Suicide:A Short Story

by Joey Ripley

Last night on Facebook, Jonothan Reins finally 'came out' to everyone. He felt nervous. He felt sick. He shut the computer off so fast after pressing 'Enter' that he didn't even see the notification. "Why did I do that? Oh yeah. To get the secret out. To start fresh. Everything will be alright. Everything." Jonothan thought to himself, while getting ready for bed. He was timid about going to bed. His heart raced so fast he could see the beating coming through his shirt. He was nervous. He was sick. He ran into the bathroom to throw up, but nothing came out. He was shaking so badly. He went over to the sink and splashed water onto his face. He was preparing himself for tomorrow. He didn't know what would happen. He eventually, after what seemed like 2 hours closed his eyes, and fell asleep.

Jonothan woke up at 4:30AM in cold sweat. He'd just had a dream about his friends stabbing him in the stomach, and watching him die slowly. It was brutal. He was shaking again. It was only a dream. Jonothan told himself. He went straight to his computer and turned it on. His blood ran fast in his veins, he typed in his log-in and password.

**34 NOTIFICATIONS/10 MESSAGES**

Dare he click messages first? No, he went to notifications, and saw they were all comments on his status. He read the first few, and stopped.

Samuel Wells: Fag. i knew u were gay.

Timothy Rickah: God hates you.

Greg Wells: go kill yourself stupid homo.

Jonothan's head was hurting. He didn't understand how people could be so cruel. This was the first time he thought about killing himself. And it was all because of Greg Wells. Greg and Samuel Wells are Brothers, twins to be exact. And they both play sports and are always Co-Captains. Greg and Jonothan had never really liked each other, since 1st grade, they just weren't fond of each other. Jonothan knew that Greg and Samuel together could beat him up if he tried to fight back. That's how the Wells' twins were, you fight back.. you get beaten up twice as hard. Jonothan sat there, staring at the computer screen. He didn't know what to do. He decided that he'd put it behind him, "I mean, they are always joking around. It'll be fine. It's just a joke. It'll subside." Jonothan thought to himself with hope. Hope. Remember that word. It'll come up again later.

Jonothan looked at the clock, and he was supposedly sitting there thinking for 3 hours because it was already 7:20. He grabbed his schoolbag and headed out the door. He didn't live too far away from school, so he always walked. He always walked with friends, and they'd talk about things, and have fun. But today was different. None of his friends waited for him like usual. "It's okay... I can walk alone. It'll be fine." He thought to himself walking across the street passing the place his friends always met him. Alone. Remember that word too. It too will re-appear.

When Jonothan made it to school, he was almost late, everyone had already went to class, but the late bell hadn't rung yet. The halls were empty, Jonothan felt eerily alone. Physically alone. The kind of alone no one wants to be at first. (At first). As Jonothan made his way through the almost palpable silence. He could almost feel the silence closing in on him, until he heard the bell ring right before he walked into class.

"Late! Detention, Mr. Reins." Mr. Corine, the English teacher said. As soon as he said "" everyone stopped talking. Jonothan felt like the whole room had their eyes on him. And they did. He heard whispers. Snickers. Jonothan took a seat near his friend Zack, and whispered, "Hey, you guys left without me this morning. What's up with that?" but got hushed by the teacher, and quit tryng to talk to Zack. After class Jonothan caught up with Zack at their lockers, because Zack's locker was right next to Jonothan's locker, Jonothan asked, "Dude! Why are you ignoring me?" In an almost hurt voice. Zack looked behind Jonothan, and saw Samuel Wells making a mocking heart shape with his hands toward Zack and Jonothan. Zack rolled his eyes, ignored Jonothan's question, and shoved Jonothan to the floor on his way past. Samuel walked over and said a loud, "Awwweee got rejected by his wittle boyfwiend huh?", and laughed with his friends, he crumpled a piece of paper, and threw it at Jonothan's face. Jonothan uncrumples the piece of paper, it reads, "Fag" with a pretty detailed drawing of a male genetalia.

Jonothan recrumples the paper, "Pretty good drawing of one of these for a straight guy." he remarks in his mind. He feels like he's falling. But he doesn't hit the floor, the floor turns into a mist and he keeps falling, into darkness. Jonothan wakes up in a cot.

"Honey, are you okay?" A female voice says. It's Jan, the school nurse. Jonothan is in the Health Clinic at school. "What happened?" Jonothan asked.
"Well, I heard you got sassy with one of the Wells twins." she replied. Turns out, he hadn't said those words in his mind. Now Jonothon felt sick again. But this time, a scared type of sick.