This is my second fanfiction story for Grey's Anatomy. I decided to do a filler for the next few months to keep us tied over between last night and the season 7 premiere in September.
Meredith took a deep breath as she saw the test. The test that held her answer to her future hours ago. She paused
looking at the test, the word pregnant looking up at her, she held back a sob. She heard Christina come in. "Derek's awake. He's asking for you." She said. I nodded my head "Okay" I
said. Before turning back to the test and throwing it in the garbage can. I sighed as I walked out of the residents lounge. I had no clue how I was going to tell him now. Even when he
was awake and laying on the table barley awake with me, I thought that the baby would brighten his day just a little bit. But now it was gone. How was I going to tell him I was pregnant.
This mourning I had been completely happy, even with Derek's mood this mourning, okay I saw his smile when I told him dirty sex at home. But I had meant to tell him then but I didn't, I
should of. I was hoping we would go home tonight, order take out. Then I would tell him and we would have lots of dirty sex, but thanks to one man that all changed. Our family had
changed, we went from three to two. Although I almost lost both of them. I was so completely happy that Derek had fought and survived, stayed alive for me.
I sighed as I walked into his room, giving him a small smile. Trying to hide my pain, but I knew Derek could read all my facial expressions so it probably wasn't that successful. "Hey" I said
walking up to him and holding his hand. "Hey", he said quietly in return , his voice still ruff from the surgery. I swallowed back a sob in the back of my throat. Derek patted his bed wanting
me to sit next to him, with him. "I don't want to hurt you." I said afraid to move him over just yet from pain of the surgery. He smiled at me. I helped him move over carefully and sat
down. And that's when it happened. I winced, the cramping was back again. "Mer you okay? Were you shot ? Did he hurt you?" He asked quickly, clearly concerned. I shook my head from
side to side quickly to try to calm him. "I'm sorry." I let out in a whisper. "I'm so sorry." I said again as I let out my first sob. But then I couldn't stop the sobbing. "I'm so sorry." I kept
repeating. Derek tugged on hand wanting me to lay with him. I laid down still sobbing and felt him wrap his arms around me, placing my head on his chest carefully on his right side. The
side that he wasn't shot on, as I kept sobbing. "Not your fault." He said. "Sssshh I'm okay." He said soothingly. He thought I was apologizing for him getting shot. I shook my head. "No
that's not.." I paused how was I going to tell him. "Remember when I came to your office this mourning?" I asked. He nodded. "Yes wanted to say good mourning to my wife." He said. "I…
I was going to tell you something.. but it didn't feel like the right time." I said swallowing, here it comes, the hardest part. "I .. I was throwing up for the past five days like clockwork, so I
took a test this mourning." I paused letting him digest the information before continuing. "I….I was pregnant. I saw you get shot, and then Mr. Clark came in when Christina was saving
you trying to kill everyone, and then Avery took the heart monitor apart so it appeared like you were flat lining and I didn't know so then I broke down. The hunt got grazed, and as I was
fixing him up it happened. I guess my body was just under to much stress. I think… I don't think I'm done yet, that's why I cringed as I sat down. I'm so sorry Derek. We lost are baby. I'm
so sorry." She kept repeating as he held her, tears still falling down her face, wishing there was an easier way to tell him.
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