Title: MOMMA'S BOY
Author: Brokeback Mountain
Rating: R
Warning: Strong language, adult situations
Disclaimer: These characters belong to Annie Proulx.
Summary: Mrs. Twist arranges a nice birthday present for Jack.
MOMMA'S BOY
"I wasn't but 5 or 6 first time my Dad called
me that. I remember
thinkin he was right, I loved bein with Momma;
lot more than bein with
him. K.E. was always his boy. Followin him
'round like a pup dog;
scratchin and fartin just like him; and
usin all those bad words that
made Momma just steam." Ennis
stopped for a breath and took another
sip of Old Rose and passed
the bottle back to Jack.
"I had just come home from first
day of school and was sittin in the
kitchen showin Momma the
pictures I'd made. She was makin over them
like they belonged in a
museum or somethin when Dad came in with K.E.
They was covered
with mud and laughin and cursin; he'd let K.E. stay
home from
school to help him with some fencin. K.E. took to makin fun
of my
pictures and I commense to hollarin and Dad yanked them away
from
the both of us took one look at them and tossed them in the trash
can
sittin beside the sink. He made some comment 'bout me then bein
a
Momma's boy, spendin all my time in the house, and drawin
pictures of
flowers. He and K.E. had a big laugh over that. Momma
got real upset
but never said nothin. I remember her face gettin
all red. I was sad
that he threw my pictures away, but not about
the comment. I didn't
think it was somethin to be shamed of; lovin
your Momma. Still don't.
Was the way he said it that made it
somethin dirty. Didn't
understand that then; but lookin back, I
can see it clear now."
"Your dad sounds a lot like
my old man." Jack tossed another broken
limb into the fire;
it sparkled with new life. "My old man called me
that for as
long as I can remember; always made is sound dirty. I
spent a lot
of time in my Momma's kitchen too but I don't remember
ever drawin
pictures."
"I never did either after that, not at home anyway. We'd draw at school and I'd
fold them up real small and put them in my jeans pocket. I'd show them to
Momma when no one else was 'round and she always said she loved them.
Didn't draw any more flowers tho; stuck to drawin horses,
cars,
trains, planes; stuff like that; just in case either Dad or
K.E. was
to find them. Teacher said they was real good."
"My
old man was a hard-ass too. Always felt like I was the enemy
or
somethin. Never did a single thing to please him my whole life;
'cept
maybe when I left." Jack sat staring into the fire;
those long-ago
memories still painful to him. "Momma was
always good to me though.
She always loved me somethin fierce;
still does."
"You're lucky you still got her. Momma
always cared about me too but
I could tell she worried 'bout me a
lot. Never did know why. Maybe
'cause she knew Dad didn't like me
all that much; he was always too
busy with K.E. I might have liked
bein out there with them but I
don't ever remember them askin me
to go with them. They'd just take
off." He nodded "no"
to the offer of more whiskey. He had had his
fill for the night;
he always knew when to stop.
Jack drank the last few swallows
and recapped the empty bottle. "Well
my boy knows his daddy
loves him. He always will. Lureen's old man
fills his head with a
lot of nonsense but he knows I love him. I
ain't never gonna let
him forget that."
"You ready for some sleep and
maybe another go-'round?" Ennis stood
up, wiped the seat of
his pants off and grinned at Jack.
"I could be
persuaded," Jack reached a hand up to him and stood with
Ennis's
help. He carried the empty bottle over to their trash
container
while Ennis doused the fire.
They lay wrapped around each
other for a time; just savoring the
closeness, the feeling of
holding someone dear and being held in
return; hands skimming over
one another, fingers wandering through
tousled hair, caressing
stubby cheeks; little kisses being bestowed
here and there when a
hand or arm or shoulder passed close enough.
Jack was lying with
his head on Ennis's shoulder, their arms around
each other when he
spoke, "Ennis?"
"Yeah?" Ennis lay with his cheek pressed against the top of Jack's head.
"You believe in love?"
"Sure, I do."
"I
know you loved your Momma and I know you love your girls,
but...do
you love me?"
"Uh huh. Always have." His voice was barely a whisper.
"You do?" Jack leaned up and
grinned at him in the dim light of the
tent, glowing yellow/orange
from the lantern.
"Course I do. Didn't you know that?"
"I hoped you did; but I wasn't sure. You never said."
"We neither said, Jack. That don't mean it ain't so."
"Guess you're right." He laid his
head back down. "It's nice to know
though."
"Uh huh." Ennis agreed.
"I've loved you since Brokeback.
I shoulda told you back then.
Things might be a lot different
now."
"Don't see how. I had already promised to
marry with Alma. And I
don't regret havin my baby girls. Things
happen the way they're
s'posed to, I guess."
"I
think people who love each other ought to be able to have a
life
together!"
"Some can; some can't."
Ennis rolled Jack over and kissed him. He
knew where Jack was
headed and he didn't want to get into another
debate with him
right now. He had other things on his mind. "Let's
not waste
any more time talkin, OK? What do you say we get out of
these
clothes?"
A long slow leisurely session satisfied both
their needs physically
and emotionally and they were back in their
favorite position;
spooned; Jack, back up against Ennis's front;
lantern out and
satisfied smiles on both their faces as they
drifted off to sleep.
The next morning they stood holding each other, saying
goodbye, and
the words just slipped out. "I love you, Bud,
and don't you ever
forget that."
"God, it's so
good to hear you say that! I know we kinda said it last
night but
it's different now; hearin the words for the first time. I
love
you too, Ennis; and now that we said it, I ain't never gonna
stop
sayin it!"
"Me too. Feels as good to hear it
as it does to say it." The words
tumbled out of Ennis's tight
mouth. He grinned shyly from underneath
the brim of his
hat.
"That is does, my Friend!" Jack gave him one
more quick hug and
climbed into his truck; Ennis did the same and
they were off in
different directions to spend the next four
months apart.
Ennis had put in a long hard week at work; one of those weeks
where
everything goes wrong no matter how hard you're trying. The
kind of
week where you have a flat tire, you're late for work, get
crossways
with the boss, co-workers rub you the wrong way; the
whole world seems
out of alignment! It had been that kind of week
and Ennis was glad
when the weekend finally got there. He had
stayed up late Friday
night drinking and slept in Saturday
morning. He lay there in bed
awake, trying to think up a grocery
list; errands he wanted to run for
the weekend when the phone
rang.
"H'lo?" He rolled over and grabbed the phone.
"Hello. Is this Mr. Del Mar?" a timid little voice asked.
"Yeah, this is Del Mar," Ennis answered
glancing at his small alarm
clock; 9:35 it read.
"Mr. Del Mar, you don't know me, but you know my son Jack."
"You're Jack's Momma?"
"Yes, I am. If you're not busy right
now, could we talk for a few
minutes?"
"Sure
thing." He was filled with apprehension; why on earth would
she
be calling him?
"It's Jackie. He's hurt. Been in a
bad accident; totaled his truck.
Doctors said he almost didn't
make it."
"He's alright tho? He's...still with us?" Ennis asked rigid with fear.
"He's outta the hospital
now; came home two days ago. Got a broken
leg, broken arm, four
broke ribs. He's pretty banged up."
"What happened?
When? He's gonna be OK, ain't he?" Too many
questions tried
to get out at one time.
"Last weekend; just before he got
to Lightnin Flat. He said it was a
bunch of teenagers in a pickup
run him off the road. I guess they was
the ones thought to call
the accident in; we can thank them for that
at least." She
said.
"He'll be OK tho?" Ennis insisted on an answer to that question.
"Doctor says so, in time. Right now
tho, he's in a world of hurt. I
was wonderin, since its Saturday
and all, if I could talk you into
coming up and visitin him? You
know, today is his birthday, and his
Pa is off in Cheyenne seein
'bout a new bull he wants to buy, so it's
just me and him up here.
I know it would brighten his day
considerably if you could come up
for a visit. You could stay the night
here and go back tomorrow; you wouldn't miss any work or nothin."
"I didn't know today was his birthday. He
never said..." Ennis put
his head down; ashamed that he had
loved this man for so many years
and didn't even know when his
birthday was. They had never talked
about such things.
"Oh,
it's alright! I know, men don't think nothin 'bout such things.
I
just thought it would be nice; unless, of course you have other
plans
for the weekend?"
"No, Ma'am, no plans at all."
"You'll come then?"
"I'll
come. Be there as soon as I can." He hung up the phone
after
getting directions out to the ranch; made a quick stop in
the
bathroom, showered, shaved, brushed his teeth, grabbed his
jeans off
the recliner and reached for his shirt, gave it a sniff
and decided on
a clean one from the closet instead. He pulled his
bag out and
stuffed a few things in, grabbed his jacket, keys and
wallet and was
out the door.
The drive to Lightning Flat
took four hours. He had just passed the
sign that said, Lightning
Flat 4 miles, when he saw the awful skid
marks; a path torn
through the weeds, some broken-over saplings and a
tree with great
raw scrapes in it. He slowed the truck and stared as
he rolled by
slowly.
"That must be where it happened," he
thought; a shudder passed through
him.
He speeded up then,
needing to get to Jack as soon as possible and
before long he was
pulling up the driveway onto the Twist ranch.
"I wonder
if she told him I was coming?" The thought occured to Ennis
as
he shut the engine down.
She came out to meet him. "Mr.
Del Mar?" she greeted him with an out
stretched hand.
"Yes, Ennis, please. Does he know I'm comin?" He asked.
"No.
It's his birthday! I wanted to surprise him! I got everything
he
likes for dinner. I'll get that started and you go on in and see
him.
I got him set up in the front room where the TV is. C'mon."
She
insisted.
He followed her on into the house, through the
kitchen and went in the
direction she pointed to the front room.
Jack was asleep on the
couch, broken leg propped up with pillows,
arm in a sling, face and
hands covered with scrapes and bruises. A
pair of crutches was on
the floor in front of the big old
over-stuffed couch; pills, water
glass and part of a sandwich on a
saucer on the coffee table.
He stood for a long while just
staring at him. His whole world laying
there, all bruised and
busted up, hair tousled, lips slightly parted,
long thick eye
lashes over closed eyes. He had never realized before
just how
beautiful Jack was. He eased himself down on the couch
beside him
and caressed Jack's cheek with the back of his fingers.
"Hey,
Bud. You gonna sleep all day? We're burnin daylight." He used
a
favorite expression of theirs he had heard once in an old
John
Wayne movie. He bent down and brushed a quick kiss across
Jack's
lips.
Jack's eyes fluttered a bit then opened.
"Ennis? ENNIS?" He jerked
and tried to sit up, then
groaned.
"Easy now, take it easy." Ennis helped him to sit up.
"I...you...How did you...What are you doing here?" he sputtered.
"Come to wish you a happy
birthday!" he grinned and took his hat off
and put in on the
coffee table.
"You come all this way just for that?"
"You come a lot farther every time you drive up to see me."
"I know but that's different. How did
you know? We never talked
about birthdays."
"I
told him!" came a sweet voice from the doorway. "Thought he
ought
to be here with you, 'sides, we can't eat all that
chicken
and birthday cake by ourselves. Now did you take your
pills at 4:00?"
"Yes, Momma, I did. Just before I went to sleep."
"Well dinner will be ready in about
an hour. You need anything
'fore then, you let Ennis know. He'll
help you. Such a nice young
man! I told him today was your
birthday and he jumped in the truck
and came right here. You two
have a nice visit now, while I get to
cookin," and with that,
she was gone.
"Oh man, I need to take a piss. Can you
hand me those crutches?"
Jack struggled to stand up, Ennis
grabbed Jack's one good arm and
helped haul him up; and put the
crutches under his arms. They made
their way slowly to the
bathroom; Jack getting around but just barely.
"You need help?"
"Yeah, if you don't mind. Just kinda steady
me so I don't loose my
balance again. I did earlier and hurt my
leg."
"Shit, Jack, you gotta be careful! You almost
got yourself killed,
you know that don't you! What the hell would
I do then?" He came up
behind Jack and put a steadying hand
on each shoulder while Jack
released the crutch in on hand and
opened his pants. He sighed with
relief as he relieved himself;
shook off and fixed his pants back up.
"Thanks. That's
not exactly somethin I could ask Momma to do." They
made
their way back into the front room and sat back down on the
couch.
"Shouldn't you be back home? In Childress, I mean?"
"I called Lureen, told her."
"She didn't come up?"
"Nah. She hates this place. Came up
here once after we first got
married and said never again."
"You would think she would come up here at least to see to you."
"Lureen's runnin the business now with her
daddy gone. She's got no
time to be nurse-maidin me."
"I
can stay till tomorrow night. I'll see to you till then. Maybe
you'll
feel better by then; stronger."
"Yeah. I'm sure I
will." He propped his leg up on the coffee table
and winced.
It wasn't comfortable there either. Ennis got up and
lifted Jack's
leg up on the couch and put the pillows back under it.
"That better?" He asked, sitting down beside him.
"Much.
Thanks." He leaned his head against the back of the couch.
He
was tired. Weak and in pain; Ennis could see it in his eyes.
"It 'bout time for your pills again?"
"Nah. Not until 8:00. Every four hours."
"You're hurtin now though."
"I'm alright." A weak smile crossed his scratched and bruised face.
"You look like hell, Jack. This ain't no way to spend your birthday."
"I'm
just glad I get to have another birthday. When I came to,
after
wrappin my truck 'round that tree; I didn't think I was
gonna make it.
Thought it was gonna be all over with then and
there. All I could
think 'bout was you, all the things I wanted to
say to you; all the
things I wished we coulda done together.
Thought it was the end of
the line for me." His voice
trembled.
"Jack..." He put his hand on the side of
Jack's cheek; thumb gently
rubbing over the purple and yellow
burises. "I done a lot of thinkin
on the way here. Thinkin
what mighta happened. Made me realize a
thing or two."
Jack
leaned his cheek into Ennis's palm and sighed and Ennis knew this
was
not the right time for serious discussions. Jack was in too much
pain
right now, so they sat in silence for a while, completely
content
just to be in one another's company.
"Dinner's
ready!" Mrs. Twist came into the room wiping her hands on
her
apron. "You want me to bring it in here or do you want to try
and
make it to the table."
"I'll come to the table, Momma."
Ennis helped him up and together they made
it into the kitchen and sat
down at the table. It was a struggle
and he could tell Jack was in
pain with the effort and he was
proud of him for doing it.
The table was piled with a platter of
fried chicken, mashed potatoes
and gravy, corn on the cob, cole
slaw, and freshly baked bisquits; all
of Jack's favorites.
"You
should still be in the hospital, Jackie." She had noticed
Jack
grimacing in pain too.
"No, Momma. I'm fine. You
think they'd feed me like this in the
hospital?" He grinned
over at her as she poured him a glass of sweet
tea. She poured
Ennis one as well then hers last.
"You're just not strong
enough yet; and you're still in too much pain.
Can't be good for
you strugglin to get 'round like that."
"I'll be
fine soon as I get on the outside of some of that chicken!
Can't
nobody fry chicken like Momma does!" He bragged to
Ennis.
"Smells mighty good." Ennis agreed.
Mrs.
Twist and Ennis sat on either side of Jack and helped his plate
and
cut his chicken up. Jack was a little embarrassed by the fussing
but
took it all in stride. These were the two people he loved most
in
this world and they wanted to see to him; so he let them and
secretly
enjoyed every minute of it.
"You and Jackie
have known each other a long long time." Mrs. Twist
said to
Ennis.
"We met in '63. Long time ago." Ennis forked
another spoonful of
mashed potatoes into his mouth.
"That
is a long time; near 20 years now." she agreed. "I think
that's
just wonderful; you're stayin close like that."
Jack
and Ennis exchanged looks; Ennis puzzled; Jack with a 'cat that
ate
the canary' grin.
"You didn't eat much, Jackie!" His momma chastised him.
"Haven't had much of an appetite the
last few days. This will all
save. We can finish it off tomorrow."
Jack offered.
"I guess you won't be wantin any cake right
now then. We can have
some later."
"It's
beautiful, Momma. I love all those little blue flowers you put
on
it. I'll have some later, OK."
"Oh, I know you will.
We never had any cake go to waste while you're
'round." She
smiled at him and put the cake back on the cupboard.
Ennis
stood up and helped clear the table; Mrs. Twist smiling at him
all
the way.
"Such good manners, Ennis. Your Momma brought
you up right." She
complimented him.
"Yes, Ma'am.
We always helped clear the table." He answered then sat
back
down while Jack finished his tea.
"It's a shame the two
of you live so far away." Mrs. Twist said,
joining them with
another glass of tea for herself.
"Yeah, Momma. It's a long drive." Jack looked from her to Ennis.
"You
know, this place is rightfully yours, come down from my family,
its
way too much for your Pa to handle. Always has been. You ever
decide
you want it; it's yours for the takin."
Jack and Ennis looked at each other but said nothing.
"It's be a nice
place to settle," she went on," Only 30 minutes from
town.
Lightnin Flat is a nice little town; good people all through
Not a
bad one in the bunch." She swirled the tea in her glass and
the
ice tinkled. "I got some money put up. When your uncle
Harold died.
He left half-share of his place to me. His son didn't
want the place and sold
it right off so he could get back to Denver. Brought in a pretty
penny too.
It's been sittin in the bank for 14, 15 years now
collectin interest.
Your Pa hated Harold, wouldn't even go to the
funeral or the readin
afterwards. He don't even know nothin 'bout
it. It'd be more than
enough to stock this place; make some
improvements." She looked from
Jack to Ennis. "Of
course, you couldn't do it alone. You'd need
help." She
looked from one to the other. "It's something to think
'bout."
"Pa would have a fit and you know it!" Jack said, taking her meaning.
"So let him. He blows steam all the
time anyway and what does it get
him? Can't say nothin he ain't
already said before."
She carried her empty glass to the
sink, walked around the table and
kissed Jack on the top of his
head. "That's the only place I can kiss
you, that's not
scraped or bruised or bandaged!" She smiled at Ennis
and left
the room.
"She for real?" Ennis asked in a near whisper.
"That she is, my Friend. It's something to think
about. I got a nice
chunk of money saved up too. What I lack is
the know-how; the
experience." He finished off his tea and
handed the empty glass to
Ennis. He took it, put it in the sink
and came back to the table.
"You're not thinkin crazy
thoughts again, are you?" Ennis grinned at
him, happy to see
him feeling better.
"Don't see nothin crazy 'bout it."
Jack countered. "It'd be perfect
solution. I wouldn't have
those long drives any more and you wouldn't
have to worry about
bein laid off every time stock prices drop. This
is a big place,
Ennis. Plenty of room for a nice size herd and we
could get some
horses goin too. You know you got the eye when it
comes to pickin
out stock. We got plenty of pasture land. Pa ain't
been usin but a
fraction of this place. I don't know nothin much
about ranchin
cause I took off before I ever got the chance to learn,
but one
thing I did learn in Childress is I got a good head for
business.
Just listenin to and watchin Lureen, she's a whiz at that
stuff. I
know about studying the market, how to sell, what to lookout
for;
and I got a good head for the books too. What I don't have is
what
you have. All those years of knowledge and experience. We could
make
a go of it, I know we could."
"Beef prices ain't what they used to be." Ennis warned.
"I know that.
We wouldn't be in it to make a killin. Maybe we could
specialize.
Nothin but the high priced beef. Sell to these quality
buyers. We
could specialize in breeders. You know how to pick them.
The last
bull Pa brought in here wasn't a bit interested in doin his
job.
Hope this new one he's buyin is better suited. Horses still
bring
a good dollar. We could do both; got more than enough room."
"I do know stock." Ennis admitted.
"We could build us a
cabin, or use the upstairs. The folks ain't
used it in years.
This is a big old house; plenty of room."
"Don't
know about that." Ennis didn't like the idea of staying
under
the same roof as Mr. Twist.
"We could pull your
trailer up here; stay in it till we get a place
built. It would
mean we could be together. You could look after me;
see that I
don't run into any more trees." The last he said with a
little
chuckle; but there was a spark of hope in his eyes. This was
the
first time they actually talked about the possibility of
living
together without Ennis clamping down immediately.
"You
do need someone lookin after you!" Ennis agreed and reached
over
and rubbed the fingers sticking out of the cast on Jack's
left arm.
Jack saw his chance and went for it. "I do need
you, Ennis, now, more
than ever."
"All these
years, I kept sayin no to you cause I was 'fraid someone
might
find out and hurt you; kill you. Didn't want that to happen.
Now
you go and almost get yourself killed anyway." He smoothed
a
crease in the table cloth, staring at it.
"An
accident was bound to happen sooner or later, all that drivin."
Jack said.
"What 'bout your family?" Ennis looked up at him.
"Bobby's off to college in a few
months; last time I talked to Lureen
she was talkin 'bout maybe
sellin the business. She always wanted to
travel but I don't like
that flyin. She loves it. Wants to see the
world. All I want to
see is you; and Momma."
"You couldn't live with your
Pa before; what makes you think you can
live with him now?"
Ennis asked.
"I ain't 14 no more, Ennis. I'm as big as he
is. He lay a hand on my
again, he'll get it right back."
"You can't touch your Pa, Jack."
"Long as he keeps his
hands off me, I won't. I do need to warn you
though. He's a mean
old bastard; got a mouth on him like a snake;
always spittin out
his venom. Might be hard for you to take."
"He got a gun?"
"Yeah, but it ain't been fired in 30, 40
years. He won't do nothin
that serious. He knows Momma wouldn't
stand for it. She's still got
3 or 4 brothers left around
somewhere. He do her or her son and harm
and they'd take care of
him good. I heard them tell him so, years ago
before I left. He
never did get on with them so they been scarce
'round here but
they're out there and Momma wouldn't hesitate to call
on them if
she needed to." He stretched and groaned at the same time.
"We
need to get you back on that couch. C'mon." Ennis helped him
up
and they made their way slowly back to the front room.
Mrs.
Twist had made the couch up with clean sheets. She was just
finishing
when they came in.
"It's almost 8:00, Jackie, don't
forget to take your pills." She gave
his pillow one last
fluff as he sat down.
"I won't, Momma. I'll take them
right now." Ennis opened the
container for him and dropped
two pills into his hand. One gulp of
water and they were
gone.
"Ennis, there's a couch in the parlor, I made up
for you. It's just
across the hall."
"Thank you,
Ma'am. If it's all the same to you, I'd rather just stay
in here.
That chair will be just fine."
"Well, certainly it's
alright with me. It does recline. Let me get
the pillow and
blanket for you. You'll be more comfortable."
"I
appreciate it." He helped Jack to lie down and fixed the
pillows
under his leg and one under the broken arm. "That
better?"
"Oh yeah. Thanks. Sure is nice havin you
here. Didn't think I'd be
seein you again for months."
"I know. Things happen."
"They do for a fact." He
settled down into the comfort of the opened
out couch and Ennis
pulled the blanket up over him.
Ennis took the pillow and
blanket from Mrs. Twist and she disappeared
into the kitchen for
the clean up. Jack was fading fast from the
pills, he could tell.
Those beautiful blue eyes were fluttering closed.
'Ennis?"
"Yeah? I'm right here. What do you need?"
"Think about it?" he asked sleepily.
"That's a promise. Sleep now. If you
need me, hollar and I'll wake
up." He fingered the dark hair
and placed a soft kiss there; then
pulled the recliner over
closer to the couch so he'd be sure to hear.
He used the restroom then pulled off his boots and settled
himself
into the recliner, leaning it back. He was comfortable but
there was
no way he was ready for sleep. He had a lot to think
about.
What he'd said earlier was true. He had spent years
worrying about
someone finding out about him and Jack and killing
them for it. But
what he feared most was Jack being killed because
of him. He had to
let himself think about that. What it would be
like without Jack. No
more fishing trips; no more snuggling in
that little tent up in the
mountains; no more Jack welcoming him
with open arms when he showed up
at the campsite, no more of the
incendiary sex the two of them shared;
no more of Jack's special
smile that was just for him; no more Jack.
Ever.
He shook his
head and roused himself from those thoughts. That
couldn't happen.
He wouldn't let it. He'd keep Jack alive if it was
the last thing
he ever did!
Then his thoughts drifted in the opposite direction.
Could they
really live together and not get caught? Could they
really just move
in here and take this place over? It sure enough
needed someone to
look after it. The old man had done a piss-poor
job of it all these
years. Jack had said once that it was 350
acres. That would be
plenty big enough for a nice sized herd; not
enough to get rich on but
they weren'l looking for that anyway. It
could surely generate enough
cash to make a go of it. And it would
be nice to be able to do a
little horse breeding; something he had
always wanted to do. There
was always a good market for horses. He
wouldn't want to live in the
house though; not with the old man
there. He liked the idea of a
cabin. He had done quite a bit of
carpentry in his time; building
sheds, porches, chicken coops,
decks; and he had worked one year at
Haley's Construction and they
had added a couple rooms on people's
houses. He knew the
fundamentals of carpentry. They could hire out
the plumbing and
electrics. It would be a new experience for him. He
liked learning
new things. They could pull his trailer up there and
stay in it
until the cabin was ready.
Jack had gone on and on before about
getting a cabin kit. He had even
brought some magazines showing
the different layouts. It's all
delivered in pieces and you put it
together yourself; or hire it
done. He figured they could handle
it; him and Jack.
Him and Jack, living together. The thought
sent shivers through him
and he pulled the blanket up closer
around him. He glanced over at
Jack, sleeping like a baby. He
thought about them sleeping together,
wrapped around each other;
how good it felt to wake up with Jack's
head on his shoulder;
Jack's arm around him. The thought of them
being like that, every
night for the rest of their lives. No getting
up in the morning
and driving hours and hours in different directiions
away from
each other. No more lying awake at night wondering where
he was
and what he was doing and if he was with someone else.
It's funny,
he never even thought about Jack getting into an
automobile
accident; all those hours and hours of driving; he was
right. It
was only a matter of time before something like this
happened.
They were lucky it happened so close to home; to a city
where a
hospital was close by. It could have so easily turned out the
other
way. Mrs. Twist might have been calling him to come to
Jack's
funeral.
He shook that thought from his head and
changed positions in the chair
so he could lay there and stare at
Jack. His Jack. My Jack; my Jack.
He drifted off to sleep.
It had been a rough night. Jack woke up several times in pain.
Ennis
gave him his pills at midnight, then again at 4:00. Mrs.
Twist was
right. Jack should still be in a hospital where someone
could be
looking after him. He needed help and he needed it
now.
His decision made he drifted back to sleep and was
awakened by the
smell of coffee filling his nostrils. He barely
opened his eyes when
the smell turned to bacon. He was starved! He
threw the blanket off
and got up. Jack was still sleeping. Poor
thing hadn't gotten much
sleep.
Ennis used the rest room
and poked his head into the kitchen where Mrs.
Twist was working
over the stove. "Mornin," she called out.
"Sure could use a cup of that coffee, Ma'am."
"Come on and
get you some." She poured him a cup and handed it to
him.
"How'd he do last night?"
"He did fine." he lied.
"I appreciate you sitting with him. That was the
first night's sleep
I had since he got home." She sipped her
coffee.
"He needs someone lookin after him right now,
full time." Ennis
guaged her reaction to his
comment.
"You're right 'bout that. I do what I can for
him but he doesn't want
me helpin him...you know...with
personal things. I know he needs a
bath but there's no way I could
do that for him. Do you think you
could help him with one before
you leave?"
"Sure enough. Soon as he wakes up."
"Oh
that's splendid! We'll get some breakfast into him first then you
can
tackle that. You can do it right there in the front room. I'll
bring
some towels and some warm water in. I really appreciate this,
Ennis.
He'll feel so much better. He always was one for a bath every
night
before bed."
"You think his Pa would help out when
he gets home?" Ennis knew the
answer to that question as soon
as he asked it. He could see it in
her face.
"Well, he
don't much like bein 'round sick people." She wandered
away,
avoiding his eyes.
"He ain't sick, he's hurt."
"Don't
make no difference. He left on this bull-buyin trip the day
Jackie
came home from the hospital. Had to get the neighbors to help
drive
him home. He'll keep his distance; stay busy outside so's I
can't
ask for his help."
"I'd better go see to him, Ma'am. Thanks for the coffee."
"I'll have a full breakfast
ready in about 10 minutes." she called
after him.
Jack
was struggling to sit up when he got back to the front room.
He
hurried to him and helped him up.
"Momma got breakfast
going?" Jack smiled as he waddled to the bathroom
with
Ennis's help.
"That she does. We got 10 minutes."
Ennis closed the door behind
them and in exactly 10 minutes they
came out; Jack with his face
washed and teeth brushed, hair combed
and robe on.
Ennis got Jack sat down at the table and seated
himself beside him. A
huge platter was set in front of them, piled
high with bacon, hash
browns, scrambled eggs and toast. Full
coffee cups were placed before
them followed with glasses of
fresh-squeezed orange juice.
"Oh, Momma! This looks and
smells delicious. I think I'm getting my
appetite back! I feel
like I could eat that whole platter full!"
"Well
now, that's what I like to hear. Once you start eatin right
again,
you'll get your strength back in no time."
Breakfast was
a pure pleasure for all three of them. Mrs. Twist and
Ennis took
turns dishing food onto Jack's plate and cutting it for
him. They
all enjoyed each other's company; ate too much, drank too
much
coffee and talked and talked and talked. Mrs. Twist not missing
a
chance to say how much the place needed a couple of good strong
hands
to put it back in the shape it was when she was a girl. Jack
and
Ennis would just grin; Jack hoping Ennis was listening and Ennis
just
waiting for the opportunity to tell Jack what he had decided.
After
about an hour, Jack started fidgeting. He needed to get up and
move
around. Ennis noticed and suggested they get on with his bath.
Mrs.
Twist scurried around, bringing towels, basins of water and soap.
"Last one I gave a bath to was Jenny and that was at
least 10, 12
years ago. I did have an old dog I used to scrub up
'bout once a
year; smelled somethin like you." Ennis teased
and he lathered Jack
up and washed his back.
"Ohhh
that feels good! I'll make it up to you, I promise. Soon as I
get
these casts off a me, I'll give you a bath you'll never forget."
Jack
promised.
"I may just hold you to that!" Ennis said
rinsing his back off and
drying it.
"You can hold me
to anything, as long as you hold me." Jack was
trying to
steal little kisses and managed to land a few.
"Behave
now. Here you wash the good stuff." He soaped up the rag
and
put it in Jack's one good hand.
"I'd rather you wash that."
"I ain't touchin it. You wash it now so we
can get your drawers back
on."
"And if I don't
want my drawers back on?" He leaned back and spread
his
legs.
"Jack! You cut that out now. Your Momma's just down the hall!"
"She won't come in while you're washin
me. C'mere," he pulled on
Ennis's arm.
"Damn it,
Jack! I'm glad to see you're feelin better but you gotta
know I
ain't touchin you with her in the next room!"
"Yeah,
I know. I'm just teasin you. Here, give me that rag." He
washed
himself then and Ennis helped him into his undershorts and a
pair
of old cut off jeans that had been slit up the side to allow it
to
slip over the cast. Into the kitchen then and standing at the
sink,
Ennis poured some shampoo in his hands and lathered up Jack's
hair.
He bent over the sink as Ennis rinsed the suds down the drain
and
his head was wrapped in a big towel and vigorously dried.
"Oh
man! I feel so much better. I owe you big time, Friend!"
He
leaned in and gave Ennis a quick hug. Ennis didn't
resist.
"Let's get you back on the couch."
He
had gotten Jack settled back on the couch and settled himself in
the
recliner. He had given Jack another dose of his pain pills and he
was
comfortably dozing. He sat and watched him as his eyes fluttered
a
bit then closed; a small satisfied expression on his face.
He
leaned the recliner back and with one arm up behind his head, he
lay
there watching and thinking about Jack. He could hear Mrs. Twist
in
the kitchen puttering around, cleaning up the breakfast dishes.
He
knew now where Jack got all his sweetness from. He had his
Momma's
ways about him, kindness radiated from her. He wondered
what the old
man would be like. From listening to Jack and his
Momma, the old man
must really be something. It was one of the
things he had to take
into consideration. He knew he could take
any insults the old man
threw his way but he wasn't sure he could
take seeing him mistreat
Jack or his Momma.
Lots to consider
here; but in his heart, he knew he'd already made his
decision.
The ifs, ands and buts would have to work themselves out.
He
dozed off, staring at his beautiful Jack, thinking about laying
next
to him, listening to him breathe.
"WHO THE HELL ARE YOU AND WHAT THE FUCK YOU DOIN IN MY CHAIR? GET YOUR ASS UP OUTTA THERE!"
They both awoke with
a start. He could hear footsteps coming down the
steps at a fast
rate. He stood just as Mrs. Twist came into the room,
breathless,
"This here is Ennis Del Mar. He came up to see Jackie
yesterday
on his birthday," she explained.
The old man stood there,
hands on his hips, glaring at Ennis. "Well
that was
yesterday, his birthday ain't today so why he's still here?"
"Pa..."
Jack struggled to sit up. Ennis went to him, and helped him
stand,
handing him his crutches. "He's been seein to me."
"That's
all this place needs; another fairy!" he turned and went
out
into the kitchen. "I'm hungry, woman. Fix me some
lunch."
The look on Jack's face broke his heart; he
helped him sit back down.
"Ennis, I'm so sorry. I told you
what he's like. It won't get any
better." He shook his head
sadly.
"Yes, it will. It'll get better 'cause I'm gonna
be here with you to
see that it does."
Jack's eyes
snapped up to his. "You gotta be back at work in the
mornin;
you'll have to leave in a few hours."
"Maybe; maybe
not." He rested a hand on Jack's shoulder, a little
grin
turned up the corners of his mouth.
"You thinkin of stayin a while? Helpin me out?" Jack was so hopeful.
"I
was thinkin more along the lines of pullin my trailer up here;
maybe
stayin a little longer than that."
"Ennis! Oh my
God! You mean it?" He pulled Ennis down next to him on
the
couch.
"Yeah. Been doing a lot of thinkin the last two
days. You need
somebody to look after you and I think we'd both
like that somebody to
be me."
Jack tried to put both
arms around him but the cast and sling got in
the way. He ended up
grabbing the back of Ennis's head and pulling
him in for a kiss.
He pulled back, eyes searching Ennis's for any
sign than he might
change his mind.
"I meant what I said about the old man.
Every word come out of his
mouth is mean. He don't let up."
Jack warned.
"I can take anything he can dish out. Just a
little worried he might
let something slip to his friends or
neighbors; or when he's in town."
"Don't worry none
'bout that. He's so ashamed he's got a queer for a
son, he'd deny
it to his dying breath if anyone ever found out."
Jack smiled
at him.
"OK then. That's settled. When you want me here?"
"What's wrong with right now?"
"I
ain't got but one clean shirt with me and I'm wearin it. I need
to
get some clothes, tell the boss I'm quittin; tell the girls I'm
movin"
"First thing you need to get into town and
get us a new truck. I got
the insurance check already; I just
haven't been able to get out and
get one. Your's sure won't pull
your trailer."
"That's for sure. OK. I can do that. What kind you want?"
"I've had pretty good luck with
Fords. Get one of those 4-door jobs so
we can take Momma into town
now and then. How about you go into town
after lunch. I'll be
takin my pain pills then and nappin. Momma
will keep an eye on me
while you're gone. You could pick up a coupla
changes of clothes
while you're in town, so you don't have to rush
back to Riverton
right away."
"AND TELL THEM IF THEY EXPECT TO EAT AT
MY TABLE THEY BEST GET THEIR ASSES IN HERE. THIS AIN'T NO RESTAURANT
TO BE SERVIN AT THEIR PLEASURE!" Mr. Twist's voice came
bellowing down the hall as Mrs.
Twist came into the front
room.
"Lunch is ready." She was clearly nervous
about them sharing a table
with the old man.
Ennis helped
Jack to his feet, grabbed the bottle of pain pills and
into the
kitchen they went. He smiled at Mrs. Twist and thanked her.
They
took their seats and Mrs. Twist placed a bowl of stew in front
of
each of them. A large bowl of bisquits sat in the middle of
the
table; glasses of sweet tea all around.
"You best
be at this table on time from now on or you'll go without."
the
old man snorted and dug into his food.
"Momma, Ennis is going into town after lunch and get me a new truck."
"So
you're Mr. Money bags? You got enough money for a new truck, you
can
pay for your keep. Groceries cost money!" The old man barked
at
Ennis.
"Pa, I got the insurance check the other
day. That'll pay for most of
it. What it don't cover, I got in the
bank."
"Didn't think he looked like he had two
nickles to rub together.
Never did see a fairy with
money."
Ennis just stared back at the old man, matching
him glare for glare,
biding his time.
"I wouldn't just
hand all that money over to him. He's lible to take
off with
it."
Ennis stared at him for a minute then threw his head back and laughed.
"I like your Pa, Jack. He's got one heck of a sense of humor.
You
were makein a joke there, weren't you? 'cause I'd sure hate to
start
out my first day livin here havin to kick your ass!" He
sobered up
and glared across the table at the old man, his last
words were spit
out through clenched teeth.
Jack let out a
little gasp; Mrs. Twist's hand went up to her throat;
the old man
threw his napkin down and left the table.
"I guess he
didn't want any cake?" Ennis said innocently. "You got
any
of that birthday cake left? I'd sure like another slice."
Jack
and his Momma exchanged glances; gulped and grinned at the same
time.
"Why yes we do. We hardly put a dent in it last night! You
ready
for some Jackie?" She got up and went to the cupboard and cut
a
slice of cake.
"I will be by the time you get it
over here." He scraped his bowl
clean and finished his
biscuit.
She came back to the table with two plates of cake;
and a deep
satisfied grin on her face. "You mean what you
said? You're stayin?"
Same hopeful expression he had seen
earlier on Jack. Their features
were different; but their
expressions were the same.
"I mean it. I'll have to go
back in a day or two and hook up my
trailer and haul it up here;
and another trip later on to get my
horses."
"You have horses? Jackie always loved horses!"
"We're
thinkin of maybe breedin horses, Momma; and of course,
increasin
the heard."
"Oh my goodness!" she put both her
hands to her mouth. "You really
gonna do this? You gonna move
back home?"
"Yes, Momma. This is where I belong;
it's where I always wanted to
be. No place else ever been home to
me."
"And you, Ennis? You really gonna move up here?
It's what Jackie's
been talkin 'bout for years and years
now!"
"Yes, Ma'am. Jack and me been talkin 'bout a
place for years. Didn't
realize he already had one just waitin for
him."
"Well this place is his! It's all in the
papers; in the deed in the
safety deposit box at the bank. I'm
gonna call Cynthia Jessup at the
bank and have her transfer that
money into your account, Jackie. This
place needs a lot of work
and it won't be cheap."
"I got money, Momma."
"So
do I. It's gonna take it all probably but it'll be worth it to
see
this place up and runnin again. We're gonna need a new tractor,
and
new fencin before you can even think of putting more stock on
this
place. The barn needs work too. It's got a coupla stalls just
being
used for storage can be cleaned out and used for the horses.
How many
you got?"
"Two. I can take a look at the
barn and see what needs doin. In the
mean time the horses can stay
where they are. Their board is paid
through the end of the
month."
"Oh that's good. That will give us time to
get the place ready for
them. This is so excitin! We better make a
list, make sure we don't
forget nothin." She set about
digging through drawers looking for a
pad and pencil.
"I think she approves." Ennis said, placing a hand over Jack's.
"I'd say so." his voice choked with emotion.
"You OK, Bud?"
"You sure you
won't mind spendin the rest of your life with a Momma's
Boy?"
Ennis grinned, "I was thinkin of askin you the same thing."
"I love you Ennis. I always have."
"I love you too,
Jack; I think I always knew it; just afraid to admit
it. Don't
know how this is going to work out, but I'm willin to try.
Should
be interesting."
Jack laughed a little and shook his
head, "Interesting is an
understatement!"
The End
