What If…
What if I saw you every day?
And noticed nothing at all.
What if you sent me signals and signs?
That you were about to fall.
What if I saw you as the Ice Queen?
Cool, cold, and hard.
What if your diamond-hard coating
Simply broke away in shards
What If all of your masks and roles
Began to twist away
What if you were weakening steadily?
And soon you would just fade out someday
What if I was told to care for you?
For, you were slowly weakening to death
What if you wanted to remain away from me?
But knew that a spy needs her health
What if I saw you, tortured and broken?
Trapped in your own, personal hell
What if you were lost and dying?
In a place where you could be cured with no spell
What if that was the first time I saw you cry
While you were begging for the end
What if for the first time I was praying
That you had not gone round the bend
What If I found out what was happening?
And I knew what was being done
What if I thought the pain was your entire fault
And from my heart you were therefore shunned
What if I realized that I was wrong
And I wanted to end your pain
What if I had already forced you away?
Rather than approach me, you'd hang
What if I offered you a partnership?
Just between you and me
What if I did it on your terms?
Then could we end the hating, maybe?
What if your guard was never fully let down?
But we could still work, tease, and play
What if although around me you never felt fully safe?
You could still be somewhat gay
What If I then taught you my secrets?
How to punch, kick, and throw knives
What if helped you grow stronger?
Through your life of hard dips and dives
What if we spent our first Christmas together?
And we still played and did jest
What if I began to realize that?
You deserve only the best
What if one night you came to me?
Bloody, wounded, and trapped behind screaming walls
What if you said that you trusted me?
And quaked in my arms, while bleeding falls
What if I healed your wounds?
And watched fall asleep, wrapped in a nightmare tight
What if I held you close and lay down beside you?
And you soft breathing told me it would be alright
What if I found that I needed you?
And you were the centre of my world
What If I watched you sleeping?
Close to me you were curled
What if you woke, angry and wary?
You thought I had crossed a line
What if you wanted to leave me and never return?
I need you to stay, you are mine.
What If then you thought I knew nothing of pain?
Of scars, or of hurt
What if you were wrong about that?
To prove it I ripped off my shirt
What if then you saw for the first time my pain?
The scars that criss-crossed my front and back
What if you thought of who did this to you and I?
A heart they must surely lack
What if you decided to stay with me?
You let your guard drop to the ground
What if we began to laugh and play?
You learned that I would never let you down
What if I told you that I loved you?
And that I really, truly cared
What if I had truly, madly, deeply fallen for you?
Please let me from your wrath be spared
What if for the first time I felt your embrace
Warm and comforting against my skin
What if that felt completely right?
It felt better than a glass of gin
What if I asked to kiss you?
And then you told me yes
What if we both loved every second of it?
And enjoyed the other's lips' caress
What if we lay down together?
And you did not struggle, nor fight
What if we just laid down and slept together
And got the best sleep we'd had in nights
What if I told you I love you?
And you said you love me back?
What if we became stronger together?
With a deep bond that nothing could hack
What you finally told me the truth
The story behind your terrible plight
What if I told you "If he hurts you I'll kill him."
And I swore for you, I'd fight.
What if we made a plan?
And started to end the war
What if I could not distract myself from your kiss?
And I always wanted more
What if we went public?
Told everyone we were in love
What if they accepted us and that fact?
And they said we were like two doves
What if this never ended?
We could stay like this forevermore
What if we loved, each other always
Even when knocking on Death's door
What If…