Last Letter

Summary: A while after Bella's evening with Jessica in New Moon she discovers a letter from Alice.

Disclaimer:I do not own Twilight.

I woke in the middle of the night, sitting up in a cold sweat, screaming from the recurring nightmare, and scanning the room, seeing only because of the moonlight streaming in through the window.

This has been happening so often now that I have to wonder if it will ever stop. The possibility cheered me for a second until I remembered why this was happening in the first place.

Before the sudden wave of pain caused by the horrific memory could incapacitate me completely, I quickly got off the bed in a weak attempt to escape the raw throbbing in my empty chest.

And then I tripped.

For once my clumsiness was helpful, it distracted me enough from the things going on in my head. I didn't feel the impact as my head hit the floor so it didn't take me long to pick myself up off the ground. As I was getting up something caught my eye from under the bed.

Grateful for any excuse to avoid the nightmare and the pain, I lay down and reached for whatever was there. I felt around until my hand touched something papery, figuring that that was what I saw I pulled it out.

I edged closer to the window to examine what turned out to be an envelope, in the full light of the moon.

On the front of the envelope, my name was written in a clear and elegant script that I recognized immediately. I was torn between pain and curiosity, finally deciding that Alice would have seen if there were any extreme effects before hiding it here, and opened the envelope.

Dear Bella,

I am truly sorry I couldn't give you a proper goodbye.

As I am sure Edward has already told you he thought you would be better off if you had a clean break.

I didn't agree with him, which is something I don't see myself doing, but Jasper did and he was already feeling so guilty, he thinks he's the reason we had to leave, and I didn't want to make him feel worse.

Anyway, I wanted to make up for just leaving silently like that in this letter.

I also wanted you to know that I am completely against his decision. At first I tried to get him to change his mind then I realized that he'll decide to come back sooner or later; he just isn't strong enough to stay away from you no matter what he thinks now.

I am sure you have somehow managed to convince yourself that he left because he didn't care about you anymore or something as ridiculous as that, and knowing you you've probably closed yourself off from the outside world. Just please try to hold yourself together until he comes to his senses, don't go jumping off cliffs or anything.

Well I can't think of anything else to say other than the fact that I'll miss you and I'll see you when we get back.

Your best friend and sister forever; Alice Cullen.

P.S.: If you're wondering how this letter got there, I hid it under your bed the day Jasper and I left and made sure that neither he nor Edward never knew about it.

When I finished the letter I realized that the moisture that had accumulated in my eyes while reading had spilled over. I instantly knew why.

It was because I wanted to believe what Alice had written in her letter, that he cared about me and that they would return. I know better, I know that they will never return but the letter still managed to give me hope that they will. I can't afford to hold onto that hope, I would only end up dissapointed, and I don't think I can take any more dissapointment.

I hid the letter in a drawer and got back into the bed.

It was time to get back to reality, to get back to the nightmare.

A/N: Finally done! I wrote this because I didn't like the fact that Alice just left without saying a word to Bella. So I hope that anyone who read this enjoyed it and if so please review.