Why have I gone away?
Now you're all alone. As alone as Kankuro.
Naruto…Naruto!
I know. I made a mistake. I went away. I went to Orochimaru.
But you didn't understand. No. You didn't.
I did it for you too.
For you…but for me too. Ergo for us.
I did it for us!
If I could I would have defeated Itachi.
Kill him.
The Power.
Who do I want to fool?
It wasn't for power, Naruto.
It was something deeper.
Something that I cherished nearly as you.
And that somehow concerned you.
Because you are first.
My vengeance comes after you. You are the first.
It was something you were to naïve to understand.
Only Orochimaru can help me get it.
I turned away from you, yes, but only to look at you more aware of everything.
You asked me…"Why?"
You told me "I love you anyway."
But I turned away from you.
How could I reply?
You couldn't understand.
How could I answer, letting out my egoism?
No, better. Not "ego". "nos"
I take that back.
How could I answer, letting out my nosism?
Why were you crying? Couldn't you see?
Did you really want to see?
I loved you. I love you. I will love you. I have loved you. I would love you. If I only loved you. If I would still be loving you. If I had been loving you.
Find someone else who learns all those tenses for you!
Present simple, ok. Even the past perfect. BUT PAST PERFECT CONTINUOUS! Look, I even made up some non existing tenses, all for you!
What was I saying? I lost track…
Ah yeash…couldn't you see?
But I didn't have the heart to tell you.
With what heart could I tell you?
I couldn't. I tried hard, even with my liver and both lungs.
With my kidneys. With the intestines.
But nothing good came out of it. You just hated Orochimaru.
So I decided not to tell you.
But now…now it's four o'clock in the morning.
I don't sleep and I think about you.
And because Kabuto's rave is not over yet.
Now that I don't have anyone else.
Now that you listen to my heart.
Or lungs, or kidney…whatever you choose.
I ask you. How could I tell you that
OROCHIMARU PROMISED ME A BUCKET OF AKATSUKI-LIKE NAIL POLISH!
Sorry, I just couldn't resist XD
With all those depressive, sad introspectives….it was funny to write! Less funny to translate though