In episode 38, when Black Star was feeling down from losing so many fights, what if Kid got to him before Tsubaki on the roof?
I'll fight for this ship till the very end! Death Star forever!
*words* = thoughts _
*Damn that man. My own father, lying to my face... I don't understand.*
No one would answer Kid's questions, and it was seriously starting to piss him off. There was a Kishin on the loose, for now of all times shouldn't his father be a little more upfront? Lies and secrets only ever ended badly, and for Lord Death's own son to be kept in the dark... it was not only offensive, it was hurtful.
Kid wandered aimlessly, trying to clear his head of such thoughts. He'd keep digging, but he was done for today. He needed a break from Kishin and Eibon and stupid, coffee obsessed technicians. Without really noticing he wound up on the roof, and who should he see but Black Star. The bluenette didn't seem to notice him, rather he looked very deep in thought, lying on his back staring blankly at the sky.
Kid thought he looked troubled, which was odd in and of itself, and he decided it would be nice to focus on his friend instead of his own dark thoughts for a while. Sitting cross legged beside the assassin, he spoke.
"Hello Black Star." The boy blinked, and looked at Kid with surprise. "What are you doing out here?"
"Just- thinking about how I'll surpass God." Kid frowned. Why was everyone lying to him today?
"No you aren't. What are you really thinking about?"
*What? Who does Kid think he is? What does he know?*
"It's like I said! You think you can read minds now?"
"No, but I'm your friend, I should know when something is bothering you."
*Friend? Yeah, I guess he is... I was just thinking about how he beat me before... I hated him so much then. But, I guess we are friends now.*
"Black Star?"
Said boy looked up, relaxed his face from the frown he hadn't realised was there, and noticed what appeared to be genuine concern on Kid's face. His head was tilted to the side in question, and he had leaned forward a bit to meet Black Star's eyes.
"I..." Black Star truly didn't know what to say. He never admitted weakness to anyone, barely even himself, but he couldn't deny the thoughts racing through his head. Why was he losing so much? Why wasn't he stronger? He was better than this! ... Right?
"Hey." He looked up again, and Kid's amber eyes seemed to take on a hint of... fear was it? He seemed even more worried, and those eyes silently asked him to open up to them. "Black Star... I know we've had our differences, we're complete opposites so we don't always see eye to eye, but... I consider you to be a friend, a real one. I've- goodness knows you don't need an ego boost but I'll say it anyway... I've always admired you. When we fought that first day, you were brilliant. It's a shame you didn't have your weapon with you, because I'm sure you'd have given me real trouble if you had. What I'm trying to say is, I respect you. As a meister and as a friend. I want you to know that you can confide in me. Nothing you might say will ever be repeated, I promise."
It was silent for a moment, Black Star was completely lost for words. He'd never been this 'real' with someone before. There had been hints of it here and there, mostly with Tsubaki, but nothing this serious had ever happened to him. He was always so sure, so positive, he'd never 'needed' to lean on someone before, and he'd thought he never would. Should he change that now? For Kid of all people? He didn't want to, he didn't want to be weak!
But wanting and needing are two different things. Kid was wrong when he said he didn't need an ego boost. He did, he really did. He couldn't help but think that maybe if he told Kid what was on his mind, the other boy would bestow upon him some kind of reaper wisdom and make everything better. He hated it, but he really did need some kind words right now. And if he denied himself what he needed, wouldn't that, in and of itself, be weakness? True men faced the truth, even when it was hard, right? Right...
"I've been losing a lot lately." He said finally. He kept his eyes on the ground, unable to look up as the shameful words left his lips. "I've always been so sure that I'm the best, that no one and nothing could ever beat me. I thought no matter what life threw at me, I'd face it head on and come out on top... But then that samurai, that pointy nosed old man, and you... you beat me without even trying... How am I supposed to surpass God if I can't even beat another one star meister?"
More silence, as Kid contemplated what to say next. He never imagined that this was what was bothering Black Star, it never even crossed his mind that his massive ego was anything but genuine. But after hearing that, he realised how it must feel... the bigger they are the harder they fall and all that. To think you're the best of the best, and to be torn down but your classmate, among others... that must feel awful.
"You're wrong." Kid spoke with determination. "You 'will' surpass God, Black Star. But you're still so young, you have all the time in the world to get better. That samurai has over a decade more experience than you, that old man has hundreds! And me... I'm a Grim Reaper, it takes a lot to beat one of us, and you 'will' do it one day... But not today, or tomorrow, and that's fine. It's perfectly fine, because like it or not, you're human, and humans aren't born perfect, no one is. It's stupid to critique yourself now; you're 'going' to lose, a lot, and each time you do you'll get stronger! Your story is just beginning, it'd be boring if you skipped the good stuff just to get to the end... It'll take a lot of hard work, so just keep working, Black Star, that's all you have to do."
"Kid..." Their eyes met, and before Kid could respond he found himself wrapped in a strong embrace; his face suddenly burried in Black Star's neck, his torso engulfed in warmth. He felt his face heat up, it was like Black Star and Soul's hug after he fought them, only it felt so much nicer than he thought it would. He hesitantly wrapped his arms around Black Star's shoulders, and rubbed his back soothingly. This was friendship, in its purest form. Somewhere in the back of his mind he imagined what it would be like to be more, but they were just thoughts, not anything he could act on. But in the sanctity of his mind, he could allow himself to relish in the heat and comfort of Black Star's embrace, inhale his boyish scent and feel the soft breathing against his neck.
As Black Star pulled back, he took in Kid's flushed cheeks and soft eyes, and even he noticed that that was an odd way for a friend to look after what was decidedly a brohug. Did Kid... like him?
"Thanks Kid... I didn't know you cared that much." He grinned cheekily, an odd flutter in his chest as the blush intensified and Kid huffed.
"Of course I do, what of it?"
"Nothing. Do you... want to see a movie after school?"
*W-what?*
"Do you think we should be doing things like that at a time like this?"
"I think we've earned it."
"You want to invite the others?"
"Not this time."
"... Okay."
Just a little something I couldn't get off my mind. I'm thinking of writing a second chapter of their date, because I kind of have to! I ship them SO hard you guys, they NEED to go on that date! And kiss and snuggle and be the perfect boys they are. My yaoi loving soul commands it!
:)