Hey everyone, if there still someone out there. So this is something I wrote a long time ago (ten years give or take) - as well as all of my stories and along the way I neglected them. Recently I started thinking about writing again (totally for my personal enjoyment) and what place better then here so you can enjoy it as well - again if you still out there. I decided to continue one of my jate stories and this one won. I was excited to reread it and felt bad that I never got the chance to finish or ever take it forward. So I started with rewriting the first two episodes and continued with a few episodes a head so I'll have a few of them to update in case life just gets a hold on me. So enjoy, and please tell me what you think or if someone reading this at all.

p.s.: I apologize in advance for any English mistakes I'm really trying

Summary: AU. What if Jack and Kate were married before the crash with a little girl but life isn't perfect and What if Jack and Kate get separated just before the crash. Totally Jate, with some sad and fluffy moments.

I don't own Jack, Kate or the island. Just my words and Eli. I do own Eli :)

Dark and quiet- that's it, that's all it was now. At first she didn't remembered what happened, where was she? She was afraid to open her eyes. But slowly the memories rushed back. The shouting, the movements, the fear all around her. She was slowly drifting to full consciousness and things became clearer, although she still hadn't opened her eyes. She was trying to remember the last thing that happened and the small hand that was squeezing hers tight, came back to her. She immediately opened her eyes and look to her side, expecting to see that little girl, but the only thing that she saw was high grass. Only then she was aware to the fact that she was lying. She looked to her other side fast, to see maybe the little girl was there, but again only grass. The fear was getting stronger; the little girl wasn't next to her. She tried to get up but the pain was too much. She just looked up to the sky, and took a deep breath before getting up and running.

She could barely breathe; she ran so fast just thinking about them. But finally she got to the beach. She looked around her, parts of the plane were everywhere, and people were shouting and crying all around. Tears were coming to her eyes too, but she tried to push them a way. She looked around and started to run, "Eli!"

She opened her eyes and saw her dark room, she turned to the other side of the bed but there was no one there, as usual. The only thing that lighted the room was the alarm clock; she looked at it and saw it was 1:45am .She turned to look at the ceiling again, sighed and got up. Her head was hurting so much so she went to the kitchen to take some aspirin. As she walked back to her room she stopped at the enters of the room next to hers, quietly opening the door she walked in towards the small bed, a smile appeared on her face as always when she looked at her daughter. Elizabeth.

"Eli!", Kate kept yelling, "Eli!"

"Mommy!", Kate suddenly heard behind her, she quickly turned around to see her little girl running towards her. Kate immediately started to run over her, lifted and hugged her tightly.

"My baby! Thank god!", Kate's eyes were full with tears as well as Eli's. She pulled her a little to look at her, but not too much; she still needed to feel her small body next to hers. She looked at her daughter's small face, her big green eyes looked back at her, tears stream down her freckled cheeks, her small clothes were torn and her brown curly hair was a mass. She hugged her again, "god I was so worried about you!, are you ok?"

"Yes mammy, Claire took care of me", she hugged her back.

"Who?", Kate looked at her.

"Hey" someone say behind her and turned around to see a young, pregnant, blond girl, "hi I'm Claire, I'm so happy you're ok, she wanted to find you but I didn't know if it will be for the best, you know.. If you were ok"

"Thank you so much for taking care of her", Kate said, can't stop touching her daughter still making sure she was in one piece.

"You should probably lie down.. Your wounds don't look so good", Claire said while looking at Kate's legs.

"No.. No I can't. I have to find him..", Kate looked around talking mostly to herself.

"Mommy, where's daddy?" Eli asked.

Kate looked at her daughter once again and didn't know what to say… "I..I don't know sweetie"

"Eli!. Eli! Come on we'll be late!"

"I'm coming mom!", Eli called and ran into the living room.

"Are you ready?", Kate look at her with a small smile.

"Yes mommy"

"Good, come on let's go finish breakfast", she lifted her up and went into the kitchen to find her husband. He was sitting with his head in his hands, wearing only his sweatpants with a cap of coffee next to him.

"Jack!, are you kidding me? We're going to miss the flight!" Kate said while putting Eli in her chair so she could continue eating her breakfast.

"Kate, please, I just woke up.. And I think my head is going to explode", Jack mumbled still not looking at her.

"Well, that's what happened when you come back from work at 3 in the morning!, what your dad said it was this time?" She crossed her hands and looked at him directly.

"Kate, not again, my father had nothing to do with it OK!", Jack raised his voice and finally looked at her.

Kate took a big breath and turn to talk sweetly to her daughter, "Sweetie, why don't you go play a little, your father and I need to talk" Eli immediately ran to the living room happy to go back to her toys.

Kate turned around to look at her husband disappointedly, "Do you want to fight over this again!" she raised her voice as well. "Jack we both know what your father thinks of me .." to that statement Jack stood up angry. trying to create as much as distant from her as possible without leaving the room, "JACK!", Kate followed him around the kitchen determined to make her point and maybe this time he'll listen. "You know as well as I that your father did and continue doing everything to separate us!

"What, Do you really think that MY father cause the car accident yesterday, that HE MADE those idiot boys drink so much that they crash into three cars before crashing themselves into a brick wall!?", Jack yelled, eyes red not with anger but exhaustion and frustration.

"No!", she yelled back, "But I really think that he's giving you more hours at the hospital!, which costing you the hours with your daughter! Not to mention that you never sleep or eat properly!"

Jack turned around not able to look at her and sigh, he knew she was right. He was tired all the time and he never had time to spend with Eli or Kate. He was becoming his father and it scared him. Suddenly he felt her arms wrapping around him from behind and he turned his head a little so he could see her, her eyes were full with worry and love not anger. He leaned his head over hers and sighed again.

"I'm worried about you, you know.. And I miss you… we both do", Kate said quietly.

Jack turned around to hold her and lowered his hands to her hips, "I know .. And I miss you to. Both of you", he looked at her sadly and the look in her eyes only made him feel worse. She was his life, his peace and sometimes he felt like he did not deserve her love or forgiveness. This argument was not something new or he did not felt himself. He knew she was right and that most of their bumps in their relationship were caused by his father, a complex subject as it is.

"You promise me that when we'll come back from this vacation, you'll talk to your father?", she look deep in his eyes.

Jack nodded and said, "I promise", 'he has to' he thought and hugged her tight, "I'm sorry I yelled at you, and I'm sorry I came back late yesterday"

"I'm sorry I yelled at you too", Kate stroked his cheeks and kissed him deeply. Suddenly a small voice interrupted them from behind.

"Did you two made up?", they broke the kiss and started to laugh at the small girl that was standing at the doorway smiling at them. They ran towards her and started to tickle her all over.

It was night, and a few people were sitting near the fires. Kate was sitting next to Claire and looking at Eli that was standing closer to the fire.

"I'm sorry… about your husband", Claire broke the silence and looked at her sadly.

"Don't be, you don't know if his dead", Kate said without moving her gaze from Eli.

"Amm.. Yeah but.. You know the plane's tail.."

"The plane's tail isn't here! There may be survivors!", Kate raised her voice but then she tried to calm herself down, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to…"

"It's ok, I totally understand", Claire cut her off and smiled.

Then Kate felt Eli lying next to her on the blanket and smile, "someone's getting sleepy.." she stroked her back, amazed how that little girl can make everything feel better.

"I'm tired mommy.." Eli yawned.

"I can see that.. Come on let's go to sleep", Kate lied next to her pulling her towards her.

"I can't", Eli sat up suddenly looking at her mother deep in her thoughts.

Kate looked at her, "But you just said that you were tired.."

"I am, mommy, but I can't go to sleep without saying good night to daddy!"

Kate didn't know what to say, she was right, every night she would have to say "good night" and "I love you" to both of them, even if Jack was at the hospital she would call him and tell him over the phone or leave him a message, it was their routine.

"GOOD NIGHT DADDY!" Eli suddenly yelled and surprised Kate, "I love you!". Eli laid back down on her blanket while tears streamed down Kate's cheeks, "Do you think he heard me, mommy?",

"I..I don't know sweetie", Kate tried to hold back her tears and lay back next to her daughter.

"I think he did", Eli smiled and cuddled closer to Kate closing her eyes, "good night mommy, I love you"

Kate kissed her hair and hugged her tight, "I love you too", looking at the stars above with tears still in her eyes, "good night Jack…I love you so much", she said like a silent prayer hoping with all her heart he was a live and closed her eyes..