf's hit was the last straw for this pregnancy"
Mike"God, do you know how old?!"
Doc, "I'll say three weeks sir. she need's surgery I have to go back in there "
later that day nine hours after the surgery...
opens her eyes to find Mike, sitting on the chair next to the bed Azima and wolf standing next to the door "what happened?".
Mike "hey take it easy, you're okay"
Wolf "I am so sorry Sasha"
"it's okay"
"I shouldn't have hit you"
"no Wolf it's what I asked for, but you still hit like a girl tho" tying to loosing up the mood. no one smiled she looked at Mike" "what is it, Mike? I am okay, really I am"
Wolf and Azima left the room, the Doc stood next to her holding her hand "Sasha Ahhh..."
"what is it, Doc? Mike what?" her heart sank looking at them not knowing what is wrong.
Mike" it's okay you will be alright, calm down"
Doc "you had...ahh a miscarriage. I am so sorry, there was nothing I could have done"
her eyes were frozen she was like if she was lost -in dark cold space with nothing but quietness- it was like if she was
-drowning in the ocean- but wasn't trying to survive.
Mike" Sasha you will be alright I promise"
Sasha" I am okay Mike, don't worry" not looking at him "I need some rest."
turned to the other side not wanting them to see her broken even more.
-crying without crying- her eyes were swimming pools all day all night on that bed not talking to anyone not eating.
once-again she is back at her routine of self-torturing.
three days later...
Mike" Sasha, I ordered everyone to find Tom" Sasha turning to face him "NO! don't. why would you do that"
Mike"you need him..." cut's him off with an angry tone "NO I don't need him I never did not before and definitely not know, I can take care of my self, I always did and always will" adding "Mike please it's over, no need for him. you don't need to worry about me anymore I promise"
Mike"the Doc is worried about you, you're not eating..."
"not anymore, like I said I always take care of my self"
Mike sights when she turned around "okay, I'll do as you say"
and he leaves the room.
{{Note: the sky is crying| by Gray B. B. Coleman|{{I got a really bad feeling}} this one for Tom.}}
16month later...
They got back on the ship, not one single word or a look from her he knew she is mad at him for leaving her like that, he had no idea of what had happened the bast 16months and with all that was going on. the only person who could tell him all about it is in no condition to do so.
days have gone...
he tried twice to talk to her and she didn't give him a chance to.
Mike is better Tom checking on him sitting in his room talking about nothing and everything.
Tom "Sasha..."
Mike cut's him off "that's between the two of you not going to say a word" Mike's reaction made Tom jump out of his skin.
"Mike what is it! is there more to it than me leaving"
"is she okay? is it about her and that brit?" Tom's thoughts were south and the hell has happened was way up north.
"Tom, talk to her. keep me out of this"
Tom couldn't sleep how could he after what Mike had told him.
two days later...
"Bond" was gone with the seeds and once again Sasha in a hell hole this time she was eating her self for not shooting him in his back and secure the seeds.
Tom fiend's her in the wardroom with piles of papers exhaustion herself with guilt.
Tom walks in. NOT giving any consideration to his being.
"Sasha" she didn't answer or look at him.
sits front of her trying to hold her hand she didn't give him a chance pulls her hand and gets up to leave collecting her paper pile...
"Mike told me..."
"whatever it is that he told you, it was over long before it began"
"what! what are you two talking about?" confused and starting to lose his calm manner.
he grabbed her hand which made her angrier than she already is "don't touch me you bas... don't ever do that again" furious at him.
"Sasha hey calm down I am sorry" putting his arms in the air and moves away from the table giving her some spice.
"tell me what is it your hiding from me cause right now I know it's not just me leaving. please, just tell me"
"16months Tom 16months, you know how long period of time that is ?" walks away tears in her eyes remembering her -never got to see the sun baby- remembering all that she has been through ALONE. all her dreams of what if she got the chance to meet her/him! what's her life could have looked like if Tom never left her!
they always had the ability to read each other, they wore like an open book to each other. that's why she hugged him before he left and that's why he knew at this moment.
Tom knew right there her tone gave away everything he was shattered, demolished. he drags his feet back to Mike's room want's affirmation to his thoughts praying with all his heart it's not it.
walks in didn't even knock, Mike look's at his demolished friend not knowing what to say to him "please tell me, Mike, I beg of you"
Mike sighs and puts his hand on his friend shoulder "after you left she was broking. she didn't eat sleep, worked hard...and if she wasn't working she would be training working out like if she was facing mo-Ali the next day"
"one day she asked Wolf if he would train with her it was fun SHE kicked his ass and everyone was laughing... she teased him saying "you hit like a girl" a right hook landed on her abdomen and that was it"
Tom" that..." cut's him off "Doc, said that wolf was just the last straw it was far gone before that... and Wolf didn't hit her hard or intended to" "Tom I don't know how you..."
"thank you, Mike "
he left Mike's cabin headed towards Wolf's...
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TBC...
A/N (I have finals and I will update as soon as I have time for it )