Sorry guys! I thought I had my laptop fixed but it is so slow and lags when I type so I've given up and am currently hijacking my youngest sister's laptop.

I'm apologizing now for any typos and such. Even though I do go back and check it, I cannot always be 100% certain I've corrected everything and as I'm on a new laptop I need to get used to typing with it. Anyway - new story. This is only my second story so please go easy on me. I am English but I am dyslexic so I do not have the best sentence structure or spelling.

ANYWAY right this is a Snape and Hermione with Lemons later on.

Newly beta'd by the amazing Aulie!

I own nothing, JK Rowling owns all :D

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Four years have passed since we won the Second Wizarding War. Voldemort has been defeated, Harry hasgone off and married Ginny and not a day has gone by when I didn't blame myself for the death of Severus Snape.

FLASHBACK

We had stood there watching.

I watched as Voldemort let that snake of his strike at professor Snape repeatedly.

I watched Snape have his moment with Harry.

I watched the 'dungeon-bat' cry as he made Harry take his tears to show him his precious memories.

I watched the boys leave, biting my lip timidly.

I couldn't just leave him. Yes, he had been horrible to me, but no one deserved to die this way. It wasn't fair, but what could I do? Almost eighteen and I knew only a few healing spells. How to stop the venom of a soul-carrying snake was not part of this limited repertoire. It looked like the last breath had passed my professor's lips. Only then did I drop to my knees, still telling myself that I had to do something.

"Accio Essence of Dittany" I whispered. My hands were shaking as I pulled open professor Snape's robes and slipped them off his body so I could get a better view of the worst of his wounds. I poured droplets of the essence over the wounds before I closed my eyes. I didn't have my wand, that was still with Harry, so I put my hand over the worst of the wounds and began to whisper soft healing charms. Nothing happened. I tried again as the tears began to fall. I could feel the magic on my fingertips. All I could do now was hope it would remove the venom but I couldn't stay. Harry needed me.

"I'm sorry" I whispered before I pulled his robes back onto his body and stood grabbing my bag before heading out of the room to see what mess they two boys had gotten themselves into...

END FLASHBACK

After the war Ronald and I decided to give our 'relationship' a go. At first, Ron was very affectionate and so very protective of me. I thought it was sweet. I was his and he was never going to let me go. He asked me to marry him before the first anniversary of Voldemort's fall.

Our marriage had started out alright, but as the years went on he became more and more possessive. He was always wanting to know where I went. Eventually, I wasn't even allowed to leave the house without his permission. When finally he decided to forbid me to go to my parents to sort their memories, the love I'd once felt for him had well and truly turned into cold hatred.

And yet, despite all he had done to me, I did not leave him. I had thought of it often, but I have never been able to go through with it.

And that pretty much brings you up to today.

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So that's just a basic summary. I'm hoping to have the next chapter out later or tomorrow. I have work in an hour so I will see if I can muster up a new chapter for you guys before that.